Maybe there's still hope
Good bye.
Warped Tour was already coming to a end and I couldn't keep thinking about moving. I didn't mention it to the others but it was eating me alive. How could I just leave the only family i have left? I decided to not worry about it.
It was the second to last day and I just got off stage. I started walking back to the buses with the guys when I saw bvb hanging outside asking Alexandria's bus.
" hey Jesse!" Ben shouted. I laughed and made my way to the bus he ran and hugged me.
" kill it?" He asked and I nodded.
" don't I always?" I asked .he laughed.
I looked and saw jinxx jake Andy and Danny listening to a story Ashley was telling. I saw cc leaning against the bus talking with Daniela and my heart instantly got jealous.
Daniela was asking Alexandria's merchandise girl and she's been clinging to cc lately. I wouldn't mind but whenever we were alone she always tells me how much cc didn't deserve me and she always points out my flaws.
Ben went to the others and I walked to cc. I wrapped my arms around his waist and nuzzled into his back.
" hey there she is!" He said turning around and kissing me. He pulled me In front of him an put his arms around my waist . Daniela gave me a dirty look.
" I got to go ill see you later cc" she said sweetly to cc and shot me daggers as she walked away.
" how was the show, wish I could have seen it" he said and I faced him leaning against the bus.
" it was good and it's fine I understand you had a signing" I said and he smiled kissing my lips.
" I'd rather spend every moment with you" he said . I smiled.
" hey love birds, stop making children and join the party" Danny yelled throwing a beer can at us. I laughed and grabbed cc's hand walking over to them. I couldn't leave all of this behind .
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" thank you La for making this the best last show on warped!" I screamed in the mic on our last song for the last day and we played last.I finished the song and gave it my all.
" you guys were amazing today thank you we are burn bright and well see you next time" I said and ran of the stage.
" fucking amazing!" Sean shouted and I laughed.
" I agree" Ashley said walking up to us and hugging me.
" I second that!" Cc shouted grabbing me.
" killed it" Andy said hi fiveing me
" like always" jake said
" you were alight I guess " jinxx added and I slapped him causing him to laugh
" just kidding!" He said and I hugged him.
" You better or I'd kick your ass" I said
He laughed and we started to walk back. we reached our van and I stopped.
" I'm gana change , ill meet you at the bus okay?" They nodded and cc kissed me before walking off.
I changed my shirt and helped pack the stuff up. we were leaving around 11 tonight after we had the end of the tour party.
I closed the door and headed to the bvb bus. I walked up the stairs and opened the door.
I walked in and my heart shattered as I saw the sight. My breath stopped.
Cc was on the couch with Daniela on top of him and kissing him .
I let out a gasp and They looked at me. Daniela smirked and Cc shot up.
" Jess !" He ran to me but I shoved past him.
" get away! I trusted you! And you do this !" I screamed. He went to say something but I shove him tears ran down my face. I ran down the stairs and nocked into jinxx.
" Jess what's wrong?" He asked but I pushed him off. I ran through the busses. Tears fell fast. How could he. I loved him.
I got to the van and saw the guys hanging around. They instantly ran to me.
" Jess what's wrong?" Matt asked
" I'll explain on the way back can we please leave now" I asked hurriedly
They looked at me
" please!" I begged through tears.
" yeah ,yeah get in" Tyler said. We all got in . i sat between james and matt. I saw jake and Andy running towards the van.
" go" I said and Tyler started t up leaving. I instantly broke down.
" Jess what's wrong what happened!" Matt asked rubbing my cheek.
" cc he- he was kissing - Daniela" I said through tears and they froze.
" Jess.." James said.
I shook my head and cried harder. How could he. I shook my head and instantly made a decision.
I sat up and looked at them.
" guys about San Diego.."
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Cc's pov:
I got on the bus while the guys went to get drinks. I decided to watch tv to pass the time when the door opened.
" hey Jess" I smiled not looking from the tv.
" hey Chris" my head shot up and I saw Daniela
" oh hey I thought you were jess" I said confused. She walked over to me and laughed.
" why would you want her here when you could have me" she said.
Before I could react she was on my lap and kissing me. I tried to pull back just as I heard a gasp. I looked up and saw Jess. Shit. I shoved Daniela off and ran to her.
" Jess!"
" go away! I trusted you !and you do this!" She shouted
" but Jess I-" she shoved me and ran out the door. I heard the guys out there and I ran out the door. I got out just as she took off down the line of busses.
" what the fuck happened?" Jake asked just as Daniela walked out. She smiled at me before walking away.
I saw the guys stare at me.
Jakes face reddened and he looked at me. Oh fuck.
" you fucking bitch" he snarled and grabbed my shirt slamming me against the bus.
" jake!" I yelled just as he punched me. I grabbed me nose as Andy and Ashley grabbed him off.
" jake ! Let me explain" I said and he looked at me. I let go of my face and stood up breathing heavy.
