Who could save me now?
Extended?
*Skylar's POV.*
It had been a couple weeks since me & Jace had gotten into our fight, & let me tell you, we were doing great. That was the only fight we had. Today marked our six month anniversary & i was ordered to hang out with CC & our tour manager Jon all day while Jace & everyone else dolled up the bus for my suprise. Out of all ten guys, CC & i are the closest, but none of us have been spendind too much time together. So, of course we used today to our advantage. But it didnt sound good when Jon walked in on the phone.
' I understand youre trying to get her suprise ready, Jinxx. ' He was obviously cut off
'No. Get down here now. Its important. All of you guys need to be here. Yes. All nine of you.' Before he could even hear Jinxx's response, he hung up. 'What was that all about?' I asked Jon, curious. 'I have some new news on the tour.' He said simlply. About twentyfive minutes later, the nine guys came into the venue, they had obviously been taking there time. 'Whats the big fucking news?' Jace asked. He was pissed. I was really excited to see what he did for me! 'Come here guys.' Jon said. 'So, we have all decided that we'r going to extend the tour. This extension is going to be a year long. This way it'll be a year in the UK, a year in Canda, & a year in the US. You will have two weeks off, starting tonight, then we will leave for the UK.' We were all suprised but we all saw it coming. 'Alright. I need to go finish.' Jace said. All the other guys stayed & hung out. We all have been getting distant lately, & we all hated it. Even Ash was there. I walked up to him & gave him a hug. I missed him. 'Oh.' Jon began. '& also, Of Mice & Men will be joining your tour.' He slowly walked away as the Of Mice & Men guys ran up to us. 'GINGER PRINCES!!!!' Alan screamed to me while holding his shirt up. We had matching tattoos on our hips that said 'The Ginger Princess' In cursive with a little tiara over it. It was something we had gotten at one of the band parties. I loved the OM&M guys. They were fun dudes. But Austin was serious about one thing. 'Have you quit yet, Skylar...?' I knew exactly what Austin was talking about. I had been self hrming since i was 12, & when we were partying, i got drunk & told him.. I looked down. He grabbed my wrist & looked very confuse when he saw nothing there. 'Im not stereotypical, Austin. Everyone would see them on my arms... I wouldnt be able to keep wearing the hoodies..' I said with my head down. I could tell how bad he wanted to know. But truthfully, the last time i cut was when me & Jace fought.. 'Three weeks ago.. Jace & i got into a huge fight.' I said, nearly a whisper. He looked down. 'Please stop... Youre like a sister to me, & were going to get closer, we have two years left on this tour.' He said. ' I know, Austin.. I'll try..' & That was it. I walked away. I couldnt deal with this conversation anymore. I walked to the bathroom & looked at the mirror. What i was about to do was going to really piss everyone off. But i couldnt not do it. I stood there for a couple minutes. I looked at my gauges. I looked at my nose ring, my snake bites, my tounge piercing, my purple hair, my body features. I was disgusted. How could anyone love me? How could this happen? How did i get lucky with Jace? No, he couldnt love me. There had to be some type of mistake. Before i knew it i punched the mirror. It came crashing down around me. I fell to the floor on all the glass as CC ran in. I had it. This was my breaking point. I was so tired of waking up & feeling nothing. I dont understand it. I am SO in love with Jace. But every morning i wake up & feel like im not good enough for him. Why does that happen to me.?
CC was hovering over me. & I felt the blood rushing out of all my body parts from where i had fallen on the jagged shards of glass. I didnt even care anymore.
*CC's POV*
I heard a crashing noise & ran to the bathroom. There laying on the floor was my babygirl. She was drenched in blood from the jagged shards of glass. I didnt know what to do. But apperently Jake did. 'Dont just stand there CC! She could be losing blood! TOWELS! I NEED TOWELS! NOW! FUCKING NOW! WHAT THE FUCK! I NEED FUCKING TOWELS NOW!' Jake scremed. Alan came rushing in with towels as Jake held her in his arms with the towels over her. She had a break down. She didnt need to talk. All she needed right now was to be in Jakes arms & cry.
