Tell Me I'm Dreaming

Clary's POV-

I hopped out of the shower... obviously not quick enough, Sebastian barged into the bathroom, his eyes blood shot, obviously high on drugs. He grabbed me and punched me.

I was like his own personal boxing bag....

I whimpered as he slapped me across the face... when we first started dating I thought I loved him and I thought he was so amazing....

''P-please stop, Sebastian.'' I whimpered.
''Shut the fuck up.'' He mumbled, continuing to hit me.

Then he took off his pants and I knew what was coming next...

~~next day~~

I woke up, completely naked in bed, my body sore as usual.

I hope Seb used protection on me last night...

I sighed and rolled over seeing him awake on his phone.

He glanced over at me, seeing I was awake he smiled and put his phone down.

''Morning, beautiful.'' He said, moving a piece of hair out of my face.

I gave him a small fake smile in response.

I really wanted to know why he claims he loves me when he hurts me...

I decided today would be the day where I would ask him.

''S-sebastian?'' I stuttered.

''Hm?'' He replied.

''Can I ask you something?''

''Yeah, of course you can.'' He said, now looking at me curiously.

''Do you love me?''

''Of course I do, Clary. I love you so much, you are the world to me.'' He answered.

''T-then why d-do you hurt me?'' I whispered, half hoping he wouldn't hear me, but he did as his whole face turned sad.

''Because, you help me out. I know I have anger problems, I'm not that stupid to not know, and you help me by letting me take out my anger onto you. It's out of love, if it was in reverse I would be happy for you to do it to me... I'm actually quite sad that you question my love for you, Clarissa.''

I flinched at him using my full name...

''I-I know, I'm sorry...'' I mumbled, I didn't believe that he loved me... I believed he believed he loved me, but he is living in his own world... you can't love someone and hurt then willingly, it just isn't right and it most definately is NOT love.

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