My Fallen Angel
Paradise
Ashlandil
I grimaced, trying to clean the ancient pendent without ruining it's quality. I was gonna give it back to her before I left; she might not know what it was, but she deserved to have it back, I never should have taken it from her in the first place.
And she was so full of life now.
I smiled slightly, thinking about last night, how we'd walked the expense of the town and just talked and laughed and she was just so damn precious.
She didn't like talking much about her fiancé, and I didn't think she really loved him; she'd just settled with him because she thought she couldn't do any better.
But she could; she could do whatever she wanted, have it.
Especially if I had any say in the matter.
She would get whatever she wanted and more.
I glanced up into the hallway as I heard arguing, my door open. I watched Kenali stalk down the hall, and then Andy grabbed her arm, jerking her around.
I bristled; what the fuck was he doing?
"Kenna, just let me see! What if you need to go to the doctor?"
"I dont, okay? Now let go! I'm going to my room!"
"I just want to check!"
"It's FINE, now stop it!" she ordered, pulling out of his grip. "This is completely unnecessary."
"But ---." Andy looked lost a moment. "Kenna ---."
"Andy, please." she sighed, looking tired. "Please just let it go."
His face became disgruntled, and he abruptly reached for her shoulder, but she was faster and smacked his hand, the sound very loud.
I raised my brows.
Trouble in paradise?
"Don't touch me!" she hissed at him, and then turned on her heel and disappeared. Andy stared after her, his fists clenched.
"Fuck," he muttered, and turned to disappear back the way he'd come.
What did he do to her?
I hesitated, then stashed the pendant back in my duffel before hopping to my feet and stepping to the door. I glanced down the direction Andy had went, and started for Kenali s room.
I rapped my knuckles against her door. "Kenali?"
"What?" well that was a sharp tone.
"Can I come in?"
"What do you want?"
"Can we talk?"
"About what?" her voice sounded closer this time.
"I just wanna talk, promise."
I could already see her frowning before she opened the door. I gave her a convincing smile as I stepped into her room, seeing her bags tossed carelessly everywhere; this is why she could never find anything.
I glanced at her neck, but the shirt she wore revealed nothing.
"What's up with loverboy?" I asked, watching her as she walked to her bed and continued to unpack.
"What do you mean?" she asked lightly, tossing some shirts onto the bed rather harshly.
"Last night? I smelled blood, did you get sick again? And I thought I heard you shriek ---."
"It was nothing," she said sharply, her hands briefly hesitating over her clothes. "Don't worry about it."
"What did Andy do?" I asked, edging closer slowly. "I know you're lying to me."
She was biting her lip.
"I'm not lying."
Such a bad liar.
I sighed, and she stiffened as she realized I was right behind her, my hands lightly closing over her arms.
"What did he do?" I asked softly, lowering my gaze to her shoulder where he had reached for her. I brushed her hair to the side, and she abruptly whirled, her hands shoving against my chest.
"Don't!"
"Don't what?"
" Don't touch me!"
I rolled my eyes; we were still on that, we're we?
"Kenali, come on," I huffed. "Just tell me."
"It's none of your business!"
"Did he hurt you last night?"
"No!"
"then let me see!"
"NO!"
"Kenali, " I growled, wrestling with her. "Just let me look!"
"Get away from me!" she hissed, fighting me back. "Don't touch me!"
"I'm not gonna hurt you!" I would never do anything like that again.
I shoved her back on the bed, and she bounced lightly, her face startled before I crawled over her, straddling her waist.
I saw the panic on her face but ignored it, catching her wrists and pinning them above her head before she could start to fight me; I was still stronger then her, faster.
"Stop!" she gasped, "get off me!"
"I'm not gonna hurt you," I grunted. "Just let me see!"
"No! Ashlan, STOP!"
if only I could gag her at this point.
I sighed, and used my free hand to pull the collar of her shirt down, her body tensing under mine.
My eyes widened.
"WHAT THE FUCK?"
She flinched.
It looked like one of us had bitten her, I could see the fang marks. No wonder I'd smelled blood last night.
"Who did this?" I hissed, my fingers clamping on her jaw as I made her look at me. "Cronus?"