*2 hours later*
Skylar explained to us what had happened & how she had just lost it. We completely understood. & I was glad she had Jake. Because he went through that same exact process. This two weeks off was what she needed. After she recovered from her breakdown we all hung out, having some good quality time. We never did that anymore. I was glad we were all starting to get our closeness back, honestly dont think it ever left.
*Skylar's POV*
'I gotta write Jace a love letter. Come on Ash, sit with me.' I said to Ash while i grabbed paper & pencil. *The letter* Dear you,
I have never wanted anything more than i want you. I have never loved anyone, or anything as much as i love you. & I have never belived in anything as much as i belive in our love. No one ever told me how to do this. How to be with someone. I never thought it would be possible for someone like me, not with all my rages, imperfections, melodramatic tendancies, & especially not with my fears. But then i met you. Life is funny that way. You promise yourself this or that & suddenly you find yourself breaking those promises willingly. I promised myself never to fall inlove. Look where that got me. You gave me a bravery I have never known. You have given me courage and strength to fight the only fear I could not face on my own - the fear of love. I’ve watched every relationship I have ever known crumble to the ground when the foundation was shaken. No one attempts to fix what’s broken anymore, they just abandon it. I’ve watched it happen time after time, even in my own life. It’s the reason why I never believed in things like love, marriage, or forever. It was all a lie, a work of cinematography and poetic bullshit. But you changed that. You gave me hope. When I look at you I see my future. when I look at you I get a glimpse of forever. I still get scared, but as long as I’m with you I will always have that glimmer of hope. I love you. I want to be with you forever. Forever seems like a long time when youre only 15 & 16, but i think we can make it there. We have been together for six amazing months, & in all honesty, we have only gotten into one fight. Not even an argument. That wont last long. There will be fights. & There will be times where we both think its the end, but its up to us to decide if our love is strong enough to make it through. I could say a million cheesy things & still not be able to express how much i love you. From the moment i walked onto that tour bus, i knew it was meant to be. I love you so much. I love you to the moon & back. With all my heart. Forever & always.
With as much love as possible.
Me<3
*Back to Skylar's POV*
I teared up writing the letter because it couldnt be more true. I was so in love with him. I loved everything about him. He was made for me<3 It was finally time to go back to the bus, but only me. The boys were told to stay at the venue & once i got to the bus, Jace was on the phone with CC. It was on speaker as he was doing some last minute things. 'NO MOTHER FUCKING SEX! YOU HEAR?!' CC shouted. Jace was laughing. 'I hadnt planned on it. I love her too much.' He said. That made me smile. I love that he respecte my wishes of waiting, & i loved it even more that he trusted me enough to tell me he was a virgin himself. He got off the phone & saw me standing there. He enveloped me in a hug. 'Mmmmmmmmmm, ive missed you. ' He said smiling. The bus looked normal, so i was suspicious. 'Go into CC's bunk & put on some of his pjs.' He said. I got it, the suprise was in my bunk! I went to CC's bunk & put on the clothes. Once i walked out, he handed me an envolpe & a huge bag. I opened the envelope first knowing that the bag only contained clothes. The letter read ;
Dear my princess ,
It had been a couple weeks since me & Jace had gotten into our fight, & let me tell you, we were doing great. That was the only fight we had. Today marked our six month anniversary & i was ordered to hang out with CC & our tour manager Jon all day while Jace & everyone else dolled up the bus for my suprise. Out of all ten guys, CC & i are the closest, but none of us have been spendind too much time together. So, of course we used today to our advantage. But it didnt sound good when Jon walked in on the phone.
