Kissing the Concrete

"About what?" Andy said, sounding concerned. My head bowed as if I was embarrased. I knew I needed to talk about this, but I also knew how much this would hurt.

"It's...I really don't know how to start this conversation." I said, doubtful of what I was going to say. Taking a deep breath, I thought it out. Andy was still looking at me with that worrysome face.

"These past few weeks have been, well, hard. Stressful, downright terrifying. I mean, I don't know anyone who has been through this much in this short period of time. Through all this, I have had you though, which has helped me so much. I honestly don't know if I would be here without you." A slight smile formed on my lips and Andy kissed my cheek gently.

"I feel the same way about you." He said. "I love you."

"I love you too." I said, biting my lip. How was I going to continue from here without breaking his heart?

"The thing is...our relationship has been such an emotional strain on me. I don't know if I can take it anymore." I said, realizing how awful it all sounded. I didn't wanna end our time together, but on the other hand, I couldn't take anymore stress and heartbreak. This was all too much.

"What are you saying?" Andy looked at me with his blue eyes, tears forming in them. Why did I decide to do this? I love him so much.

"I-" Tears started coming to me as well. "I think I need a break from this."

Just like that, I burst out crying again.

"You're breaking up with me?" He was full-out crying right now.

"No! I'm just...I just..." I didn't know what to say. "It's just a break. The past few months have been hard and I can't take anything else. I still love you, but I want to take a break from all the drama. Catch my breath. I wanna commit to this, I want us to be forever, but it's so hard when I have to worry for our safety all the time"

"Please tell me this isn't happening!" Andy almost screamed.

"I'm sorry! It is only temporary! I want you, and I want us to happen. I just can't go on living with all this drama."

We went silent for a while, Andy's already pale face getting even whiter to the point of him almost looking dead.

"It's just a few weeks. Trust me, I'll be back in your arms before you know it. I just can't deal with worrying for your safety all the time, and I think you'll be better off without me for a short while. I've gotten you into too much trouble."

"You were the one sunlight I had."

"I'm still alive. I'll be here. Just not dating you. Trust me, it's temporary. I just can't deal with all the trouble we keep getting into."

"I can. I think it is worth it."

"Andy, I'm broken. I love you so much that it hurts, but it is truly hurting me. And I need time to fix me."

"I can fix you if you want to. Please don't leave me Iris."

"I'm sorry."

I held him in my arms, crying. But I needed this. I couldn't keep just going on, breaking my soul all the time. Anything needs reparation.

"I won't leave you, I promise." I said, kissing his forehead. "I'll be around. And as soon as I am calm again, as I feel okay, I'll be right back with you. I love you, and until we became us, I didn't know that the love I feel for you now was possible."

"Don't be gone for too long. I can't survive without you."

"I won't be."

Notes

Again, sorry for being gone so long. I would have been writing during the trip if it wasn't for lots, and LOTS of debates. 8 of them, 4 were prepped cases, and then almost breaking to octofinals...and doing weird stuff in Olomouc. It was awesome.

I have an idea for a new story, and I'm thinking of starting to write that one today, or tomorrow. It will be less dramatic, but I really like the premise of it.

Also, 20,000+ views! OMG!