"What? No," she tried to wrench her wrists from my grip, but I wouldn't let her.
"Who bit you?" I pressed; I would rip their teeth from their skull for hurting her.
Her eyes flicked to mine, then away. "Please just let go, Ashlan," she whispered.
I hesitated, then released her wrists, and she curled her arms to her protectively.
"It was an accident, " she mumbled, refusing to look at me. "It wasn't anyone's fault or intentional or ---."
"Andy bit you?" I stared down at her in shock; it was the only reason she wouldn't tell me, the only person she would protect so vigilantly.
"He didn't mean too," she muttered, trying to push me off of her, but I merely tightened my grip on her waist, and she huffed.
Andy Fucking bit her? How the fuck was his human teeth able to look like one or ours when we went dark? That shouldn't be possible; it shouldn't be ...
Was his angel coming out more then I'd suspected?
I frowned thoughtfully, my fingers tracing the edge of the wound, her skin black and purple.
She winced, but didn't try to stop me.
"How did this happen?" I asked softly, feeling her heart race.
"I told you, it was an accident. I moved at the wrong time and ---."
"Kenali," my tone was soft, threatening. "I'll ask him if you don't tell me, and it won't be pretty."
She glared up at me. "You can't threaten me, Ashlandil, I'm not afraid of you. And you're not going to hurt him either."
"Not permanently," I agreed, and her glare turned into a glower.
"That's really what happened. We were fucking, he went to nip at my throat about the time I came and he bit deeper then he meant too. Happy?"
I stiffened.
No, I wasn't happy.
"Now get off me!" she ordered, pressing at my shoulders. "You got what you wanted!"
"You need blood," I muttered. "Since you won't feed appropriately, that's not going to heal for weeks."
"I don't want yours!"
"You didn't seem to mind the other day!"
"I was gonna tell you to stop!"
I rolled my eyes, and bit into my wrist. She turned her face away, pressing her lips tightly together.
"Why are you fighting me so much today?" I huffed, clamping my hand on her jaw. "I thought we were past this!"
"If you'd stop bullying me we would be!" she hissed, trying to wrench away from me. I growled, and forced my wrist against her lips, not giving her a choice.
"Fucking drink!" I ordered, and her violet eyes glared vehemently at me.
Blood started to slip over her lips, her mouth filling with my blood and overflowing where she refused to swallow; we'd never had this problem before.
"If you don't drink I'll have to do something very regrettable, " I hissed at her, and she rolled her eyes at me.
Fine. If that's how she wanted to be about it.
I tore my wrist from her lips, and she went to turn her head to spit my blood out. I forced her face up as I crushed my mouth against hers, and I pinched her nose.
She gave an angry, muffled shriek, her claws abruptly tearing through my shirt as she tried to get me off, but she had to breathe sometime.
She started to choke after a few moments, having no choice but to swallow my blood down.
I chuckled in triumph, and released my hold on her nose, she taking a deep breath.
But I didn't want to stop kissing her.
I sighed, and slowly lifted my lips from hers, her face furious.
Blood covered both of our mouths, smeared across the lower half of our faces where she'd struggled.
I tugged on her collar, seeing her wound looking better already.
"That didn't have to be so difficult," I breathed, feeling the wounds in my back start to heal where she'd ripped through the skin.
"Get. OFF OF ME."
I scowled down at her. "I'm just trying to help ---."
"GET OFF!" she shrieked.
Fuck, fine.
I huffed, rolling off of her and to the side.
She sat up immediately, wiping at her face hastily, as if she was disgusted. I sat up in aggravation, turning to look at her.
"What is your problem?" I demanded, getting to my feet. "I thought we were okay now!"
"We are until you force me to do things like that!" she snapped. "You can't keep forcing me to do whatever you like just because you're stronger then me!"
"That's not what I was doing! "
"Then what was it?" she hissed.
"You needed to heal! "
"Did I want too?"
"No?"
"Then did you force me too?"
...
"No?"
"Ashlandil!"
"I'm just trying to take care of you since you can't seem to be able to do it yourself!" I blustered, crossing my arms. "You're too stubborn and you're gonna get yourself killed!"
"I am NOT!"
"You don't have to yell!"