' I understand youre trying to get her suprise ready, Jinxx. ' He was obviously cut off
'No. Get down here now. Its important. All of you guys need to be here. Yes. All nine of you.' Before he could even hear Jinxx's response, he hung up. 'What was that all about?' I asked Jon, curious. 'I have some new news on the tour.' He said simlply. About twentyfive minutes later, the nine guys came into the venue, they had obviously been taking there time. 'Whats the big fucking news?' Jace asked. He was pissed. I was really excited to see what he did for me! 'Come here guys.' Jon said. 'So, we have all decided that we'r going to extend the tour. This extension is going to be a year long. This way it'll be a year in the UK, a year in Canda, & a year in the US. You will have two weeks off, starting tonight, then we will leave for the UK.' We were all suprised but we all saw it coming. 'Alright. I need to go finish.' Jace said. All the other guys stayed & hung out. We all have been getting distant lately, & we all hated it. Even Ash was there. I walked up to him & gave him a hug. I missed him. 'Oh.' Jon began. '& also, Of Mice & Men will be joining your tour.' He slowly walked away as the Of Mice & Men guys ran up to us. 'GINGER PRINCES!!!!' Alan screamed to me while holding his shirt up. We had matching tattoos on our hips that said 'The Ginger Princess' In cursive with a little tiara over it. It was something we had gotten at one of the band parties. I loved the OM&M guys. They were fun dudes. But Austin was serious about one thing. 'Have you quit yet, Skylar...?' I knew exactly what Austin was talking about. I had been self hrming since i was 12, & when we were partying, i got drunk & told him.. I looked down. He grabbed my wrist & looked very confuse when he saw nothing there. 'Im not stereotypical, Austin. Everyone would see them on my arms... I wouldnt be able to keep wearing the hoodies..' I said with my head down. I could tell how bad he wanted to know. But truthfully, the last time i cut was when me & Jace fought.. 'Three weeks ago.. Jace & i got into a huge fight.' I said, nearly a whisper. He looked down. 'Please stop... Youre like a sister to me, & were going to get closer, we have two years left on this tour.' He said. ' I know, Austin.. I'll try..' & That was it. I walked away. I couldnt deal with this conversation anymore. I walked to the bathroom & looked at the mirror. What i was about to do was going to really piss everyone off. But i couldnt not do it. I stood there for a couple minutes. I looked at my gauges. I looked at my nose ring, my snake bites, my tounge piercing, my purple hair, my body features. I was disgusted. How could anyone love me? How could this happen? How did i get lucky with Jace? No, he couldnt love me. There had to be some type of mistake. Before i knew it i punched the mirror. It came crashing down around me. I fell to the floor on all the glass as CC ran in. I had it. This was my breaking point. I was so tired of waking up & feeling nothing. I dont understand it. I am SO in love with Jace. But every morning i wake up & feel like im not good enough for him. Why does that happen to me.?
CC was hovering over me. & I felt the blood rushing out of all my body parts from where i had fallen on the jagged shards of glass. I didnt even care anymore.
*CC's POV*
I heard a crashing noise & ran to the bathroom. There laying on the floor was my babygirl. She was drenched in blood from the jagged shards of glass. I didnt know what to do. But apperently Jake did. 'Dont just stand there CC! She could be losing blood! TOWELS! I NEED TOWELS! NOW! FUCKING NOW! WHAT THE FUCK! I NEED FUCKING TOWELS NOW!' Jake scremed. Alan came rushing in with towels as Jake held her in his arms with the towels over her. She had a break down. She didnt need to talk. All she needed right now was to be in Jakes arms & cry.
*2 hours later*
Skylar explained to us what had happened & how she had just lost it. We completely understood. & I was glad she had Jake. Because he went through that same exact process. This two weeks off was what she needed. After she recovered from her breakdown we all hung out, having some good quality time. We never did that anymore. I was glad we were all starting to get our closeness back, honestly dont think it ever left.
