Who could save me now?
Trainwreck.
*Skylar's POV*
I was honestly happy that Virginia was coming, i was trying to show it but i was doing a shit job at it... I had been off since me & Jace broke up, who wouldnt be. I just felt helpless. I wanted nothing more than to die. The guys were letting me have more time alone. Which was a good & bad thing. I had relapsed the night we broke up. I felt like that was the only way to help myself. But i havent cut since then. I was proud of myself, i really was. I was trying to be strong & show everyone i was okay. But everytime something small that reminded me of Jace happened or was brought up i lost it. I couldnt take it. I wasnt able to handle it. So i would go into a crying fit. I hated that about myself, i truly did. But do you know what i hated most? The fact that Jace was moving on & i was sitting here still dying on the inside & i wasnt even the one who did anything wrong.
*The next day*
I rolled over & hit my head on Jinxx's body, so i tried to get up the other way, but on the other side of the bed was Ronnie. For Christ's sake! We all shared the bed in the back. It was supposed to be Andy's, but i usually shared it with one or two of the guys, that was a good thing. 'HONEY! IM HOME!' I heard three, chirpy voices sing. That could only be three people. 'Laur! JuJu! Sam!' I tried as enthusiasticlly as possible, hopefully they would just think it was because i just woke up, but something told me they knew i was off. Next thing i knew, out strolled Jace & Jessyca. The three girls gave digusted stares. 'What?' Jessyca said in a chirpy, preppy, voice. 'You know what their problem is?' I said, inching closer to Jessyca with every word i said, her backing up with every step closer i got. 'That you are one of the whores that Jace slept with while dating me, but you think that you can waltz in here whenever the fuck you want! & Oh, let me guess?! You & Jace slept in MY bunk last night?! You guys need to not do that! That's my bunk for when we're on the road! I dont need to catch the shit you have, sorry hun! CAN WE LEAVE THINS CITY SO THIS SKANK CAN QUIT SLEEPING IN MY BED?!' I screamed, asking anyone who would answer. 'She's been like this since the break up hasnt she?' Sammi asked Jinxx, im assuming. 'Yep, its getting annoying.' Jace said. I heard not a slapping noise, but a punching noise. I walked back into the front room to see Jace on the floor & Sammi walking to the sink to clean her bloody fist off. 'God i love you, Sammi.' I said, running up to her hugging her. Just then, Virginia walked in. 'Oh, thank god youre here, V!' Jake said. She smiled. She was brought in with open arms just like i was. She loved the guys almost as much as i did. As soon as she saw Jace lying on the ground she burst out into laughter. This week would be great.
I was honestly happy that Virginia was coming, i was trying to show it but i was doing a shit job at it... I had been off since me & Jace broke up, who wouldnt be. I just felt helpless. I wanted nothing more than to die. The guys were letting me have more time alone. Which was a good & bad thing. I had relapsed the night we broke up. I felt like that was the only way to help myself. But i havent cut since then. I was proud of myself, i really was. I was trying to be strong & show everyone i was okay. But everytime something small that reminded me of Jace happened or was brought up i lost it. I couldnt take it. I wasnt able to handle it. So i would go into a crying fit. I hated that about myself, i truly did. But do you know what i hated most? The fact that Jace was moving on & i was sitting here still dying on the inside & i wasnt even the one who did anything wrong.
*The next day*
I rolled over & hit my head on Jinxx's body, so i tried to get up the other way, but on the other side of the bed was Ronnie. For Christ's sake! We all shared the bed in the back. It was supposed to be Andy's, but i usually shared it with one or two of the guys, that was a good thing. 'HONEY! IM HOME!' I heard three, chirpy voices sing. That could only be three people. 'Laur! JuJu! Sam!' I tried as enthusiasticlly as possible, hopefully they would just think it was because i just woke up, but something told me they knew i was off. Next thing i knew, out strolled Jace & Jessyca. The three girls gave digusted stares. 'What?' Jessyca said in a chirpy, preppy, voice. 'You know what their problem is?' I said, inching closer to Jessyca with every word i said, her backing up with every step closer i got. 'That you are one of the whores that Jace slept with while dating me, but you think that you can waltz in here whenever the fuck you want! & Oh, let me guess?! You & Jace slept in MY bunk last night?! You guys need to not do that! That's my bunk for when we're on the road! I dont need to catch the shit you have, sorry hun! CAN WE LEAVE THINS CITY SO THIS SKANK CAN QUIT SLEEPING IN MY BED?!' I screamed, asking anyone who would answer. 'She's been like this since the break up hasnt she?' Sammi asked Jinxx, im assuming. 'Yep, its getting annoying.' Jace said. I heard not a slapping noise, but a punching noise. I walked back into the front room to see Jace on the floor & Sammi walking to the sink to clean her bloody fist off. 'God i love you, Sammi.' I said, running up to her hugging her. Just then, Virginia walked in. 'Oh, thank god youre here, V!' Jake said. She smiled. She was brought in with open arms just like i was. She loved the guys almost as much as i did. As soon as she saw Jace lying on the ground she burst out into laughter. This week would be great.
You're welcome (:
6/28/13