Sweet Blasphemy

My eyes flew open to the sound of my Skype ringing again; Andy's calling kept popping up on the screen. Fuck. Bell must have told him. I walked over to my desk again and was about it hit ignore when I realised. If I didn't answer they might get annoyed and give up on me, most people would want that but me I want them in my life. I clicked on answer and they whole Of BVB's faces popped up on my screen, all with worried looks. I looked at Ashley to see him crying, was it because of me?
"Hey..." CC whisperd. I just looked down at my shoes and sat down in my chair. I wasn't the secretive type so if they asked for the truth I would give it to them.
"Hi" I finally answered back I took a deep breath in and looked up at them and for the first time in a long time, I smiled.
"What the fuck is going on!" Ashley sobbed. I took another deep breath and started to talk.
"Well what did Bell tell you?" I said my voice neutral.
"She told us that whenever you ignore her for a while you hurt yourself, is that fucking true?" He sobbed again. I just nodded.
"Why? Why the actual fuck would you want to fucking do this!?" Ashley screamed this time. "And tell us the fucking truth?"
"Okay you want the truth!?" They all nodded.
"Fine the truth is, I fucking hate the fact that I can't be in the same fucking room as any of my best friends! I have only ever had one friend who was Bell and the worst part is, I have never even met her! Everyone at school hates me I am called all these stupid names every single day and I have nothing! So you wanna judge me! Go the fuck ahead! I screamed, tears running down my face. They all looked so shocked and Ashley was crying even more.
"Blade, we had no idea..." Andy started.
"Well you wouldn't." I cried. Andy looked to all he guys and they all walked away.
"You said that you wouldn't again..." He said sadness in his voice, while looking down.
"I know, I felt bad doing it knowing that you would hate me when you found out..." I said looking down as well. I saw him look strait up.
"Hey no I would never hate you!" He said louder. I smiled.
"Thank you" I blushed.
"Okay, lets make a deal. You are gonna call me everyday and tell me everything that has happened in your day, good and bad and you are gonna just let it all out. Talk to me about it. And in return I will give you a favour, no mater what it is! Deal?" He said soothingly. I nodded and looked into his baby blue eyes, butterflies forming in my stomach.
"Deal" I smiled. He nodded.
We talked for another hour until I was half asleep and couldn't keep my eyes open.
"Okay I think you better get some rest" Andy chuckled, I just nodded and walked over to my bed.
"Night Andy" I said sleepily
"Night Blade" He smiled and ended the call. I soon fell asleep.

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