"It seems to be the only way I can get you to listen to me!" she continued to shout, throwing one of the bed pillows at me. "You stupid, arrogant, egotistical ---."
"You don't even know what those words mean!" I hissed, batting them out of the air. "You're so foolish!"
"Demanding!" she thrilled at me.
"Needy!" I snapped at her.
"Controlling!"
"Thoughtless! "
"Cruel!"
"Air headed!"
Now she looked miffed. "How am I airheaded?"
"How am I cruel?" I countered.
"How? Do I really need to explain that?" she snapped, taking a step toward me. "How about all the awful things you've done?"
I felt my blood boil.
How fucking dare she.
"Do you know all the shit I've done for you?" I snarled. "How can you say that knowing I've given up so much for you?"
"You haven't done all that much! Oh, you buy things for me, oh I snap a nail you feed me blood, oh I ---."
"I'm in love with you! Of course I'm going to do things like that!" I bellowed, losing my temper. "I. Fucking. Love. You!"
"Then stop loving me!"
"If it was that easy I would have never started in the beginning!"
The walls were starting to shake at this point with how loud we were screaming at each other, and it was all I could do to not to break half of the room.
"You have Geneva again! What does it even matter?" she shrieked, a vase sailing by my head and crashing against the wall. "Just leave me alone!"
"I'm not gonna ruin her mortal life again! I'm gonna leave her be!"
"You're not going to be able too and you know it!" she hissed, panting for breath.
"Just like you can't leave Andy!" I snapped. "Do you think you're not doing the same thing? What makes you so much better then me?"
Kenali stiffened at my words, and her brow furrowed. "I'm not... I'm not doing that to him."
"You are doing the exact same thing! You know he has a human out there for him, but as long as you're around he'll never get to be with her. And what if he's already met her, Kenali? What's if he's already kissed her and because of you they can't be with one another?"
She shook her head. "Then I'll leave. I'll let her ... Wait, what do you mean already kissed her?"
Oops.
"I'm just saying ---."
"Who has he KISSED?"
"No one," I said quickly.
In her mood she would kill the poor girl.
Sure, Andy was technically single and could do whatever he wanted with whoever, but when he had a raging, hormonal bitch of an ex angel as a lover, he really did need to watch himself; she would have blown her top if she'd seen him and Kennedi at the party.
"ASHLANDIL ----."
"Ah-ah," I shook my head at her, wiping at my face before my blood dried there. "Don't raise your voice at me, now. I'm not who you should be upset with."
"Fine, then I'll just go ask HIM!"
"Anddd you're not doing that either," I caught her arm and spun her around as she went to stalk by me. "That would be disastrous and we have a show to play tonight, and you're not gonna fuck that up. We've just now gotten on good terms and I don't want you making him feel like shit."
"Since when do you care about him at all?" she strained away from me. "If you did then I wouldn't even be here."
"That's not true and you know it," I grunted, keeping my hold on her. "You didn't trust me to take care of him, it's not that I couldn't have. I wouldn't have let Seraphine take away my money ticket, I would have killed her, or at least tried."
I frowned, wondering if I could have now. She was just about the same age of me, so just as strong, yet she'd overpowered me, just about killed me if it hadn't been for Kenali.
And Kenali was just a baby compared to us.
I let my grip on her go lax, and she pulled away, watching me warily.
She was too powerful for her own good, and she had absolutely no idea what to do with it.
But perhaps that was for the best.
I didn't need her going dark on me, I couldn't stand the thought of seeing her gold heart tainted like that. She was already different just from losing it once, a little harsher then before.
I didn't want that.
I sighed, and ran my hands through my hair in aggravation.
Talk about robbing the cradle.
I snorted, and shook my head as I stepped away from her. "Do whatever you want, I don't care." I sighed, and started to the door. "But don't come whining to me when it explodes in your face."
"What makes you think I would EVER come back to you?"
I stiffened, and narrowed my eyes as I glanced over my shoulder at her, my hand hovering on the doorknob.
"Because you're as attracted to me as I am to you, and you won't feed on anyone else. Eventually, you'll have no choice but to come to me again, you know that. It's all just a matter of time before you lose control of yourself. You just better hope I'm around when it happens."
