Love is a Bitch

I tired to pull my hand away from Andy. "Don't do this." I whispered. Renee gasped and her hands flew to her mouth as she saw the ugly scars. I felt my eyes starting to burn with tears. "Alix.." Jinxx whispered. I could hear the disappointment in his voice. "How long?" Andy asked. I could hear the anger in his voice. "Can we not do this in public?" I whispered. Andy's response was to fling me over his shoulder. I bit my lip and just let it happen. Fighting was getting my no where. Before i knew it Andy had tossed me down on the seats in the tour bus. He sat in front of me and leaned forward I'm listening.
"When did this start?" He demanded. I sat quietly staring at the nasty little fuckers covering my wrist. I bit the inside of my check as the urge to add to my little collection began to build. I took a shaky breath. "The day after you left. I was just..I hurt so bad. I felt like i couldn't breath. I'd hurt you and Jinxx so bad..I'd deserved to be hurt." The other memebers had cathered in the van and were watching me. "When was the last time you cut?" I refused to look at any of them as i answered, "Last night."
There was a knock on the door. "You guys to make your way to the stage." "We'll be right there." I could here the furry in Andy's voice. "Get your ass up, you're coming with us." I stood slowly. Andy grabbed my wrist and drug me through the crowds and deposited me back stage. Josh and Renee stood beside me. "Make sure she stays here." Andy directed to them before turning to me. "I'll deal with you after this fucking show."

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