Why?

" Uh what are you doing?" I asked curiously " oh nothing much " he responded I peeked in and seen that chick from Hot Topic laying in bed covering herself with the bed sheets. " WHAT IS SHE DOING HERE?!" I yelled at him, he just looked down, ashamed. I ran into my bedroom, slammed the door and slid down the wall crying. Why can't I have decent relationship? I thought of something I haven't thought about in 2 months.

Thag small little piece of metal that gave me so much relief. I still had it. Just I'm case. I ran into the bathroom and dug through my makeup bag till I found it. My razor. My heart skipped a beat feeling the cold metal once again on my fingertips. I rolled up my sleeve and quickly ran it across my scarred skin about 7 times.

I felt so much better after. But I was ashamed at what I had done. 2 months down the drain, but the relief calmed me down. Just then I felt someone watching me. I looked up it was Ross..... " How did you get in here?!" I yelled clearly upset. " I let myself in, I'm so sorry I was drunk and high. Please forgive me I love you!" He said completely honest. " ok I forgive you.." I sat up and kissed him.

But he looked down, and noticed my still bleeding wrist, " Josie! What did you do???" He said panicked. "Oh uh... Andy was... Uh" I managed to get out before breaking down. " say no more " Ross said and pulled me into a hug. I went and layed down has he climbed in bed next to me. And we fell asleep together.

Notes

Sorry for the cliffhanger. Lol. I'll post more tomorrow. ~love