And with that, I walked out.
I grimaced, trying to clean the ancient pendent without ruining it's quality. I was gonna give it back to her before I left; she might not know what it was, but she deserved to have it back, I never should have taken it from her in the first place.
And she was so full of life now.
I smiled slightly, thinking about last night, how we'd walked the expense of the town and just talked and laughed and she was just so damn precious.
She didn't like talking much about her fiancé, and I didn't think she really loved him; she'd just settled with him because she thought she couldn't do any better.
But she could; she could do whatever she wanted, have it.
Especially if I had any say in the matter.
She would get whatever she wanted and more.
I glanced up into the hallway as I heard arguing, my door open. I watched Kenali stalk down the hall, and then Andy grabbed her arm, jerking her around.
I bristled; what the fuck was he doing?
"Kenna, just let me see! What if you need to go to the doctor?"
"I dont, okay? Now let go! I'm going to my room!"
"I just want to check!"
"It's FINE, now stop it!" she ordered, pulling out of his grip. "This is completely unnecessary."
"But ---." Andy looked lost a moment. "Kenna ---."
"Andy, please." she sighed, looking tired. "Please just let it go."
His face became disgruntled, and he abruptly reached for her shoulder, but she was faster and smacked his hand, the sound very loud.
I raised my brows.
Trouble in paradise?
"Don't touch me!" she hissed at him, and then turned on her heel and disappeared. Andy stared after her, his fists clenched.
"Fuck," he muttered, and turned to disappear back the way he'd come.
What did he do to her?
I hesitated, then stashed the pendant back in my duffel before hopping to my feet and stepping to the door. I glanced down the direction Andy had went, and started for Kenali s room.
I rapped my knuckles against her door. "Kenali?"
"What?" well that was a sharp tone.
"Can I come in?"
"What do you want?"
"Can we talk?"
"About what?" her voice sounded closer this time.
"I just wanna talk, promise."
I could already see her frowning before she opened the door. I gave her a convincing smile as I stepped into her room, seeing her bags tossed carelessly everywhere; this is why she could never find anything.
I glanced at her neck, but the shirt she wore revealed nothing.
"What's up with loverboy?" I asked, watching her as she walked to her bed and continued to unpack.
"What do you mean?" she asked lightly, tossing some shirts onto the bed rather harshly.
"Last night? I smelled blood, did you get sick again? And I thought I heard you shriek ---."
"It was nothing," she said sharply, her hands briefly hesitating over her clothes. "Don't worry about it."
"What did Andy do?" I asked, edging closer slowly. "I know you're lying to me."
She was biting her lip.
"I'm not lying."
Such a bad liar.
I sighed, and she stiffened as she realized I was right behind her, my hands lightly closing over her arms.
"What did he do?" I asked softly, lowering my gaze to her shoulder where he had reached for her. I brushed her hair to the side, and she abruptly whirled, her hands shoving against my chest.
"Don't!"
"Don't what?"
" Don't touch me!"
I rolled my eyes; we were still on that, we're we?
"Kenali, come on," I huffed. "Just tell me."
"It's none of your business!"
"Did he hurt you last night?"
"No!"
"then let me see!"
"NO!"
"Kenali, " I growled, wrestling with her. "Just let me look!"
"Get away from me!" she hissed, fighting me back. "Don't touch me!"
"I'm not gonna hurt you!" I would never do anything like that again.
I shoved her back on the bed, and she bounced lightly, her face startled before I crawled over her, straddling her waist.
I saw the panic on her face but ignored it, catching her wrists and pinning them above her head before she could start to fight me; I was still stronger then her, faster.
"Stop!" she gasped, "get off me!"
"I'm not gonna hurt you," I grunted. "Just let me see!"
"No! Ashlan, STOP!"
if only I could gag her at this point.
I sighed, and used my free hand to pull the collar of her shirt down, her body tensing under mine.
My eyes widened.
"WHAT THE FUCK?"
She flinched.
It looked like one of us had bitten her, I could see the fang marks. No wonder I'd smelled blood last night.
"Who did this?" I hissed, my fingers clamping on her jaw as I made her look at me. "Cronus?"
"What? No," she tried to wrench her wrists from my grip, but I wouldn't let her.
