Sweet Blasphemy

WARNING THIS COULD BE TRIGGERING FOR SOME, STOP READING IF SO!
I walked home and opened the front door. My mom's car wasn't there which meant she had already gone to work. My mom was never hardly home and when she was she was either sleeping or finishing off paper work. I threw my bag down on my bedroom floor and walked into the bathroom and decided to take a shower before the concert. I stripped off and put my cloths them in the washing basket. I was so glad I didn't have school for a few weeks. I got into the shower and washed my hair I looked around the shower until I saw it. The blade. I hid it under the conditioner pot. No, I can't... can I? I thought. I haven't done it in a while... maybe a few won't hurt... NO! I can't, today is meant to be a good day. (OKAY IT IS SAFE TO READ AGAIN!) I finished up in the bathroom and went into my bedroom and started to get ready for the concert. Once I was ready I picked up my bad and emptied it and started to put everything I would need in it. Once I had finished getting ready I sat on my bed and plugged my ear phones into my laptop and turned it on. I logged onto my facbook and saw I had three unread messages. I clicked on my inbox and read through them.

Emmett: Why did you leave school!? Scared were we? Stupid baby emo! LOL!
Emmett: Why U no answer me bitch! U must be so glad that its spring break! Cuz when u get back u gonna get ur ass kicked even more!

The last one was from my friend Bell. I had met her a couple of months ago over this group on Facebook. Me and her had so much in common and we talked nearly every day. She lived in Britain so the time zones were different but we still talked. Some night I would stay up till about five in the morning just talking to her, other nights she would stay up till about midnight. She would stay up longer but she couldn't because her parent were very over protective. They knew that she had internet friends and they didn't like it but she refused to go home until they let her at least talk to me. They made a deal. If she came home, she was aloud to talk to me whenever we could but never past midnight. Bell wasn't they type of girl to brake her promises to anyone.

Bell: Hey girl, you ready to meet BVB!?! Send me every single pic you take! Love ya xx

I decided to write back considering I had time to kill.

Me: Hi, sure thing. Can't wait! xx

Within about 20 seconds she messaged back.

Bell: I'm so happy for you! How are you getting there? Is your mum taking you or something? x
Me: Yeah she should be home in about 20 minutes and then we are leaving. The concert isn't for another three hours. It will take about an hour and 30 to get there. Then we have to wait for the meet and greet. Then the concert.
Bell: Take a pic of Ash and you. or even get him to call me...! LOL!
Me: Well I will try.
Bell: YAY!

Me and Bell talked for about another 10 minutes until my mom came home.
"Blade you ready to go!?" Mom called from downstairs.
"Yeah! Coming!" I called back.
I shut off my laptop and pulled my ear phones out of it. I grabbed my bag off the floor and ran down the stairs. My mom smiled at me.
"Lets go then" She grinned. I did love my mom, its just she was never home so I never got to spend time with her. This weekend was going to be a tuning point. She finished all of her paper work and booked a hotel for both of us to stay in, she was going to drop me off at the concert then go back to the hotel to wait for me. It would be about 1 when I get back so we would just go to bed and then tomorrow we were going to go shopping. They have a Hot topic there and I was not going to pass up the opportunity to go there. We got in the car and mom started driving. She didn't like me having my ear phones in while in the car unless she agreed to it. For the first time in a long time she asked me something;
"How was your day?" She asked. I know that this is over the diner table conversation but me and her never had diner together. I would come home from school and have a small pot of pasta or something along the lines of that and she would come home about six hours later and eat or she would eat at work. I didn't mind. It meant I got to skip all the awkward lies of how I enjoyed school. She didn't know about the bullies.

"It... It was fine..." I whispered
"Okay, what did you do?" She asked
"Nothing really, just lessons" I tried to avoid these conversations as much as possible.
"Oh, okay, well we won't be at the concert for at least another hour so why don't you try and get some sleep.
"I'm okay mom, I'm not tiered" I said a bit louder, glad to be off the topic of school.
"Really!? Because I could hear you tapping away on that laptop of yours until about midnight last night." She smirked
"Mom, really, I'm not tiered and if I am after the concert then I will come back to the hotel and go strait to bed, promise." I pleaded. I didn't want to sleep because I was bursting with excitement.
"Okay, fine. Well I am going to put the radio on so you can listen to your music if you want. But no Black veil brides.n I don't want you "Fangirling" In the car an hour before you actually meet them." She put air quotes around the word fangirling because she knew I did it a alot.
I plugged my ear phones in and started to listen to All time low. I soon started to drift off to sleep, I couldn't fight it any longer as to day had been horrible, I finally gave up and let sleep take over me.

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