I saw the others giving me looks as if they were trying to figure out the truth.
" you have 1 minute " he spat.
" But first, Andy and jinxx please go find Jess" he said and they nodded before leaving.
" go" he said starring at me with Ashley next to him.
" jake she came on the bus. She came to me, and she kissed me, I pulled back as Jess came i- I swear to god I wouldn't hurt her like that" A tear escaped my eye and I saw jakes face soften.
" shit you are telling the truth you never cry man" he said just as Andy and jinxx came running back.
" they left" Andy said
My heart sank.
Jake took his phone out and dialed what I guessed was Jessica's number.
" fuck no answer" he said
We all tried and no luck.
" we need to get home now " jake said and we nodded getting on the bus while he got the driver and John together. I sat on the couch shaking.
Please let her be okay.
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Jakes pov:
We pulled up to the house and I ran off the bus the others following behind. I took out my key an opened the door.
" stay here ill to talk to her" I said to the others. They nodded and went to the living room. I pounded up the stairs and knocked on Jessica's door. Shes probably a mess. I expected to hear sobbing but all i heard was Silence.
" Jess!" I called. More Silence. My heart ached.
I shot the door open and froze at the sight.
Her room was empty. The posters she put up were gone, her cloths gone , everything gone her room was exactly the way it was before she came here.
Tears came to my eyes. No, no. She can't be gone.
I saw a piece of paper on the bed.
I sat down and opened it up.
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Guys,
I dot know where to start. Don't blame cc , I understand that he found someone better. He moved on and so should I . I love you guys more than I could ever scream. The time we've spent has been amazing and ill never forget it.I love you all but I'm writing this to tell you to move on without me. I'm moving with the band and I don't plan on keeping in touch. It's best that you forget me. Jake , ill always love you and you'll always be my brother but i think you should just forget me. I'm changing my phone. Thank you for everything and just know ill forever be apart of the bvb army. Lastly , Don't worry about me , I will brave this storm.
Love , Jess.
I dropped the letter and let out a cry.
" no!"
" no no no"
She can't be gone no. I spent 6 years getting her and I already lost her once I can't lose her again. I re read the last line over and over while i watched my tears falling on the paper.
I walked down the stairs and into the living room the guys jumped up .
" jake what-" jinxx started but Saw the letter he grabbed it and started to read it. The more he read the faster his tears fell.
" what the hells going on?!" Andy asked. I looked up tears spilling and looked at Andy Ashley and cc standing there fear written on their faces. Jinxx shook his head.
" she's gone" jinxx said letting the letter drop.
It was the second to last day and I just got off stage. I started walking back to the buses with the guys when I saw bvb hanging outside asking Alexandria's bus.
" hey Jesse!" Ben shouted. I laughed and made my way to the bus he ran and hugged me.
" kill it?" He asked and I nodded.
" don't I always?" I asked .he laughed.
I looked and saw jinxx jake Andy and Danny listening to a story Ashley was telling. I saw cc leaning against the bus talking with Daniela and my heart instantly got jealous.
Daniela was asking Alexandria's merchandise girl and she's been clinging to cc lately. I wouldn't mind but whenever we were alone she always tells me how much cc didn't deserve me and she always points out my flaws.
Ben went to the others and I walked to cc. I wrapped my arms around his waist and nuzzled into his back.
" hey there she is!" He said turning around and kissing me. He pulled me In front of him an put his arms around my waist . Daniela gave me a dirty look.
" I got to go ill see you later cc" she said sweetly to cc and shot me daggers as she walked away.
" how was the show, wish I could have seen it" he said and I faced him leaning against the bus.
" it was good and it's fine I understand you had a signing" I said and he smiled kissing my lips.
" I'd rather spend every moment with you" he said . I smiled.
" hey love birds, stop making children and join the party" Danny yelled throwing a beer can at us. I laughed and grabbed cc's hand walking over to them. I couldn't leave all of this behind .
--
" thank you La for making this the best last show on warped!" I screamed in the mic on our last song for the last day and we played last.I finished the song and gave it my all.
" you guys were amazing today thank you we are burn bright and well see you next time" I said and ran of the stage.
" fucking amazing!" Sean shouted and I laughed.
" I agree" Ashley said walking up to us and hugging me.
" I second that!" Cc shouted grabbing me.
" killed it" Andy said hi fiveing me
" like always" jake said
" you were alight I guess " jinxx added and I slapped him causing him to laugh
" just kidding!" He said and I hugged him.
" You better or I'd kick your ass" I said
He laughed and we started to walk back. we reached our van and I stopped.
" I'm gana change , ill meet you at the bus okay?" They nodded and cc kissed me before walking off.
I changed my shirt and helped pack the stuff up. we were leaving around 11 tonight after we had the end of the tour party.
I closed the door and headed to the bvb bus. I walked up the stairs and opened the door.
I walked in and my heart shattered as I saw the sight. My breath stopped.
