Is This What Love Is?

~for the best result listen to Skillet - Yours To Hold~


* three hours later*
I am now laying in Ben's bunk just think to myself.. Fuck it I need to leave get out of here get a fresh start i'm 18 I can do what ever I want. iI have enough to get a new start. I got out of the bunk and got dressed as soon as I was done I left the the AA boy's a note

thanks for being there for me though everything,
I'm sorry it has to end like this but i'm leaving,
I don't want to do it but i need to get my head out of the cloud's.
you will see me again one day it may be a week a month or even a year from now but you guys will always be in my heart..
please don't try to contact me or anything it will just make things worse i promise i am save and sound im going to be staying with a friend
~ Samantha Emily Crimson/Biersack <3

by the end of the letter i had tears streaming down my face, but I knew I couldn't just stand here I had to leave.. so thats what i did i picked up my bags and walked over to the BVB tour bus to say my final goodbye.. Once I walked in I found Andy laying on the couch. I walked over to him and kissed him he kissed back almost instantly but I soon broke the kiss
" don't talk just listen i'm leave I can't stay anymore i love you to much it hurts me. I just need to clear my head of everything. i promise you will me me I don't know when but you will"
he didn't say anything. i got up and walked over to the bunks I opened Jinxxes bunk i kissed him on the cheek "i love you Jinxx im sorry i had to do this" i took off my 'Ouija' bracelet off and placed it around his wrist. i walked over to Ashley's bunk and did the same thing but I put my pink ring on his finger. i walked over to Jake's bunk and took off my 'love' neckless around his neck and next i walked ovver to CC's bunk and placed my black ring around his right ring finger and lastly i walked back out to the lounge area and took Andy's hand and place my batman ring around his left ring finger.. i love you Andy i said before picking up my bags but Andy grabbed my hand and kissed me but i pushed him away and walked outside and hailed a taxi
" to the closet airport please" i told him
it felt like hours but it was more like 15 minutes
" thank you sir" i said while paying him
as i walked inside it was quiet so i walked up to one on the women at the front desk
" one ticket to California" i said to her

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