Dead on the Inside

Noor POV

I flounce back into the sitting room area of the tour bus and slouch on a sofa next to Maria.
"You good?" She asks, staring at my eyes.
I belt out a laugh and glance away, "feeling and being as fabulous as ever, evidently!" I smirk at her and exaggeratedly flip my hair back.
She rolls her eyes and pokes my ribs. "You? Fabulous? I do not think so!"
"Nahh I'm pretty fab-oo." I jiggle around in the sofa, pouting madly.
"What am I looking at right now?"
I look up and see Andy staring at me curiously; a slight raise in his eyebrow.
"You're seeing a chic whose madness beats even my own..." CC wipes an imaginary tear from his eye, forming a sad expression.
"Dude, that shouldn't be done... Female whose name I don't know, are you high?" Ashley appears aghast and I laugh before sticking my tongue out at him.
"Does being high on life count? I'm Noor by the way." I grin.
Ashley shakes his head, laughing, "no, you're too far gone to just be high on life. Pleasure meeting you." His brown eyes glint and my fist tightens, a slight, negative shock going through my chest.
I shake away the feeling before smiling again and turning to Jinxx, who's slumped in the love seat opposite.
"I hate to fan-girl, but your violin playing tonight was beautiful.. Thank you," I smile gently, remembering the sad yet uplifting song that he played beautifully on stage.
He smiles, his cool blue eyes warming, "you're welcome. It's probably one of my favourite tracks on the album."
I nod, "I can understand why." I look at Maria, who is staring at Jinxx with her mouth slightly open. Jinxx follows my gaze and bursts out laughing, his entire face reddening.
Maria shakes her head in embarrassment and blushes. "Sorry, I play the violin as well so I just might have had a little moment." She reaches up and ruffles her hair in front of her face before laughing as well.
Suddenly, the front door opens and their manager walks in. "Guys, we're heading off to the next destination. Umm," he glances at Maria and I awkwardly. "Ladies, can you please head off now, we're on a tight schedule, sorry.."
I smile reassuringly, "don't worry, Mr Manager, it's getting a little late anyway."
"Yeah, we're just lucky the night tubes are running!" Maria chimes in and stands up to head towards the door, grabbing her stuff from the floor.
"Hey, I'll walk you back to the station." Andy grabs a beanie and turtle neck jumper, standing up as well.
"No, it's cool." I look back and nod, "we're fine on our own."

Andy POV

I shrug on the random turtle neck and cover my face, stopping abruptly when Noor replied, almost harshly.
I look up and frown, "are you sure, you said before the station was about fifteen minutes from here?"
Noor shakes her head. "We're fine," she replies shortly, before looking over my shoulder and waving. "Have an amazing night guys! Get up to all those sexy times we all know you love to do!" The guys laugh loudly, shocked at her public brazenness, before saying their goodbyes to their leaving forms.
I glance back at Ashley and Robert, both of which roll their eyes and nod.
I turn and jump out of the bus, catching up quickly to Noor and Maria.
"Wait, Noor can I talk to you a moment?" I look into her eyes; watching as they twitch and glance everywhere except for at me.
"You goof, you're already talking to me!" She smirks, but the lightness in her tone doesn't match her cold eyes.
"I mean alone, maybe?" I glance at Maria who nods and walks to the nearby burger place, heading inside.
I turn back to Noor and see her eyes are harsh. "What is it?"
"I just wanted to know if I've done anything wrong.."
She laughs and rolls her eyes. "No, no. You've done nothing. What made you think that?" She hold a smile, but her cold eyes stare into mine fiercely.
"You don't meet my gaze, you look away when I look at you, you stop me seeing you and... you're acting."
Her eyes narrow. "Excuse me?"
"You're acting," I trudge onwards. "You seem so bright and happy but every now and then it slips that you aren't. You act like the joker to hide how you really feel-"
"What are you? My psychologist? Trying to get beneath my layers, see who I am. Newsflash hunnibun, but you're wrong, and it also doesn't matter to you because you don't know me." She smirks and laughs, but her tone is shaky.
"I'm not wrong, but yeah, it doesn't matter to me. I just like to figure people out."
Her eyes glass before she properly glares; her eyes blazing and heated with both fear and anger.
"You will never figure me out, nor will I ever let you. Now get the hell away from me." She turns away but I grab her arm and scrawl the number, of the travel sim card I bought, across it.
"Maybe you'll feel like talking to me." I turn and walk away but not before I hear her mutter.
"I really doubt that will ever happen."

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