Left Broken

I stand there, trying to calm down. I look at Ashley and know I can't tell him, so I lie.
"Just missing my boyfriend" I say, hoping that is enough
He gives me a weird look but doesn't question it, and we walk back to the group.
"Where'd you go?" Andy asked when we got back
"Had to make a phone call. My boyfriend," I pause and look at Gus, "asked me to call when I got here safe. He worries about me." I laugh at the end, a little to nervously.
"I know how that is." Juliet jokes
"So, how do you two know each other?" CC asks Gus and I
I freeze. Gus smiles, and anger burns inside me.
"We dated." and winks at me. That wink sends me over the edge.
"Fuck you!" I yell at him, earning looks from everyone, even him, but his look disappears , and a smirk replaces it.
"You did, remember?" he laughs and Ashley laughs too
Tears threaten to form in my eyes, but I hold them back. He won't see me ever cry again. I stand up, and walk off the bus. I walk, not knowing where I'm going, not knowing who is following. Soon I am stopped, a hand on my shoulder makes me jump in fear. I whip around and see Andy standing there, hands up and confused.
"Chloe, what's wrong?" Andy says slowly reaching out a hand
I hadn't realized that tears had fallen down my face. I was a complete mess in front of my idol, and I have to deal with my abusive ex for three days.
"What's wrong?!!! Everything is wrong Andy!" I sob
"Tell me."
"I.... I can't. I don't, don't want too...." I fall to my knees in front of him and cry
He kneels down next to me and holds me. I need to go home, I need Jason to tell me its okay, to chase away these thoughts running through my head, but I can't. Andy helps me up, and walks me back towards the bus, but I refuse to go on. Then the door opens and Gus steps out.
"Chloe..."
"No! Don't 'Chloe' me! Don't EVER say my name again! Don't ever think about me again! Don't look at me! Don't speak to me! I HATE YOU!" I scream so loud, every surrounding bus door pops open, even everyone on he BVB bus is watching, but I don't care, "I will NEVER be able to forget what you did to me! I have horrible flashbacks when someone says something or touches me a certain way!"
"I apologized, it's over." he says annoyed
"That was not an apology! That was Rich forcing you to say sorry! You want to apologize to me? DO YOU!?"
"Chloe, calm down..." CC says
"CC, you have no idea what he put me through, " I pause and look at him, "If you want to apologize to me, here is what you have to do. Have someone make YOU feel scared! Have someone make YOU feel like you have to walk on egg-shells. Have someone make YOU fear for YOUR life! Have someone throw YOU on a bed twice! Have someone try to put YOUR head through a wall! Have someone charge at YOU! Have someone cut down YOUR favorite band just to hurt you! Have someone throw things at YOU! Have someone pull 4 knives on YOU and your best friends! HAVE SOMEONE CHOKE YOU WITH A FUCKING PILLOW CASE!!!!!!!!!!"
I sob hard as I recall every thing that happened. It takes everything to stay standing. Vic runs over to me from his bus and so do a lot of other people I don't even know. All of the guys from BVB stand near me with Juliet.
"Gus," Jinxx says, "get your things and leave."
"Whatever. Believe the lying psycho bitch. I didn't do any of that!"
"I have witnesses! I cry every day I think about what you said or did! You called me a slut! You brought up the fact that I will probably never have my own kids and threw that in my face to hurt me! I HATE YOU!"
"GUS! LEAVE!" Everyone shouts.




When Gus left, the rest of that day was everyone making me feel better and talking me through everything. I even apologized and felt bad for ruining their day, but they wouldn't listen, they said they were glad to help. The rest of the trip was amazing, and when I got on the plane I had 6 new phone numbers to talk to whenever I needed it.
The plane landed, and as soon as I was off I ran into the arms of my love and swore that I would never leave his arms again.
"I won't let you out of my sight. Are you okay?" he asks me
"I'm okay. Glad to be home."
As we are walking out of the airport I see Gus standing in the parking lot. He looks at me and I give him the middle finger salute as I press my lips to Jason's before getting in the car and heading home.

Notes

THE END!