"Who bit you?" I pressed; I would rip their teeth from their skull for hurting her.
Her eyes flicked to mine, then away. "Please just let go, Ashlan," she whispered.
I hesitated, then released her wrists, and she curled her arms to her protectively.
"It was an accident, " she mumbled, refusing to look at me. "It wasn't anyone's fault or intentional or ---."
"Andy bit you?" I stared down at her in shock; it was the only reason she wouldn't tell me, the only person she would protect so vigilantly.
"He didn't mean too," she muttered, trying to push me off of her, but I merely tightened my grip on her waist, and she huffed.
Andy Fucking bit her? How the fuck was his human teeth able to look like one or ours when we went dark? That shouldn't be possible; it shouldn't be ...
Was his angel coming out more then I'd suspected?
I frowned thoughtfully, my fingers tracing the edge of the wound, her skin black and purple.
She winced, but didn't try to stop me.
"How did this happen?" I asked softly, feeling her heart race.
"I told you, it was an accident. I moved at the wrong time and ---."
"Kenali," my tone was soft, threatening. "I'll ask him if you don't tell me, and it won't be pretty."
She glared up at me. "You can't threaten me, Ashlandil, I'm not afraid of you. And you're not going to hurt him either."
"Not permanently," I agreed, and her glare turned into a glower.
"That's really what happened. We were fucking, he went to nip at my throat about the time I came and he bit deeper then he meant too. Happy?"
I stiffened.
No, I wasn't happy.
"Now get off me!" she ordered, pressing at my shoulders. "You got what you wanted!"
"You need blood," I muttered. "Since you won't feed appropriately, that's not going to heal for weeks."
"I don't want yours!"
"You didn't seem to mind the other day!"
"I was gonna tell you to stop!"
I rolled my eyes, and bit into my wrist. She turned her face away, pressing her lips tightly together.
"Why are you fighting me so much today?" I huffed, clamping my hand on her jaw. "I thought we were past this!"
"If you'd stop bullying me we would be!" she hissed, trying to wrench away from me. I growled, and forced my wrist against her lips, not giving her a choice.
"Fucking drink!" I ordered, and her violet eyes glared vehemently at me.
Blood started to slip over her lips, her mouth filling with my blood and overflowing where she refused to swallow; we'd never had this problem before.
"If you don't drink I'll have to do something very regrettable, " I hissed at her, and she rolled her eyes at me.
Fine. If that's how she wanted to be about it.
I tore my wrist from her lips, and she went to turn her head to spit my blood out. I forced her face up as I crushed my mouth against hers, and I pinched her nose.
She gave an angry, muffled shriek, her claws abruptly tearing through my shirt as she tried to get me off, but she had to breathe sometime.
She started to choke after a few moments, having no choice but to swallow my blood down.
I chuckled in triumph, and released my hold on her nose, she taking a deep breath.
But I didn't want to stop kissing her.
I sighed, and slowly lifted my lips from hers, her face furious.
Blood covered both of our mouths, smeared across the lower half of our faces where she'd struggled.
I tugged on her collar, seeing her wound looking better already.
"That didn't have to be so difficult," I breathed, feeling the wounds in my back start to heal where she'd ripped through the skin.
"Get. OFF OF ME."
I scowled down at her. "I'm just trying to help ---."
"GET OFF!" she shrieked.
Fuck, fine.
I huffed, rolling off of her and to the side.
She sat up immediately, wiping at her face hastily, as if she was disgusted. I sat up in aggravation, turning to look at her.
"What is your problem?" I demanded, getting to my feet. "I thought we were okay now!"
"We are until you force me to do things like that!" she snapped. "You can't keep forcing me to do whatever you like just because you're stronger then me!"
"That's not what I was doing! "
"Then what was it?" she hissed.
"You needed to heal! "
"Did I want too?"
"No?"
"Then did you force me too?"
...
"No?"
"Ashlandil!"
"I'm just trying to take care of you since you can't seem to be able to do it yourself!" I blustered, crossing my arms. "You're too stubborn and you're gonna get yourself killed!"
"I am NOT!"
"You don't have to yell!"
