Heart of Fire

My first instinct was to run away and act like nothing happened and that I didn't see anything but I were too hurt by what I've seen. "Surprise Babe and Happy Birthday!" I called and opened the cake box before smashing the cake on Hiros and Shizukas Head. She screamed and he looked shocked. "With my best wishes, I hope you and your new toy bitch like it!" I threw the box at them and turned around walking aut of the apartment and then out of the building.
On the way to the bus stop I cried, Hiro was my life, I trusted him and I were always there for him. How could he do this to me? I took the bus which would drive me to the beach not far away.

At the beach I took off my shoes and walked along the shore looking at the waves. I sat down on the sand and took off the ring, Hiro gave it to me on our 100th day anniversary. I tossed it into the water. Then I hid my face on my knees and cried some more. After a few hours it started to get dark, I didn't want to go home, no one would notice that i'm away and no one would even miss me.

I walked to the small hot spring hotel. I decided I would check in for twonights and stay here till sunday evening. I unlocked the door for my room and enterd it. It had a simple futon bed and little decorations like traditional japanese paintings.

I turned off the lights and lay down on the bed. Soon I fell asleep.

I were woken up by the sunlight that shined through the transparent paper slide doors. I stood up and dressed up into the red yukata that lay folded on the small table. I pulled up my hair with a headband and put on the sandals.

Then I left my room and walked over to the reception, where I got a set of towels and a bowl with toiletries. Then I went to the changing rooms for the hot springs. I undressed and wrapped a towel around my body. I walked out and entered the hot spring, I moaned because it felt so good and relaxing. Again I thought about what happened back in Tokyo. "How could I be so stupid to believe in him? He's popular and everyone looks up to him, how coud he love someone like me? And again Shizuka took everything away from me"
Soon I fell asleep again.

I woke up and it was lunch time. "I were here for 3 hours?!" I rushed out and dressed back into the yukata. Then I left the hotel and drove to the small shopping mall. There I went shopping for new comfy clothes and something small to eat. When I had everything I needed it was already evening so I went back to the hotel. I lay down on the bed and fell asleep.

Now It was sunday and time to go back home. Or don't call it home but hell.

When I got home, it was getting dark. I saw that the lights were on "so everyone is home... great." I entered home and went into the dining room there, what I saw there made me scoff. Mother, Father, Shizuka and Hiro sat at the dining table and ate. Shizuka and Hiro were holding hands and laughed at a lame joke of my mother.

I didn't say anything and walked upstairs to my room, I locked the door and turned the music on loudly. "I HATE THIS SHIT!!" I screamed before breaking down crying again. I ripped the photos which showed Hiro and me off the wall and threw them in the bin.

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