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Maybe there's still hope

Battle scars

I woke up at 10am the next day in my new room. It was the guest room so it was a plain white color but I didn't mind .I could paint it some other time.

I got up and fixed my hair. I walked down the stairs in my batman boxers and vans shirt. I heard a crah from the kitchen. I chuckled and ran in there to see Andy and a pile of broken glass.

I started to clap.

" good job good job" I said sarcastically. He turned around.

" smart ass" he mumbled as he picked up the pieces. He sighed then looked at me.

" nice boxers" he said smirking. I looked down and realized these were his ,I stole them on tour.

" thank I love them " I said and he smiled before running and grabbing me and throwing me over his shoulder.

"ANDY!!" I yelled and he laughed.

" that's my name" he smirked and threw me on the couch. He sat next to me.

" where's jake and Ella?" I asked as he put on the tv. Jersy shore started to play.

"Uh just getting something they should be back -" he got cut off by the door slamming.

" now" he chuckled

Jake came in with Ella. She smiled. We got along when we first me . She was extremely nice.

" morning sunshine" jake sang as he sat on the chair followed by Ella. I raised an eyebrow.

" where were you?" He gave a weak smile.

" funny you should ask... We need to talk" he said nervously. Oh god.

" Jess I signed you up at north bay high school down the street... I want you to finish at least your junior year". He said and I sighed.

" jake..." I wined. But I wasn't going to argue. He was taking me in so the least I could do Is listen to him.

" it's only 2 months this month then June" he said and I signed

Andy rubbed my back. Jake looked at me and Ella was giving a weak smile.

" fine jake, just for you, I'll finish my junior year no promises on senior though" I said and he jumped up hugging me.

" by the way you start tomorrow "

" your a dick" I said and he laughed.

" yeah but you missed me!" He said squeezing me.

" nah I didn't"

" okay fine, shall I call Haley to come pick you up then" he asked looking at me and taking his phone out.

" NO NO NO!! I love you!" I screamed they all laughed.

" your so cute" Ella said and I Flipped her off . She stuck her tougne out at me. I laughed.

Jakes phone rang. He got it out and answered it. Andy grabbed me and threw me on the couch then sat on me.

" andrew!!" i shouted but he covered my mouth.

" thats what you get for stealing my boxers" he hissed and ella laughed as jake raised his eyebrow and shook his head.After a few minutes he put the phone away.

Andy's weight was hurting me.

" Andy!!" I yelled squirming.

I grabbed his kneck and rolled forward crashing us on the floor me on top of him. I got up and sat on the couch he sat next to me.

" no fair.." He wined

" that was jinxx, we are all meeting at the ocean in 30 so get dressed smelly" he said pointing to me.


I flipped him off and ran upstairs. I put on a black bikini top and a misfits short with the arms cut off of it so it showed my sides alittle. I put on white skinny jeans and my vans. I walked down the stairs and saw Ella and jake in black swim shorts with a white tshirt.

" ready" I said.

" why the fuck are you In jeans?" Jake asked.

" I'm not swiming" I said . The truth is I hate my body and I don't even wear shorts unless its at night.

He sighed.

" let's go " he said and we walked out the door.

--

15 minutes later we were at the beach. We got out and saw Sammi , jinxx, Andy, Juliet, and Ashley near the water. No cc. He must be late.

We started walking and I saw people starring at my arms that were exposed. I crossed them.I felt ashamed. Jake rubbed my shoulder.

" it's okay come on let's go to the guys you need to meet Juliet" he said and I shook my head.

" I'm going to stay here" I mumbled not feeling in the mood.

" okay.. Cc will be here soon. " he said they threw their towels down and ran to meet with the rest. I sighed and sat down in the sand. There were a lot of people even though it was may.

I brought my knees to my Chest and held out my hand tracing the cuts. I saw a lady with a girl a few feet near me. The kid was watching me she was about 7 .

" what happene to your arm?"the girl asked standing in front of me. I started at her. She had blond hair and blue eyes. She was in a pink bathing suite. I gave a weak smile.

" I was in a battle" I said and her eyes were filled with curiosity. The mom gave me a sympathetic look.

" with who?" She asked.

" grace don't bother her, in so sorry dear" the mother said.

" no it's fine, " I looked at the girl.

" it was a battle with myself grace." I said. She touched one. Her tiny fingers tracing it.

" you did this?"

I nodded. I saw the mom looking at me in curiosity also.

" my sister had the same battle" she said and I looked up at her.the mom had sadness in her eyes.

" oh yeah?" I asked and she nodded.

" mommy said she lost it, she went away , please don't loose the battle" she said and hugged me. Tears came to my eyes. This little girl lost her sister to self harm.

" I won't" I said wiping my eyes. The little girl smiled and went to her sand castle. The mom looked at me and stood up. I also did.

" I'm sorry about your daughter miss" I said and she smiled.

" thank you, please don't ever loose hope honey, it's not your time." She said and I smiled.

" thank you, I won't" I said.

She took my hand.

" Susan. My names Susan" she said an I shook her hand.

