Waking up, I open my eyes and look directly in a couple of ice blue eyes. Instantly I hide my face behind my hand, just seeing trough the glips between my finger. "You were watching me sleep?" I whisper, don't waning to wake the others. "Yeah," he whispers back before taking my hand in his. "It ok, you just snored a little." I'm not sure if he is joking or not because of his big grin, but I don't have time to respond before I hear the voices from downstairs. "What time is it?"
"It's seven thirty."
"Seven thirty? Shit!" I leap out of bed and start dragging on my jeans. He watches me dress, trying to suppress his laughter. "You have such a bad influence on me," I complain. "I have a meeting. I have to go..stop!" He is laughing at me, and so I throw the pillow from the opposite bunk and starts to laugh as well. His hair is all messed up and to be honest he looks super hot in bed right now. "See you later," I say, lean in and kiss him before I go.
Working all night, sleeping on Andy, a lot of work the next day, the kiss, sleeping whit Andy, and work today. I am exhausted. The concert is in a few hours and then we drive on to the next city. I barely have time to smoke... As I do now. I manage to sneak up to the roof for some peaceful minutes, but as I open the door I see a half naked girl and CC. "Oh, come on!" I shout and they jump from each other. "Really CC? Take it somewhere else." I just ignore them and stamp my way to the edge. There I light my cigarette. CC comes up on my side, smiling. "Classy," I mutter but I can't hide my smile and we both end up laughing. "Oh,ok. Ok. But you get horny.. And I get horny." He looks sideway over at me. "And yes, I am talking about you and Andy." The smoke get stuck in my throat and I start to hark, I feel his hand tapping on my back. "Yeah, yeah. We all know about that." He light one of his own cigarettes. "Emm," I don't know what to say in this little moment of silent, but he continues before I can say more. "But it's ok, as long as you don't hurt him." I look up at him in surprise. "Why would I hurt him?" He is the best person I have ever met, but I don't say that out loud. CC just shrugs and look at me again. "We don't know match about you. Sure we have all been on the road for a couple of months but we only know all the superficial stuff. You don't really open up." This is so strait forward and true, I am all lost and don't know where to go next. I look up at him and our gaze meet. "I, I don't know what to say... But, but I guess I can try to explain?" He nods, and I start to open up. "I am a lonely child, and my parents got separated when I was three. It doesn't affect me tho, I mean, it is the only way I know. My mother got me when she was 19 and so we had to move a lot so that she could get an education. Through elementary school I change school every year, but I didn't have any problem getting friends, or superficial friends I guess," I say and bump him in the shoulder. We sit down on the edge, feet dingeling in the air, and I continue. "The problem was that my mother is super strict and always mad. Kind of like she was out to get me, looking for mistakes. It got worse as I got older. We was always fighting, yelling and slamming the doors. In the beginning I cried a lot, but then I stopped whit any emotion regarding my mother. I mostly had my books and my music, and of course my grandmother. When I got my own phone it was easier to contact her, so that I could call her in the best and worst moments." The cold night air is blowing against us, but I don't know if it is that or the story that gives me goose spombs ( or how that is spelled). "All this; only child, separated parents and all the moving made me very lonely. And so I became my own support system, and I am used to hold everything -my thoughts and feelings- to myself. And so I do, trying to not bother anyone whit that shit."

Notes

I feel like this story is very superficial, and so now I try to give it a little more soul.
This is my story, in short version. I know a lot of people in the BVBarmy has it a lot worse than what I am going through, but it is how it is. This is straight from my heart so pleace no mean or bad commenting.
I know it's kinda stops in the middle, but this is it for tonight.