Cc was on the couch with Daniela on top of him and kissing him .
I let out a gasp and They looked at me. Daniela smirked and Cc shot up.
" Jess !" He ran to me but I shoved past him.
" get away! I trusted you! And you do this !" I screamed. He went to say something but I shove him tears ran down my face. I ran down the stairs and nocked into jinxx.
" Jess what's wrong?" He asked but I pushed him off. I ran through the busses. Tears fell fast. How could he. I loved him.
I got to the van and saw the guys hanging around. They instantly ran to me.
" Jess what's wrong?" Matt asked
" I'll explain on the way back can we please leave now" I asked hurriedly
They looked at me
" please!" I begged through tears.
" yeah ,yeah get in" Tyler said. We all got in . i sat between james and matt. I saw jake and Andy running towards the van.
" go" I said and Tyler started t up leaving. I instantly broke down.
" Jess what's wrong what happened!" Matt asked rubbing my cheek.
" cc he- he was kissing - Daniela" I said through tears and they froze.
" Jess.." James said.
I shook my head and cried harder. How could he. I shook my head and instantly made a decision.
I sat up and looked at them.
" guys about San Diego.."
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Cc's pov:
I got on the bus while the guys went to get drinks. I decided to watch tv to pass the time when the door opened.
" hey Jess" I smiled not looking from the tv.
" hey Chris" my head shot up and I saw Daniela
" oh hey I thought you were jess" I said confused. She walked over to me and laughed.
" why would you want her here when you could have me" she said.
Before I could react she was on my lap and kissing me. I tried to pull back just as I heard a gasp. I looked up and saw Jess. Shit. I shoved Daniela off and ran to her.
" Jess!"
" go away! I trusted you !and you do this!" She shouted
" but Jess I-" she shoved me and ran out the door. I heard the guys out there and I ran out the door. I got out just as she took off down the line of busses.
" what the fuck happened?" Jake asked just as Daniela walked out. She smiled at me before walking away.
I saw the guys stare at me.
Jakes face reddened and he looked at me. Oh fuck.
" you fucking bitch" he snarled and grabbed my shirt slamming me against the bus.
" jake!" I yelled just as he punched me. I grabbed me nose as Andy and Ashley grabbed him off.
" jake ! Let me explain" I said and he looked at me. I let go of my face and stood up breathing heavy.
I saw the others giving me looks as if they were trying to figure out the truth.
" you have 1 minute " he spat.
" But first, Andy and jinxx please go find Jess" he said and they nodded before leaving.
" go" he said starring at me with Ashley next to him.
" jake she came on the bus. She came to me, and she kissed me, I pulled back as Jess came i- I swear to god I wouldn't hurt her like that" A tear escaped my eye and I saw jakes face soften.
" shit you are telling the truth you never cry man" he said just as Andy and jinxx came running back.
" they left" Andy said
My heart sank.
Jake took his phone out and dialed what I guessed was Jessica's number.
" fuck no answer" he said
We all tried and no luck.
" we need to get home now " jake said and we nodded getting on the bus while he got the driver and John together. I sat on the couch shaking.
Please let her be okay.
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Jakes pov:
We pulled up to the house and I ran off the bus the others following behind. I took out my key an opened the door.
" stay here ill to talk to her" I said to the others. They nodded and went to the living room. I pounded up the stairs and knocked on Jessica's door. Shes probably a mess. I expected to hear sobbing but all i heard was Silence.
" Jess!" I called. More Silence. My heart ached.
I shot the door open and froze at the sight.
Her room was empty. The posters she put up were gone, her cloths gone , everything gone her room was exactly the way it was before she came here.
Tears came to my eyes. No, no. She can't be gone.
I saw a piece of paper on the bed.
I sat down and opened it up.
-
Guys,
I dot know where to start. Don't blame cc , I understand that he found someone better. He moved on and so should I . I love you guys more than I could ever scream. The time we've spent has been amazing and ill never forget it.I love you all but I'm writing this to tell you to move on without me. I'm moving with the band and I don't plan on keeping in touch. It's best that you forget me. Jake , ill always love you and you'll always be my brother but i think you should just forget me. I'm changing my phone. Thank you for everything and just know ill forever be apart of the bvb army. Lastly , Don't worry about me , I will brave this storm.
Love , Jess.
I dropped the letter and let out a cry.
" no!"
" no no no"
She can't be gone no. I spent 6 years getting her and I already lost her once I can't lose her again. I re read the last line over and over while i watched my tears falling on the paper.
I walked down the stairs and into the living room the guys jumped up .
" jake what-" jinxx started but Saw the letter he grabbed it and started to read it. The more he read the faster his tears fell.
" what the hells going on?!" Andy asked. I looked up tears spilling and looked at Andy Ashley and cc standing there fear written on their faces. Jinxx shook his head.
" she's gone" jinxx said letting the letter drop.
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I'm glad!:)
2/20/14