Andy’s P.O.V

Although I only knew Keeley for about ten minutes, I really thought we connected. Ever since she died two years ago, my insides felt hollow and empty, like she had sucked the very soul and vivacity out of my life.

Somehow, Keeley sparked the barely smoldering ember of love weakly burning deep within me.

But now she’s gone too.

Why am I still here?

What reason do I have to live?

Am I better off dead and buried?

Who will miss me?

My parents will heal with time.

Ashley, CC, Jake, and Jinxx will heal with time,

Everything heals with time.

Except my heart, apparently.

After she died…

Why can’t I say her name?

Every time I try to say it, I choke on her ashes.

I want to say it, though.

I have to say it.

Juliet.

With one simple word, all the joyful, beautiful memories we made together come rushing
back. We were always laughing, always singing, always dancing, always happy.

So happy.

After Juliet died, after my precious Dragonfly lost her wings and crumbled to the ground, I sank into a deep, dark depression.

I contemplated following her to whatever was beyond this life.

Without Juliet here, what did I have to live for?

Only one thing kept me together. Music. Pouring my emotions onto a piece of paper helped me get through Juliet’s death.

Somehow, I don’t think writing will help my grief over Keeley’s death. Her passing slices deep into my soul, baring my feelings to the world.

Now maybe people will finally see how broken and helpless I am.

My fans always say that I’ve helped them through so much, but how can I save them when I can’t even rescue myself?

So, I ask myself once again.

Why am I still here?

Notes

*Listen to either Skin by Sixx:A.M. or Don’t Lean On Me by The Amity Affliction while reading this chapter*
Big events are coming up in the next few chapters!!! Keep reading to find out what happens ;) As always, comments and votes are greatly appreciated!