Its been a month since i came back home and i was miserable. when i got back haley greeted me by beating me behind the gym. I've been failing my classes already because i just don't care. I sat up and put on red faded Skinny jeans, a bvb shirt , and Ashley's outlaw hoodie. I sat in my bed. I didn't want to go. I looked at my phone screen. It was a picture of me and the guys. I smiled a little and got up. I put my bag on my shoulders and took a breath while I walked down the stairs.

I walked down and put the door. I trudged down the street.

As soon as I stepped inside the school I was thrown into the lockers.

Haley smirked. I tried to walk away but she grabbed me.


She punched me in the face untill blood pored out. she shoved me and walked Away.

I picked myself off the floor and ran to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror disgusted with what I saw.
I took out my phone and checked my messages.

- I miss you , i have nobody to prank :(

It was Ashley.

- imiss you too Ashley... I can't do this

- have they bothered you yet?

- yes..

- fuck, I wish I could do something

- i know I miss you guys

- we miss you too. I want you to hang in there try to fight back . just remember stay strong we love you. CC misses you like crazy he's been moping around worried. Stay strong sweety.

I sighed. Cc was never moping he was always happy .

I texted him.

Me: hey..

I went to study which was first. John wasn't here so I was alone. I felt my phone vibrate.

Cc: hey baby, are you okay how's school?

Me: no .. They've already got me once.

Cc: :( I miss you so much I'm so sorry.

Me: it's not your fault.

I tried to send the text but it wouldn't send. That's weird. I tried to send it again and it still wouldn't work.

I sighed and put it away getting ready for the next class.

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When I got home my phone still wouldn't work. I walked into the living room where my mom was sitting in.

" hey mum my phones not working I think it's broken" I said

" it's not broken I turned it off" she said sipping her coffee.

" you what?!"

" I know all your going to do is text them all day and not do your school work so I shut it off. I also took your computer I don't want you talking to them" she said and my mouth hung open.

" Why?! He's your son for Christ sakes!!" I screamed

" he's my step son, and they are a bad influence I don't want you dating Christian either." She spat

" This isn't fucking fair!! Why are you being such a bitch" I screamed and she stood up. She looked at me and smacked me. I grabbed my cheek.

" go to your room and don't you dare speak to me like that ever again" she said. I ran to my room and slammed the door slumping against it.

First she takes me away and now she cuts off all communication. I can't wait To get out of here. 1 1/2 more months till I turn 18. Too fucking long. But when I did turn 18 it's not like I could leave . I had nowhere to go and no way of getting there.

I stood up and punched my wall. It broke on impact and my hand hit the beam.

" motherfucker" I screamed sitting on my bed holding my hand. I looked at it my knuckles were bruised.

I just want my brother, my best friends and my boyfriend. I want to have contact with them it's not fucking fair! I looked at my razor I've been using again. I took it and made lines across my left wrist . I dropped it and fell on the floor crying. Why can't I have them back.

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CC's POV

She hasn't texted back since 10. I was worried. It was 5 and I was at Andy's with everyone else.

" cc man you okay?" Ashley asked looking at me. We were on Andy's patio.

" Jess hasn't answered all day, that's unlike her" I said and they froze.

" try calling her" jinxx said. I nodded

I called but it went straight to voicemail.

" voicemail" I said

" guys Im sure shes fine lets not worry" jake said obviously worried himself.

" But it's not like her" Andy said .

" I know she always texts or calls" jinxx said.

My mind was going crazy. I needed to get home.

" I'm going home , see you guys" I said standing up.

" by cc she'll be okay don't worry" jake said. I nodded and walked through Andy's house. I got in my car and leaned against the steering wheel.

What if she's hurt? Calm down cc maybe her phone died. I tried to stay positive but I was a wreck as I drove home.

I just wanted her to call me or better yet, to be back in my arms. I needed her . I can't handle not knowing if she's okay.