Is This What Love Is?

"so how have you been"
"like shit I really couldn't live without you"
"well I'm sorry Andy" I said grabbing his hands he yelped in pain
"Andy please" I felt tears welling up in my eyes
he pulled me into him chest and I just cried
"Andrew you were the only one I knew that had never done that, you have to stop this" I said looking up at him and putting my hand on his cheek"
" I-its n-not t-t-that easy Sam" he stuttered
" I know what your going though trust me"
" I love you Sam"
" I love you to Andy"
" you should get some sleep I'll be out there with the boys okay" I said while kissing his cheek
"okay"
As I walked back into the living area of the bus I sat next to Ashley and CC an curled into a ball an cried
"Sammy whats wrong" CC said putting his hand on my back
" I-I r-really d-d-don't w-w-want t-to t-talk about it" I stuttered
"its ok Sam" he said while rubbing my back
"no its not. nothings okay anymore I just want my old fucking life back. why did Andy even adopt me?" I said getting up
" Its because he loves you Samantha"
" I know that's the problem"
"how is that a problem" he asked me
"there are so many reasons I can't explain"
"I'm going to bed I need to think"
"well i'll see you when you get up okay" he said hugging me
"okay" I said while hugging back
As I got into Andy's bunk I laid down an I immediately looked at his wrists... I still can't believe he did this, he should have went looking for me if he was in this much pain. How have the fans not seen this.. so may thoughts were going through my head until Andy shifted and his eyes fluttered open.
"what are you doing in here" he asked
I shrugged " I just miss you"
"aww I miss you to" he said while pulling me closer to him.
" Andy can you be honest with me"
"yeah sure why?"
"When was the last time you ate something"
"umm I don't know I haven't left this bunk unless it was to go on stage so at least 5 days"
"Andrew" I yelled at him
he cringed at his name
"were getting you something to eat I don't care if you like it or not"

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