They Can't Stop Us From Our Freedom

*not part of the flashback*

So I guess I should tell you guys a little bit more so that you aren't confused when I say I'm a mess. You guys are probably like "You only cut one time, you aren't that bad" Yeah, I understand that. But I'm also bulimic. And bipolar. And depressed. Lindley's anorexic but not nearly as bad as I am bulimic. Sydnee told us that it would help us get boyfriends and more people would like us so she started starving herself and I started throwing up my food.

*back to flashback*

"Wakey, wakey," I slowly opened my eyes to see Andy's face right above mine.

"WOAH DUDE PERSONAL SPACE!" I yelled and shoved him off. What the hell is he doing in here this is not his room.

"Geez you're violent when you're scared."

"I wasn't scared."

"You looked pretty scared."

"I'm just not used to being woken up like that."

"Mhmm sure."

"Ugh do I have to go to school?"

"Yes."

"Could you be any more straightforward?"

"Yes."

I rolled out of bed to go get dressed. Andy followed. He was only in his underwear. "ANDY PUT ON SOME CLOTHES PLEASE." I yelled covering my eyes.

"Why? You live in a house full of guys now, I feel bad for Lindley, CC has no shame."

"You guys don't see me walking around in my bra and underwear."

"Well not yet. After three days of being with us, Sammi learned and I think Ashley expects you two to do the same."

"Oh lovely, now, can I get dressed without you watching? And last time I check THIS ISN'T YOUR ROOM!"

"Wow someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning" and with that comment I pushed him out the door.
"GOD DAMMIT WHY ARE YOU SO STRONG?!" he yelled through the door.

"I DON'T KNOW."

I got dressed in a leather peplum shirt and a grey pencil skirt. Lindley and I decided that we would share all of the closets considering we had a lot more than planned. The only downside to that was that she was taller and had wore shoes two sizes bigger than me, but otherwise she was the same size as me.

I went into the bathroom and she was already in there putting on her makeup. I looked in the mirror and saw the bruises. At least most were covered, I just needed to cover the ones on my neck.

"How'd I do?" she asked when she finished her eyeliner. "CC taught me."

"It looks great! Help me with mine?"

"Duhh."

I swear we both looked like totally different people. We walked into the kitchen together.

Everyone was in there except Ashley and they all looked hungover as hell.

We ate breakfast and headed off to school. We had gotten there slightly early so there weren't a lot of people but we were greeted with dirty looks and people pointing. I hope covered my bruises enough.

"LOOK ITS THE WALKING DEAD." one guy yelled.

"SHOCK ME, SAY SOMETHING INTELLIGENT." I yelled.

"WOW LOOKS LIKE THE QUIET BITCH BROUGHT HER SIDE KICK TODAY! YOU GONNA SAY SOMETHING TODAY OR ARE YOU TOO STUPID?" he laughed.

"DO YOU HAVE ANY BETTER INSULTS, YOU'RE STUPID IS SHOWING WITH THE LAME ONES YOU'RE THROWING AT US."

"YOURS AREN'T MUCH BETTER."

"I'M TRYING TO SAVE YOUR SELF ESTEEM, YOU SHOULD BE THANKING ME."

"YOU JUST CAN'T FUCKING INSULT AND THAT'S YOUR SHITTY EXCUSE."

"I'D LIKE TO SEE THINGS FROM YOUR POINT OF VIEW BUT I CAN'T GET MY HEAD THAT FAR UP MY ASS." and then we walked away only to find a big group of guys standing in front of us. Two of the big ones grabbed us and pinned us against a wall.

"So what shall we do today, Nick?

"I think we should do this the old fashioned way," the one named Nick replied.

They beat us up. Yeah, apparently back during sophomore year we bullied their best friend so badly that he had to transfer. We deserved every punch. We were lucky, though. They let us go with only a few punches to the face which wasn't nearly enough for the damaged we caused.

"We deserved that didn't we?" I said as soon as we were far enough away.

"Yeah."

We got by for about another hour before the next set of insults came, this time, they were worse.

"HEY LOOK ITS THE GIRL WHO FUCKED HER BROTHER!" Sydnee yelled.

Nonono.

"Come on Windy lets go before it gets worse."

"ARE YOU JUST GONNA WALK AWAY?"

"Sydnee we do not want anything to do with you."

"How did Braydon go? He's good in bed isn't he. I figured you would enjoy it, I know I did."

"YOU DID THIS?! YOU DID THIS TO ME?!"

"Well of course, Bradon didn't want to at first, but after $600 he agreed, I am his girlfriend after all."

"WHY THE ACTUAL FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT!?"

"Hey don't blame me I-"

"TOO LATE, I'M ALREADY FUCKING BLAMING BOTH OF YOU! I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU WOULD DO THAT."

"Windy, calm down." Lindley whispered to me.

"HOW DO I DO THAT?!" I was bawling.

"Let's go, Sydnee don't expect to be living much longer," Lindley said.

"Good luck with that," she smirked as we walked away.

"I wanna go home," I said as we were walking away.

"Yeah, I figured you would, Andy's gonna flip when he finds out."

"Well, I almost beat her to death."

"Don't worry we'll find some way to get her back."

"I want her dead."

"Fine but you'll be the one in jail."

"Whatever I just want her miserable."

We walked in the door to find the band scattered everywhere. CC and Jake were playing xbox, Sammi and Jinxx we're sitting on the couch, Ashley was probably still sleeping, and Andy was eating.

"Hey what are you guys doing home it's only 10." Jinxx said.

"I NEVER WANT TO GO BACK!" I ran into the bathroom. I threw up the tiny bit of breakfast I had and started unscrewing the back of my phone.

"WINDY WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THERE?!" Andy called through the door. I didn't respond and just continued.

"WINDY COME ON."

I still didn't answer. I got the blades.

"You're a worthless piece of shit." I said to myself as I made the first slice.

"You're own parents don't even want you." The second slice.

"You're brother chose money over your health." The cuts were getting deeper and deeper. The blood came pouring out of them.

"Everyone knows your secrets." The fourth one was deep as fuck. My vision was getting hazy. The world started to disappear.

I saw people rush around me and the last thing I heard was Andy scream, "CALL 911, SHE'S DYING." I blacked out.

Notes

Windy's Outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/windy_ch_11/set?id=85976227
Lindley's Outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/lindley_ch_11/set?id=85976909

INTENSE DRAMA...not really...but everyone throwin shade.

Never Give In, Never Back Down
~Hailie