Finding Grace

I gazed into his brown eyes as he crept toward me slowly, his dark music bumping through the speakers as he sang softly, a light mist hovering at our feet. He let his hands slide slowly down my arms and rest on my hips, and I pressed my fingertips into his chest, leaning closer to him. He leaned down, and his lips hovered over mine --- then the music spiked and I shoved him away, disappearing behind a veil, everything suddenly going dark.
"Anndddd cut! Good job, guys. You actually looked like you wanted to tear each others clothes off this time." the director said cheerfully, his voice cutting through the sudden silence as they cut the music off. I rolled my eyes, blowing my hair out of my face in aggravation.
I pushed the veil out of the way and stepped back into the set.
Chris Motionless gave a tired sigh, rubbing his face and smearing the dark makeup.
I came to stand beside him, hoping we wouldn't have to do this part over again.
When I'd agreed to be in this music video and feature on his song (after fangirling so hard to everyone within ear shot), I had no idea it would take this long to film.
We'd been working on this for days, but apparently we weren't acting attracted to each other enough to satisfy the director.
"Is it always this long?" I yawned, and he rolled his shoulders, towering over me. We almost looked ridiculous standing near each other our height was so different.
Well, I probably looked like a dwarf and he one of those elves or giants or --- I really needed to stop being so nerdy.
"When the director is Jaime, yeah." Chris muttered, a streak of black down his face.
He had his scary white contacts in, and his makeup was so dark it looked like a black whole around his eyes when he closed them. His piercings were the brightest part about him, and they made him look so fierce.
But then again, he was Chris Motionless, it was his job to look badass and scary, but really he was so nice.
"Here," I motioned him to lean down, and he complied as I rubbed at the streak of makeup on his face.
"Thanks."
I sent him a smile.
I was kind of digging the costumes though.
Chris was in a black suit, spikes on the shoulders with silver cuffs. He wore a black top hat, and he had his hair cut rather short for him, but it looked good. His makeup trailed deliberately back into his hairline, and his skin gleamed with some kind of spray.
I looked like some kind of harem dancer, in my opinion.
My blonde hair, which I hadn't dyed in months red-wise, had black clip ins, which trailed a little longer then the actual length of my hair. I had black glitter on my lips and all around my eyes like I'd smashed my face into a fairy, and I was wearing a black tiara with bright jewels.
My outfit had the silver veiled sleeves, and I kind of looked like Jeanie, off IDream of Jeanie (I should probably lay off all the old TV shows before Andy thought all TV was in black and white again). However, they'd had to alter the costume because I'd refused to not have something to cover my back, so there was a veil fluttering down the rest of the way there.
It was really cute.
I could totally pull off the genie look.
Which is what I think I was supposed to be, some forbidden slave lover or something.
"Okay you guys, I think that's good for that scene!" the director suddenly announced. "But while you guys are still in costume, let's move to the bed scene."
"The what?" I stared at him.
"Yeah, what scene is that?" Chris asked with a scowl. "What's the point of a script of you keep changing it?"
"I'm just trying to make this a decent music video, Mr. Cerulli, you know that." the director replied calmly, and one of the set guys handed us a script.
Chris flicked through it quickly, then stopped at the page so new the ink was still smearable.
"Are you serious? They 'roll around passionately as they consummate their love for the first time'." I narrowed my eyes at the director. "That is not happening."
Not to mention Andy would have a complete heart attack if the video came out and he saw that. The kiss was one thing, and I knew this was just a music video and business, but it made me uncomfortable.
I wasn't Ash Costello here, no matter how much I would like to be.
"It's a flexible scene, I'll give you that. The viewers just have to believe you two are so impossibly attracted to each other you finally can't help yourselves. I know you have issues showing your passions, Ms. Kabinov," I stiffened at that, crossing my arms, "but it's what we have to do to make this video worth watching. Now, I'll give you guys a five minute break, and then we'll wrap these scenes up!"
Or I would beat him with his repugnant aftershave first.
I scowled, and Chris patted my shoulder. "Don't take it personally, Leah. He's ba perfectionist."
"No one has ever told me I can't show my passions," I grumbled as we walked toward the dressing room.
"Hey, the first time I worked with him, he got pissed and told me I looked like some kind of wimpy giant with an acting problem."
"Oh my goodness! That's not okay," I frowned, plopping down in one of the chairs in front of the dressing table, the bulbs burning bright and making the small room kind of stuffy.
"He just does whatever he can to get you riled up into doing what he wants," Chris shrugged, sitting down beside me, and propping his feet up on the table. "I'll be so glad to get out of here."
"Me too," I muttered, digging through my purse for my phone. I had two missed calls from Andy, and I leaned back into the chair as I called him, knowing he was probably irritated.
He hadn't wanted me doing the music video in the first place, we'd even had a fight over it. It didn't have anything to do with Chris, and he'd never really told me what the problem was.
"Hey babe." he answered after a couple rings, and I could hear the guys in the background.
"Hey, sorry I missed you. We were filming."
"It's okay. When are you coming back, anyway?"
I hesitated. "Uh, I'm not sure. We're just taking a break right now and then we're ---."
"So you'll be late again." Now he sounded irritated.
"Not too late," I picked at my costume. "I'll call you when I head over, okay?"
"Fine." he muttered. "See you then."
And he hung up.
I hesitated, and then sighed, tossing my phone into my purse.
Well, he must be on his period again.
"How's Andy?" Chris asked casually, as if it wasn't blaringly obvious I hadn't just been hung up on.
"He's good. He was hanging with the guys." I replied, staring at the stranger in the mirror. Being Motionless in White, of course the video was a dark one. Which meant I looked almost like a goth version of my normal self.
I kind of liked the black streaks.
I chewed my lip, starting to worry.
Warped started soon, and though we would have our own buses, I had sort of assumed we could ride together to some of the places.
Now, I would be lucky if he even bothered to text me.
I sighed, and resisted the urge to rub my tired eyes.
I glanced at Chris, seeing he was texting his girlfriend, who was sending him a lot of hearts and Xs and Os and kissy faces. I'd met her on the first day of filming, and she was really nice; they seemed so happy together.
I looked away quickly, fiddling with my rings.
We needed to have a talk, I guess. I mean, we'd only been dating since November, and it was the end of March, and I could literally remember the last time we'd had sex.
Which was bad.
You're not supposed to have to remember the last time you had sex, it was just supposed to be so regular that it was a normal thing. And it had been early March and he'd been so upset over something, so it had ended up being more consolation/angry sex then anything else.
God I sounded like a middle aged mom worrying about her husband of thirty years.
He was making it hard for my meds to work properly.
"Okay, breaks over! Let's start the scene," Jaime hovered at the door suddenly, his glasses glinting in the light, his bald spot doing the same. "Let's get done before ten tonight!"

Notes

Whoo, and the first chapter is up! What do you guys think so far? I mean, I know it's only the first chapter, but I'm really hoping you all like it. I have quite a bit to write before I'm ready for the next update, plus I'm reading a lot more MIW fanfiction in my spare time as well as writing (as you can all see their little influence).
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