Family Is Forever
With a Rebel Yell
I sat up in bed with a racing heart. Bloody nightmares. I want to cut a b*tch now. I grabbed my laptop and went through photos of me and my mom. Her and I were as close as ever. I came across the one they took on their wedding day. Mom was only 19 and Daniel was 20.
She looked stunning in her dress. It was blue silk underneath with white snow like lace covering the silk. She was beautiful like an angel. My angel. D*mn it I missed her so much.
I got onto my Twitter account and noticed that the guys followed me as well as a whole bunch of their fans. Then I saw why. The guys posted that Jinxx had adopted Dakota, Jade, and I. Publicity. Oh joy.
I posted momma’s photo and told what happened briefly. Momma’s birthday is today so I also did that.
I got up and noticed Jade on the couch. “Jade wake up.” I picked up a pillow and threw it on her. She jumped up pocketknife out and ready.
I rolled my eyes. “B*tch relax.” I got out cereal and poured us both a bowl.
She sighed and looked at me after getting off the couch. “Andy likes you Sam and you like him too. It’s as simple as that.”
I glared at her. “I do not like him like that Jade! Just as-“ She cut me off with a pointed stare.
“Sam don’t bother lying to yourself. I can see it and so can Dakota. Don’t cheat yourself out of something good. You deserve a break from the terrible roller coaster we call our life. Things are looking up don’t let them go down so fast. Take advantage Sam you might be glad you did.” With that she walked down the bus and went into her bunk.
Maybe I am cheating myself out of something good and I just don’t see it. What the h*ll do I do now. Would Andy love the dark hurt and twisted soul inside of me that I’m hiding? I guess I have to take the chance of getting hurt… if I want stuff to get better than I have to take that chance.
“Your up?” CC’s voice rang out and I jumped at the sudden voice. I looked at him and sighed.
“D*mmit CC. You scared the sh*t out of me. B*tch! Yeah I’m up.”
He laughed and stole a sausage off my plate, “Don’t you remember the rules? No cussing Pitts.” I growled while grabbing his wrist and flipped him on his back.
“A. Don’t touch my god d*mn food or I will put you in the hospital. B, I don’t give a f*ck about the rules. I mean hello dirty words are apart of my nature.”
“Wh*re. Your very annoying you know that.”
I smirked, “So are you though.”
“Too shay.” I grabbed his wirst and hauled his fat a** up.
I grabbed a monster and walked to the rec room. Picking up a beautiful violin and started to play, I let the melody and serene music surround me. I kept playing and playing until a pair of hands took it out.
I look behind me and see Jinxx. He smiled and set the violin back on it’s stand. “I think the violin has had enough abuse for today. I think a guitar would be best for you.”
I pick mine up and tune it. After that I play a song my mom made up. Every chord, every sound, every note filled me with content and the felling that my mom was there with me.
“What song is that from?” I turned around and Jinxx had a confused look.
“”It’s from no song. It came from the brilliant mind of my mother. She originally wrote it on the piano and violin.”
“That’s an awesome song.”
I smiled, “Thanks.” I laid down on the couch and just strummed random chords trying to put together a song I had on my mind I eventually fell asleep.
Andy’s PovI’m so glad we got the girls in our family. That’s basically what we are. A big second family. At least now I know how Sam felt. That’s all I needed to know. She’s still trying to get to trust me and I get that. Maybe we can play 20 questions, get to know each other better.
I was sitting at the table with a notepad thinking up possible lyrics. I got a few but nothing all that good right now. A pair of arms hugged me from behind.
“Hey.” Her voice like honey right now.
“Sam?” She rolled her eyes and sat next to me.
“No it’s Satan!”
“Well then Satan what did you do with my favorite girl?”
She smiled her rare but beautiful smile and stuck her tongue out at me. “I am her bacca.”
“Bacca? What do-“
She sighed, “Tell anyone what I’m about to tell you and I will spread the most horrible rumor I can without ruining your rep.” I nodded and Sam continued, “I like anime and I know a little bit of Japanese okay. Bacca mean idiot, funny, or a few other things. But I meant idiot. Anyway I came to tell you something, actually to give you something. Hold out your hand.”
“Okay I’m trusting you.” I put my hand in hers with my palm face up. She takes something out of her pocket and hesitates. “Sam I love you and you can tell me anything.” She nods and puts a piece of folded up paper in my hand.
“It gives you an explanation for something.” With that she kissed me on the cheek and left me alone with the paper and my thoughts.
I unfolded the paper and read it.
I’m not going to pretend I’m good at telling people stuff. That’s why I wrote it in a note. Please don’t hate me for having to write it down instead of telling you straight out, it was just easier to tell you if I wrote it out and gave it to you.
That day in the music room when we sang Savior together and you kissed me I was keeping my guard up I guess you could say. My past is complicated and The only two people I truly loved left me. My mom and then an ex.
Kyle Woods was his name. He was sweet and caring and I thought I could trust him but I should’ve known better. After three months of bliss he showed his true self and things took a turn for the worse. He was abusive and took advantage of me multiple times. I hid the bruises and all that under makeup and concealer so that I wouldn’t get bullied even worse at school and my brother wouldn’t go to prison for murder.
One night we were in the woods. We had a fire going and things were going smoothly for once and I thought he would actually be nice until I said or did something that set him off. He slammed me against the tree and pushed me into the fire. My shoulder, arm, and hair caught on fire has so many scars from surgery because of it.
I thought I loved him and I didn’t. I was scared that if I left him he would come after me like he said he would. I know your not him believe me I trust you with my life. Please just understand that after going through two abusive relationships it’s hard for me to love someone. Believe me I love you with my mind, heart, body, and soul. This is ripping me part to tell you this. My mind just wants me to shut up and rip this note up and burn it. Any kind of love, sadness or anything would tear you apart in New York ad I don’t want to be hurt again.
Just please know that I love you, Really I do and if you still want to go out with me my answers yes. I just want to take things slow.
God! I had no idea whatsoever about this. I feel terrible about it. Now I know though and I didn’t care if she wrote it out in fact I thought she was awesome enough just to be able to do that.
I got up and walked out the door and into the ‘living room’ on the bus. “Sam?” No answer. Bunk area maybe.
I kept walking until I was in front of her bunk. I moved the curtain out of the way and there she was listening to music. I gently took one earbud out and she turned and looked at me. “So? Take it you read the sob story? Crazy ex’s, b*tchy brothers, and a h*llish past. Yeah that’s my life.”
“Sammantha Isabella Pitts.” She smiled at the last name. “Would you please go out with me?”
She blinked in surprise. “Y-you still want me? Even after all that you know about me now?”
I helped her out of the bunk and pulled her into a hug. At first she was stiff and not wanting any part of it but when she relaxed she sighed and nodded. “Of course I want you Sam. I will always love you and you didn’t deserve all that cr*p. But I think it made you stronger.” She broke down and cried into my shoulder. I finally had my love.
Same thing i guess couple names and who you want Jade with. :)
Have an awesome day.
Never give in never give up and never back down.