No One Can Tell You Who You Are (Completed)

Dylan's POV

I feel like humongous swords have been stabbed into my chest,
I feel like I've disappointed everybody,
Chastidy,
Ashley,
Jake,
Andy,
CC,
even Jinxx...

Chastidy got out of surgery a couple of hours ago, and they said that the surgery went really good,
that's the highlight of my depressing life right now.

I was sitting on my bathroom floor, with a bottle of pills, and a razor in my hand, this is it, paradise here I come...
I was about to open the bottle of pills, when I forgot my suicide note,
"how could you forget that Dylan?!" I muttered to myself and exited the bathroom.

I got the Black envelope with a red rose on it,
I re-entered the bathroom and made sure to lock the door this time,
I sat myself on the bathroom floor and popped the bottle of pills and poured the whole bottle in my mouth. I dry swallowed the pills and got my razor out,
I cut at least 20 on each wrist and started to see black spots, I smiled to myself;
I have been waiting for this moment since I was 13,
now 5 years later, her e I am doing it, sure I felt guilty for leaving Ashley, but; he will understand.

The one I feel most guilty was Chastidy,
She just got out of surgery and here I am committing suicide,
I just hope whoever finds me,
they would just let me die,
and not take me to a hospital or an ER,
Just let me stay in paradise...

That was all I thought of when darkness took over my vision,
"I'm going to paradise"

Notes

~It is in your moments of
decision that your destiny is
shaped.
~Tony Robbins


~Tyler
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