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I'm In Love With You, Again

Chapter Six

Madison's P.O.V

I kissed him, I kissed him back as if my life depended on it and it felt right, right and wrong at the same time, by the time I decided to pull away, it took me some time to process what he said before he could kiss me.
“You still love me?” I asked confused.
He nodded, “Charlie, I never stopped loving you, I never stopped caring, I never stopped searching and by the looks of it you still love just as much as I do, I know you better than anyone, you wouldn’t kiss someone like that if you didn’t have feelings for them, maybe we’ve been apart for years but I can feel it deep in my bones”
I couldn’t look him to the eyes, I was trying to look anywhere but his eyes.
“I left, I didn’t come back, I was a dick, fame hit me hard, I admit it and while I was away hooking up with random girls, didn’t it occur to you that I was trying to fill the void I felt after I left you?”
“Andy, please stop...”
“Charlie, I was desperately trying to find what I had with you in someone else and I never did, my heart broke just as much as yours did.”
Hearing him call me Charlie was the last thing I needed, it brought back so many memories, I was in tears and it was really hard for me to believe everything he was saying right now but a part of me wanted to believe him, a part of me wanted him back, a part of me loved him so much, a part of me wanted him to stay here with me, with Aaliyah but the other part of me wanted him gone, the other part of me wanted him to stay away and never come back again, I was battling with myself.

“Madison, if I had you and I wasn’t able to keep you at least let me have and keep my daughter, she doesn’t deserve to pay for my mistakes, I’m here, I’m with her and I’ll do whatever I can do for her but please let me stay and hopefully win you over in the process”
“You’re right, she doesn’t have to pay for our mistakes, and if you really want to stay, just stay but promise you won’t hurt her in the process and as for me, I don’t think there’s ever going to be a chance for us, we’re grown, we have separate lives now, separate plans, you’re about to get married and everyone is looking forward to that and I just want to focus on my daughter” I said as I wiped away my tears and walked back into my daughter’s hospital room.

Despite my internal battle I knew for sure that I loved him, I always did and probably that’s the reason for which it hurts so much to have him close now, that’s the reason for which it hurts so much to see he’s about to share the rest of his life with another woman and I wish it could be so simple but I know he would never leave her for me, I’m just the past, a past that was planning to stay in the past if it wasn’t for my daughter’s condition. It didn’t take him long to walk into the room, the silence was half uncomfortable, I wanted to say something, I needed to say something but I just didn’t know what...

“So, you made our daughter have a liking to my music?” he asked.
“Yeah...” I smiled. “I think she knows the songs by heart”
“Do you think it’ll be a good idea for her to meet the guys? I mean-”
“I know they’re family to you and if you feel ready to let them know you have a daughter, I don’t have a problem with them meeting her, after all, she could get use to her uncles, right?”
The bright smile in his face after I said that was priceless and I love to see him smile.
“Thank you, Maddie”
“And please don’t let her know you’re her father, at least not yet”
“Whatever you think is best for her as long as you let me give her a family she can rely on”
I nodded.

He walked out of the room, I assume he went to make some phone calls, on the mean time I decided to stay close to Aaliyah’s bed, I wanted to be as close as possible just in case she woke up and needed something, anything. I took her little hand in mine; God gave me her to love, to protect and I feel I’m failing, I didn’t even know I was crying until a few tears fell into my hand. I really felt the worst mother in the world, it could’ve been me being sick but instead it was her and I wanted desperately to switch places with her.

He walked back into the room and asked, “Maddie, what’s wrong?”
He rushed to my side and hugged me, “It’s nothing”
“Please talk to me, you don’t have to be on your own when we have each other”
“Please, just hold me”
“My pleasure” he said as he hugged me.

I asked the Lord to please stop making me show how vulnerable I am, specially to Andy but maybe he’s all I need right now, maybe this is what I’ve been wanting for a long time, maybe this is what I’ve been praying for? No Maddie, please stop thinking you’ll ever have a future with an already engaged man.

Notes

So it's been more than a year, guys and something made me want to come back and continue writing. I'm a little rusty so if this chapter is shitty, I might as well re-write it.
Thank you for reading!


Comments

@JennaRadley
Thank you so much!
I thought no one was reading this story so I decided to stop writing it but I'll be updating it soon.

ShayBiersack2 ShayBiersack2
7/8/18

Well, I love it so far !

JennaRadley JennaRadley
5/28/18

@BorderlineBarbie
Thank you :) ❤

ShayBiersack2 ShayBiersack2
10/23/17

This is amazing

BorderlineBarbie BorderlineBarbie
10/22/17

more plz