Maddie's P.O.V

I can’t really believe him...can’t he really trust me on this one? A DNA test? Seriously? Doesn’t my child look like him? She’s the spitting image of him, can’t he see that? I know her looks aren’t enough to determine if she is his daughter or not but my word should be enough for him. I wasn’t trying to be harsh on the ultimatum because at the end of the day, he is still her father and she still needs his help but it just hurts that he doubted she is his child.

I couldn’t keep Aaliyah from seeing Andy, she loved him and for the first time in forever she finally had someone she could look up to as a dad, I couldn’t take that away from her, it wasn’t just about me and my feelings, it was about her too but I need time, I need my space to think things through.

I decided to schedule an appointment with a therapist because what I’m going through isn’t normal, I’ve been living in the fast for so long that I haven’t been able to find it within myself to forgive him, I wasn’t able to get over the situation, I’m scared of letting him walk into my life again because maybe I’m just scared he might walk away again.
I didn’t even notice I arrived to my office, I turned the computer on to keep working but I wasn’t focused at all, all I could think about was the damn DNA test, he could’ve easily just spoken to me about his doubts...he could’ve come straight to me, request it from me, I would’ve said yes but behind my back?

A knock at my door interrupted my doubts.
I tried to compose myself, I cleared my throat and said, “Come in”
Caroline opened the door and walked in, “Ms. Wright, I apologize for interrupting, just came to leave some paperwork for you to sign, plus your mail”
“Thank you, Caroline, and please call me Maddie, we’re almost the same age and my position doesn’t really make me any better than you”
She smiled, “Thank you Maddie”
She handed me the paperwork and walked out of my office, closing the door in the process, leaving me alone with my thoughts once again.

I started to walk back and forth, I needed to distract myself, anything could help my mental state. I picked up my phone to check if I had any missed calls or text messages, but not even one, not even from Andy.
Why was I expecting him to call? Looking at it from another perspective he had the right to know but I needed him to tell me first, I decided to stop thinking about the situation and checked my mail, as I was going through it, I found a citation letter, Family Court? Was Andy taking me to court? I opened the letter and read through it...no, this can’t be.

How can he do this to me?

I couldn’t keep Aaliyah from seeing Andy, she loved him and for the first time in forever she finally had someone she could look up to as a dad, I couldn’t take that away from her, it wasn’t just about me and my feelings, it was about her too but I need time, I need my space to think things through.

I decided to schedule an appointment with a therapist because what I’m going through isn’t normal, I’ve been living in the fast for so long that I haven’t been able to find it within myself to forgive him, I wasn’t able to get over the situation, I’m scared of letting him walk into my life again because maybe I’m just scared he might walk away again.
I didn’t even notice I arrived to my office, I turned the computer on to keep working but I wasn’t focused at all, all I could think about was the damn DNA test, he could’ve easily just spoken to me about his doubts...he could’ve come straight to me, request it from me, I would’ve said yes but behind my back?
A knock at my door interrupted my doubts.
I tried to compose myself, I cleared my throat and said, “Come in”
Caroline opened the door and walked in, “Ms. Wright, I apologize for interrupting, just came to leave some paperwork for you to sign, plus your mail”
“Thank you, Caroline, and please call me Maddie, we’re almost the same age and my position doesn’t really make me any better than you”
She smiled, “Thank you Maddie”
She handed me the paperwork and walked out of my office, closing the door in the process, leaving me alone with my thoughts once again.
I started to walk back and forth, I needed to distract myself, anything could help my mental state. I picked up my phone to check if I had any missed calls or text messages, but not even one, not even from Andy.
Why was I expecting him to call? Looking at it from another perspective he had the right to know but I needed him to tell me first, I decided to stop thinking about the situation and checked my mail, as I was going through it, I found a citation letter, Family Court? Was Andy taking me to court? I opened the letter and read through it...no, this can’t be.
How can he do this to me?

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