*Skylar's POV*
'I gotta write Jace a love letter. Come on Ash, sit with me.' I said to Ash while i grabbed paper & pencil. *The letter* Dear you,
I have never wanted anything more than i want you. I have never loved anyone, or anything as much as i love you. & I have never belived in anything as much as i belive in our love. No one ever told me how to do this. How to be with someone. I never thought it would be possible for someone like me, not with all my rages, imperfections, melodramatic tendancies, & especially not with my fears. But then i met you. Life is funny that way. You promise yourself this or that & suddenly you find yourself breaking those promises willingly. I promised myself never to fall inlove. Look where that got me. You gave me a bravery I have never known. You have given me courage and strength to fight the only fear I could not face on my own - the fear of love. I’ve watched every relationship I have ever known crumble to the ground when the foundation was shaken. No one attempts to fix what’s broken anymore, they just abandon it. I’ve watched it happen time after time, even in my own life. It’s the reason why I never believed in things like love, marriage, or forever. It was all a lie, a work of cinematography and poetic bullshit. But you changed that. You gave me hope. When I look at you I see my future. when I look at you I get a glimpse of forever. I still get scared, but as long as I’m with you I will always have that glimmer of hope. I love you. I want to be with you forever. Forever seems like a long time when youre only 15 & 16, but i think we can make it there. We have been together for six amazing months, & in all honesty, we have only gotten into one fight. Not even an argument. That wont last long. There will be fights. & There will be times where we both think its the end, but its up to us to decide if our love is strong enough to make it through. I could say a million cheesy things & still not be able to express how much i love you. From the moment i walked onto that tour bus, i knew it was meant to be. I love you so much. I love you to the moon & back. With all my heart. Forever & always.
With as much love as possible.
Me<3
*Back to Skylar's POV*
I teared up writing the letter because it couldnt be more true. I was so in love with him. I loved everything about him. He was made for me<3 It was finally time to go back to the bus, but only me. The boys were told to stay at the venue & once i got to the bus, Jace was on the phone with CC. It was on speaker as he was doing some last minute things. 'NO MOTHER FUCKING SEX! YOU HEAR?!' CC shouted. Jace was laughing. 'I hadnt planned on it. I love her too much.' He said. That made me smile. I love that he respecte my wishes of waiting, & i loved it even more that he trusted me enough to tell me he was a virgin himself. He got off the phone & saw me standing there. He enveloped me in a hug. 'Mmmmmmmmmm, ive missed you. ' He said smiling. The bus looked normal, so i was suspicious. 'Go into CC's bunk & put on some of his pjs.' He said. I got it, the suprise was in my bunk! I went to CC's bunk & put on the clothes. Once i walked out, he handed me an envolpe & a huge bag. I opened the envelope first knowing that the bag only contained clothes. The letter read ;
Dear my princess ,
I just want to see you when you’re all alone I just want to catch you if I can I just want to be there when the morning light explodes on your face it radiates I can’t escape I love you ‘till the end I just want to tell you nothing
You don’t want to hear all I want is for you to say why don’t you just take me where I’ve never been before I know you want to hear me catch my breath I love you ‘till the end I just want to be there when we’re caught in the rain I just want to see you laugh not cry I just want to feel you when the night puts on its cloak I’m lost for words don’t tell me all I can say I love you ‘till the end. In french, you dont really say 'I miss you'. You say 'Tu mo manques' which is closer to 'You are missing from me.' I love that. 'You are missing from me.' You are apart of me, essential to my being. You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function wthout you. & When you attracted to someone, Its because of the details.. Their kindness. Their eys. Their smile. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it most. You notice the little things about them. You love their flaws. & Most of all, you love them, just the way they are<3 & Maybe its because im scared. You mean more to me than any other person, you are everything i think about, everything i want. They say that the greatest thing in lfe is finding someone who knows all your mistakes & differences & still finds you absolutely amazing. Well, i still find you amazing, & you still find me amazing. These six months have been great, & i hope we spend many more months together. I love you, princess.
Jace<3
*Back to Skylar's POV*
A tear rolled down my cheek as i kissed him. 'I love you so muc.' I told him. I made him read his & he cried. I loved that he wasnt afraid to be sensitive around me. It was amazing<3 I opened up the rest of my gift loved it. This was amazing. I was living my love song<3
You're welcome (:
6/28/13