Accidents Don't Just Happen Accidentally

I slept like a baby, and when I woke up, I felt refreshed, for some odd reason. Everything was dissipated, and not even the fight I had had with Juliet earlier was bothering me. I was on my side, facing the wall, so I rolled over. Only to see Alex trying to sneak off the bed. Oh fuck. That's right, I had sex with her.

"Hey." I said, full of guilt. I cheated on Juliet. What the fuck is wrong with me? I know I was pissed, but I've never gone this far before. Sometimes I'll just throw shit, but I've never slept with another girl because of how Juliet acted.

She almost froze when she heard my voice. "Oh, good morning."

I wasn't trying to stare, but her body was beautiful. It only made me feel worse. Not only had I cheated on Juliet, but now I couldn't take my eyes off of Alex, even if it was just her back. Oh, but it was so good.

"I understand that you probably never want to see me again, I was just trying to sneak out before you woke up."

"Oh..." I feel I should regret what happened, and I do, to a point, but a part of me is still pissed at Juliet for acting like she did. I almost want to see Alex again.

She hopped off the bed with ease and starting picking up her clothes. I didn't know what to do. I had to think, what was I going to do? Just let her walk out of here? I just used her basically, and I don't want to be a dick and just let her walk off this bus feeling used.

"I know it didn't mean anything, but...it was honeslty the best sex I've ever had." She commented, now fully dressed.

How the fuck do I reply to that? Do I thank her or agree or what the fuck do I say? I better make up my mind now, because she's about to leave.

I hopped off the bed, and grabbed her arm. "Hey, wait." She turned back around. She was playing with her lip ring. "You, um, seem like a nice girl. Can we just forget this happened?"

"I won't tell a soul." She stated.

"Okay, thanks. But, do you think we could still, talk and stuff? You know, be friends?"

"Sure, why not."

I grabbed a pen that was right by my bed. I always keep one handy in case I have the urge to start writing something. There have been times where it's the middle of the night and a song idea pops into my head, and it's torture if I can't write it down.

I wrote my number down on her hand. I didn't bother to ask for her's. Either she would want to keep in contact or not and that was her choice. It as the least I could do.

"I should get going." She said, after I set the pen back down. It just felt awkward between us, and I couldn't agree more. "My friends are probably wondering where I am."

I nodded, as she went to open the door. I grabbed my pants off the ground and put them on before she left. I noticed my phone in the corner of the room. I picked it up, seeing that it was vibrating. Juliet's face was lit up on it. Shit, what am I going to say to her?

I crawled back into bed and took a deep breath before answering. I could lose her over this. I don't want to lose her, even if we've been having issues, I still love her. She doesn't have to know. I have to keep this from her. I hate lying to her, but it's the only way.

"Hey." Her voice sounded dejected. Great, this made me feel worse.

"Hey." I responded.

"Andy, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything." This guilt is going to eat me alive and it's only been ten minutes.

"It's okay." She never apologizes, it's always me that does. Fan-fucking-tastic.

"I still love you, and I don't know what came over me."

I laid there in silence. I was in my own world, my own, guilt-ridden mind. Last night's events were running through my head. The fight, running into Alex, and well, the sex.

"Andy?"

"Hm, oh, yea, I love you too." I had a gut-ache saying it.

"Are you okay?"

"Yea, I'm just kinda tired." Lie.

"Okay, well...call me when you get to the next stop."

"Will do."

"Love you, White Rabbit."

"Love you, Dragonfly."

I hung up, just wanting to be alone. I really fucked up. I wasn't even drunk, I was in my complete right mind, too--minus the rage. Alex probably thought I was drunk, and I know she wasn't sober, but she didn't seem terribly drunk. I don't know why I did it. I mean, I get I was enraged, and that Alex was the first person I saw after hanging up, but I've run into plenty of good looking girls after fighting with Juliet, and never once did I have the urge to sleep with them.

I can't deny that she was, for lack of a better word, sexy. She was gorgeous, needless to say, and despite the fact that I love Juliet, I couldn't deny it. But I couldn't think about that. It was a mistake, and we agreed it never happened. It's just... why the hell couldn't I restrain myself?

***

After about an hour or so, I decided to get out of bed and grab something to eat before we started for our next stop. I was in the process of making a sandwich when I noticed someone was missing. CC was showing down on pizza, Jinxx was texting on the couch, Jake was reading the latest issue of Kerrang! but I didn't see Ashley. He's normally one of the first up.

Not two seconds later, the door to the bus opened and in came Ashley.

"Where did you go?" CC asked with a mouthful. I stayed silent as I took my seat at the table.

"I had to drop off a girl. Her friends left her last night."

"I didn't think you hooked up with anyone last night, Ash, kudos to you for being sneaky." CC added.

I was frozen, I had a gut feeling he was talking about Alex. What other girl was on the bus last night?

"I didn't. I ran into her this morning. She must've been a little tipsy this morning because when I asked her why she had spent the night, she didn't answer."

"I think we all got pretty drunk last night, Ash. Wait, was it that one girl? Se had the dark blueish black hair? Nose and lip pierced?"

Ashley nodded. Meanwhile, I was trying to act as natural as possible.

"Yea, her name's Alex. And let me say, she is one sexy girl."

My stomach turned into knots. I was struggling to not get up and run off this bus. I didn't know whether I was mad at Ashley for giving her a ride home and calling her sexy, or if I was relieved that she made it there safe and didn't spill our secret.

"Andy, you saw her, right? You know, black clothes, big tits, blue eyes?"

I almost choked on my sandwich. Did Ashley really just say that about Alex? I know he's really into women and all, but did he seriously just refer to her like that?

I swallowed my bite, without choking. I nodded, "I saw her briefly. I was kind of busy talking to Juliet last night."

"You missed out man, she was a blast. She randomly disappeared last night, probably passed out. Anyways, I'm gonna go shower before we take off."

And just like that, I was left with guilt and a little bit of rage.

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