Heart of Fire

I felt broken, everyone blamed me for what happened. My parents, my other family members, the whole school and the police didn't even believe me when I said that I only wanted to protect myself.

I didn't leave my room for 3 days, normally I would eat at least a little but now I ate nothing at all. I didn't feel like talking to anyone. My hand still hurt but I couldn't go to the hospital, the bills would be too expensive and I felt too weak to move.

Two days ago I wanted to play the guitar, but when I played the first note a sharp pain went through my arm and I cried out in pain. They destroyed my hand and the thought of never being able to make music again killed me. Alone the thought of this made me cry again, I thought I didn't have tears to cry left in me but my body proved me wrong.

My things were already packed, it wasn't much I wanted to take with me so it were only two bags.
Now I only needed to wait.

A knock was heard on my door but I didn't move ore said something, I only lay on my bed facing the wall with a blank face and without any emotions left in me. The door opened but I didn't turn around. "Kisa-Chan?" I heard HIS voice but I didn't answer.
He walked infront of me and knelt down looking at me with "worry"
"go away..." I said weakly and without emotions, but deep down he made sick and angry. How dare he? coming in here after what he has done to me.
He chuckled and leaned in, I fet his disgusting lips on my own. Something clicked in me and I pushed Hiro away jumping on his stomach. I slapped his chest over and over, and in this moment I didn't care if my hand would be more damaged than before. All my hate for him overflowed me, it made me blind. "I said go away!" I screamed "I thought you loved me! AND YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I HATE HER! WHY?!".

I calmed down and let myself fall against my bed so I could lean against it with my back. He sat up and wiped the blood at the corner of his lips away. He started to laugh and I looked at him like he was crazy. He started to speak "You're so funny Kitty-Chan"
I looked at him confused and he continued "You really thought I loved you? let me tell you little Kitty, it was a bet"
"A bet?"
"Yes, how fast could I get to fuck you and I won"
"But we didn't sleep with each other!"
"I know but they think we did, the whole school thinks you did, I told them that you were willing to fuck me after our first date" he stood up and wanted to leave my room. "What was your prize?" I asked but in truth I didn't really want to know, I were afraid of the answer.
With the next word my already broken heart crushed into millionth pieces to the ground. "Shizuka" He left.
All the time it was a stupid bet. And I were so stupid and fell for it! He's the reason everyone thought I'm a slut!

The next morning I woke up, I lay on the ground next to my bed. Now I felt the throbbing pain in my hand and when I looked at it I got a shock. My hand was swollen and there was a deep blue bruise on my palm. I tried to move my fingers but a terrible pain shot through my whole arm. I sighed, it was my own fault. I went to my bathroom and bandaged my hand up.

My bedroom door flew open "Kisa, your cab is here!" my mother called and left again. They didn't even drove me to the airport and they didn't say me goodbye. The sooner i'm away the better, my dream comes tru I could finally leave this hell hole, but why weren't I happy about it?
I should be crying of happiness, but I felt nothing, I only felt empty.

Now I sat in the plane to Los Angeles, alone. Probably I were sent from one hell to another. I didn't knew this aunt to whom they sent me so I also didn't know what awaits me.

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