Black Veil Princess

Axelle's P/O/V




I heard a very loud snore only to open my eyes and see Andy asleep on my bed, I let out a yawn and rolled over I glanced at the clock and noticed it was 2:30 in the morning I look back over at my sleeping brother "I know mom dad and you are alright with me but I know I'm not the perfect girl that you all wanted me to be" I mumbled so I sat up and pulled my hair into a messy bun I knew I wasn't going back to sleep so I did the only thing I knew I was good at I grabbed my guitar and walked into the studio, I flipped the lights and close the door behind me, the computer screen lit as I was recording the drums I finished that much faster than expected so I plugged in my guitar and placed the headphones on starting the process over. it's been a little over an hour and all that's left is to record my vocals so I opened to a page in my old notebook of a song I wrote back at the palace around the time were I was actually discovering who I was I sigh "hello again old friend" I said as I looked over the pages, I brought the notebook into the booth with me and started the track again and hit record, the music started and as soon as I closed my eyes I felt the lyrics pour out

"I'm caught up in your expectations,
You try to make me live your dream.
But I'm causing you so much frustration,
And you only want the best for me.

You're wanting me to show more interest,
To always keep a big bright smile.
Be that pinky little perfect princess,
But I'm not that type of child.

And the storm is rising inside of me,
Dontcha feel that our worlds collide?
It's getting harder to breathe,
It hurts deep inside.

Just let me be,
Who I am.
It's what you really need to understand,
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it's torturing me,
But I can't break free.
So I cry and cry but just won't get it out,
The silent scream.

Tell me why you're putting pressure on me,
And every day you cause me harm.
That's the reason why I feel so lonely,
Even though you hold me in your arms.

Wanna put me in a box of glitter,
But I'm just trying to get right out.
And now you're feeling so so bitter,
Because I've let you down.

And the storm is rising inside of me,
Dontcha feel that our worlds collide?
It's getting harder to breathe,
It hurts deep inside.

Just let me be,
Who I am.
It's what you really need to understand,
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it's torturing me,
But I can't break free.
So I cry and cry but just won't get it out,
The silent scream.

Can't you see,
How I cry for help.
cause you should love me,
Just for being myself.

I drown in an ocean,
Of pain and emotion.
If you don't,
Save me right away.

Just let me be,
Who I am.
It's what you really need to understand,
And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.

And it's torturing me,
But I can't break free.
So I cry and cry but just won't get it out,
The silent scream.

My silent scream."


I smiled as I finished the song I hit stop and placed the headphones over the mic I grabbed my notebook and walked out I knew I had a smile on my face "hey what was that?" the voice scared me I ended up dropping my notebook I went to grab it but someone else handed it to me "I woke up and you weren't in your room so I came to see if you're all right" I sigh "really Andy I'm alright I was actually about to go back to bed" he gave me a look "Andy..." he shows me a small smile "ok I believe you, that song you just sang did you write that?" I nod "I wrote it a long time ago Andy it was one of the first songs I actually wrote, I hope this song helps others as much as it helped me when I felt like that" Andy smiled "we all have a silent scream inside" he says making me smile "come on lets go back to bed" "ok let me just save what I did" I walk up to the computer and proceed to save the newly recorded song, I head back to my room and see Andy just sitting on the bed "I thought you were going back to your room?" I ask "not when I know you need me Axe" so I crawl in bed Andy tosses me a water bottle "thanks" I take a drink and set it next to me "alright lets try and get some sleep ok?" I say he just chuckles "if I remember correctly you were the one who didn't stay asleep" I roll my eyes "hey Biersack shut it now I'm tired" "exactly shut it Biersack you are tired close your eyes and relax" I throw myself back onto my bed "stupid sharing last name not takin the insult right boy you dumb" he gave me a weird look "ok yup now I really believe it I'm tired goodnight" he flips the switch "night"

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