"It seems to be the only way I can get you to listen to me!" she continued to shout, throwing one of the bed pillows at me. "You stupid, arrogant, egotistical ---."
"You don't even know what those words mean!" I hissed, batting them out of the air. "You're so foolish!"
"Demanding!" she thrilled at me.
"Needy!" I snapped at her.
"Controlling!"
"Thoughtless! "
"Cruel!"
"Air headed!"
Now she looked miffed. "How am I airheaded?"
"How am I cruel?" I countered.
"How? Do I really need to explain that?" she snapped, taking a step toward me. "How about all the awful things you've done?"
I felt my blood boil.
How fucking dare she.
"Do you know all the shit I've done for you?" I snarled. "How can you say that knowing I've given up so much for you?"
"You haven't done all that much! Oh, you buy things for me, oh I snap a nail you feed me blood, oh I ---."
"I'm in love with you! Of course I'm going to do things like that!" I bellowed, losing my temper. "I. Fucking. Love. You!"
"Then stop loving me!"
"If it was that easy I would have never started in the beginning!"
The walls were starting to shake at this point with how loud we were screaming at each other, and it was all I could do to not to break half of the room.
"You have Geneva again! What does it even matter?" she shrieked, a vase sailing by my head and crashing against the wall. "Just leave me alone!"
"I'm not gonna ruin her mortal life again! I'm gonna leave her be!"
"You're not going to be able too and you know it!" she hissed, panting for breath.
"Just like you can't leave Andy!" I snapped. "Do you think you're not doing the same thing? What makes you so much better then me?"
Kenali stiffened at my words, and her brow furrowed. "I'm not... I'm not doing that to him."
"You are doing the exact same thing! You know he has a human out there for him, but as long as you're around he'll never get to be with her. And what if he's already met her, Kenali? What's if he's already kissed her and because of you they can't be with one another?"
She shook her head. "Then I'll leave. I'll let her ... Wait, what do you mean already kissed her?"
Oops.
"I'm just saying ---."
"Who has he KISSED?"
"No one," I said quickly.
In her mood she would kill the poor girl.
Sure, Andy was technically single and could do whatever he wanted with whoever, but when he had a raging, hormonal bitch of an ex angel as a lover, he really did need to watch himself; she would have blown her top if she'd seen him and Kennedi at the party.
"ASHLANDIL ----."
"Ah-ah," I shook my head at her, wiping at my face before my blood dried there. "Don't raise your voice at me, now. I'm not who you should be upset with."
"Fine, then I'll just go ask HIM!"
"Anddd you're not doing that either," I caught her arm and spun her around as she went to stalk by me. "That would be disastrous and we have a show to play tonight, and you're not gonna fuck that up. We've just now gotten on good terms and I don't want you making him feel like shit."
"Since when do you care about him at all?" she strained away from me. "If you did then I wouldn't even be here."
"That's not true and you know it," I grunted, keeping my hold on her. "You didn't trust me to take care of him, it's not that I couldn't have. I wouldn't have let Seraphine take away my money ticket, I would have killed her, or at least tried."
I frowned, wondering if I could have now. She was just about the same age of me, so just as strong, yet she'd overpowered me, just about killed me if it hadn't been for Kenali.
And Kenali was just a baby compared to us.
I let my grip on her go lax, and she pulled away, watching me warily.
She was too powerful for her own good, and she had absolutely no idea what to do with it.
But perhaps that was for the best.
I didn't need her going dark on me, I couldn't stand the thought of seeing her gold heart tainted like that. She was already different just from losing it once, a little harsher then before.
I didn't want that.
I sighed, and ran my hands through my hair in aggravation.
Talk about robbing the cradle.
I snorted, and shook my head as I stepped away from her. "Do whatever you want, I don't care." I sighed, and started to the door. "But don't come whining to me when it explodes in your face."
"What makes you think I would EVER come back to you?"
I stiffened, and narrowed my eyes as I glanced over my shoulder at her, my hand hovering on the doorknob.
"Because you're as attracted to me as I am to you, and you won't feed on anyone else. Eventually, you'll have no choice but to come to me again, you know that. It's all just a matter of time before you lose control of yourself. You just better hope I'm around when it happens."
And with that, I walked out.
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