Left Broken
Let It Burn
"I'm nervous." I say as I sit in the front seat next to Kathy with Troy and Jason in the backseat
We are on our way to Gus' house to get my things and to give him his stuff back. My nerves grow with each passing second, I haven't seen him in almost a week or so and I'm not looking forward to it.
When we pull up he's standing outside waiting for me. Fear strikes me immediately. I grab his stuff and get out of the car. I tell Kathy if I'm not out in 5 minutes, come looking for me. I follow him inside and put his stuff on his bed. He stands in the corner and point to my stuff in a pile on the dresser, I'm scared to turn my back on him, but I start shifting through the pile.
"Just take all of it!" He shouts
I flinch and hope he doesn't notice. I ask to use the bag I brought his stuff in, and he angrily empty's it on his bed and tosses me the now empty bag. I put my stuff in there.
"Anything else you see that's yours you want back?" he asks in an angry tone.
I go to open the dresser drawer that used to hold my stuff
"Oh you won't find any of your stuff in there so don't even try, it's already been taken by someone else." he mocks
I roll my eyes and end up finding my pillow I gave him and grab that, I'm about to walk out when he says,
"You should take these" and shoves the two teddy bears I had gotten him for the two Valentines Days we had been together.
"I don't..."
"Take. Them." he demands
So I take all of it and head out to the car. I put all of it in the trunk and am about to walk around to the door when he says.
"oh! Your jackets inside."
I roll my eyes and tell Kathy I'll be right back, I slowly follow behind him, and when he looks back he says, where only I can hear, "What's the matter? I'm not going to kill you, I thought about it though." I pause. "That's not funny." I glare at him as the words leave my mouth.
I follow him in for what I hope is the last time and he gives me my coat.
"I have something for you." He says and hands me a folded up piece of paper, "Only read it when you're alone."
"K."
"Can I get a hug?"
"Outside, sure."
He laughs and heads that way. I follow and look at what he wrote while his back is turned.
I will love you always.
Yea fucking right. I throw my coat in the car and give him a small hug. When he lets go he calls out.
"Going to Taylor's. Bye!"
Like I fucking care? I get in the car and immediately begin tearing up the note and scattering it alone the road the whole way to Kathy's house. I even give some to my friends to toss out the window.
When we get to Kathy's we start a fire and burn everything. The bears, the love notes, every little thing of my past. BURNS! We even take photos!