" my names Jessica." I saw jake and jinxx looking our way. I gave a smile signaling I was okay. They nodded and went back to the water.

" pleasure to meet you Jessica, I msorry about my little girl. Every time she sees girls with Scars like her sisters she has to talk to them" she gave a soft laugh.

" it's fine I understand" I said.

" we'll you take care honey, "she said and gave me a soft hug. I couldn't believe a stranger cared.

She went back to her little girl and sat down. All of the sudden i felt myself wing picked up from behind.

I let out a scream and I felt a chest vibrate.

" hey baby" it was cc. Susan smiled at us.

He set me down and kissed me

" not going in the water?" He asked and I shook my head.

" no " I said and he smiled.

" great lets go for a walk" he said.

" JAKE!!" He yelled. I laughed.

" WHAT?!" Jake shouted back. Attracting dirty looks but causing Susan and grace to laugh.

"WE'RE GOING FOR A WALK" jake nodded and cc grabbed my hand.

" your obnoxious" I said as we walked up the concrete stairs and down the board walk.

"Yeah that's one of my many qualities"

I laughed. We walked for hours Hand in hand. We finally made our way back and the guys were coming in. Ashley saw me and sped up towards me.

" Ashley no" I said just as he grabbed me. I squeeled.

He put me down and I shook my shirt.

" I'm soaked now you asshole" I said and he smiled.

" what was that lady talking to you about?" Jinxx asked eyeing me.

" nothing just saying hi" I said as he nodded not believing me.

Juliet was smiling at me.

" Jess this is Juliet" Andy said I smiled.

" hey" I said shyly

She hugged me.

" nice to meet you!" She said and I laughed moving back to cc.

" she's shy when she meets people" jinxx said and I glared.

" it's okay" Juliet said.

" so do you guys want to go eat?" Ashley asked an they all nodded.

" would someone take me home I don't feel good" I said. I was feeling really depressed for no apparent reason. I loved being with the guys but I was nervous and my thoughts were suffocating me.

" are you sure?" Jake asked. I nodded

" ill take her" jinxx said.

" are you sure man ill take if you want" cc said

" nah I'm tired anyway" jinxx said

" okay" cc said


Cc gave me a kiss and I hugged the others goodbye and walked off with jinxx. We got in the car and the others took off.

" you okay?" He asked and I shrugged.

" I'm fine"



" Lets go back to jakes and il stay with you untill they get back"He said and I nodded. He started the car and pulled out. I laid on the console and I felt jinxx rub my back. MRC was playing and I smiled a little.

The car stopped and I got out. We walked in the house and I felt myself starting to brake. He put his keys down and looked at me.

" Jess your not okay" he said and I stood still.I felt a tear fall down. He grabbed me and hugged me. I let the tears freely fall.

" sh sh it's okay" he said and I tried to calm down.

" what's wrong" he asked.

" a lot" I murmured my voice cracking. He put his arm under my legs and walked to the living room. He put me on the couch an turned on the tv.


He sat next to me as looked at me.

" what's wrong"

" I have to go to school tomorrow..they're just going to hate me jinxx everyone does!" I said and he sighed.

" I don't , cc doesn't, Ashley, jake, Andy, Sammi absolute adores you as I'm sure Ella and Juliet do also. And don't forget Johnny" he said and I sighed.

" I know it feels like everyone hates you but it's not true. You'll get through it. Your strong Jess, extremely strong" he said and I smiled a little.

" that's what I like to see" he said wiping my eyes.

" so what else is wrong because I know it's just not that" he said and I sighed.

" I don't know, just feeling depressed" I said and he looked at me.

" there's a weight on my heart and im just in a slump, in worried about school, my parents everything. Mostly what I'm going to do after school" I said

" we all have those. I want you to do me a favor" he said and I looked at him.

" I want you to go to school, kick ass, pass, and then in the summer, I want you to find a band, I want you to be where you belong, on stage because kid you have talent and it's all you live for so I want you to set your mind on it. Well help through your journey I don't want you to worry I want you to say these 4 words okay" he said and I nodded.

" I want you to say, I will make it"

I sighed.

" ji-"

" say it"

" I will make it" I said smiling.

" good." He kissed y cheek.

" thank you, I love you jinxx" I said and he smiled wrapping his arm around me.

" anything for my little sister. I'll always be there for you"he said. I laid on his lap tired.

" feeling better?" he asked an i nodded.I closed my eyes and steadied my breathing as I fell asleep.

Notes

I'm sorry! Between school and work it took me alittle to updte this one. Hope you like it!!

Comments

@LindseyBVBarmy
I'm glad!:)

I know I have read them they are truly amazing continue writing them they make me smile!!

LindseyBVBarmy LindseyBVBarmy
2/20/14

@LindseyBVBarmy
There's a sequal..... And I have like 4 other stories :)

amazing story I loved it you should make more!!

LindseyBVBarmy LindseyBVBarmy
2/18/14
I loved it! On to the sequal!!
BVBArmie BVBArmie
6/24/13