My Fallen Angel

I took off immediately, heading for the hallway. I made it to the corner before he caught my arm, pulling me back around to face him.
I kept my eyes down, staring at his chest.
"Where have you been?" Ashlandil demanded, dark hair laying against his collar bone. "It's been over two weeks!"
"It's not been ---."
"What the fuck did you think you were doing, running off in the middle of the night? You left all your things ---."
"You told me to leave ---."
"God dammit you know I didn't mean it!"
My eyes flicked up to his warily, seeing the bright red glaring down at me like I was some disobedient child.
"You seemed pretty sure of it then," I hissed at him, jerking from his grasp. "You made me have no doubts you would hurt me if I came back!"
I saw a flash of guilt cross his features, and he slumped slightly.
"I --- I was so mad at you," he muttered, stepping away from me. "After what you told me, all I could think about was how you had betrayed me."
"It had no---."
"I fucking know that," he ran a hand through his already messed hair.
"Kenna?" I glanced behind Ashley, seeing the other guys crowding at the door, but Andy was holding them back, a concerned look on his face.
"Ashley, I'm leaving."
"Where are you going?" he demanded. "Just stay ---."
"I have somewhere to go, okay?" I evaded his grab. "I'm with Theda and Raza and ---."
"RAZA?" he suddenly bellowed, and I flinched. "Ken --- he's fucking dangerous! Are you trying to get yourself killed? There's no way I'm gonna let you stay around him ---."
"It's not your choice!" I hissed. "You're not going to boss me around!"
"I didn't in the beginning! You're just so ignorant of everything ---."
"Oh, because you weren't in the beginning ---."
"You keep letting yourself get sick! You know what you need ---."
"I can take care of myself !"
"You're not doing a very good job of it!" I growled in frustration, glaring at him. "Why do you even care? You told me to leave, I did. I'm not even here for you!"
"You don't think I know you don't give two shits about me?" he shouted, and I realized I'd hit a nerve. "You think I don't know that? I'm trying to help you!"
"STOP TRYING! I don't need you!" I cried, taking a step away from him. "I hate you!"
"I fucking hate you too!"
We glared at each other.
Why did it always come down to a stand off between us? Neither of us were going to give up until we'd hurt the other, and now was no exception.
I clenched my fists, wishing I could shut his stupid face in a door, or throw him into a wall or something, anything, where I wasn't so mad at him anymore.
"Guys?" We both looked over, seeing the rest of the band hovering worriedly.
We looked at each other.
I watched the red die out of Ashleys eyes and the brown appear as he got control of his temper. There was a silence, and then Ashley seemed to deflate, his shoulders slumping.
"I'm sorry," he suddenly whispered, amd I jerked, looking up at him in surprise.
"I really am. I didn't want you to leave. Please, Kenali, come back," he pleaded, slipping his fingers through mine loosely. "Please."
Oh hell. I hesitated, searching his face.
His stupid, temperamental, arrogant, drunk and pleading face.
How could I say no? I sighed.
"On a few terms," I murmured, and Ashley straightened. "Really?"
I nodded, his grip tightening on mine.
"Under a few condit---."
Ashley didn't let me finish, just suddenly grabbed my face, kissing me. I pressed my hands against his shoulders, but I didn't push him away; I kissed him back eagerly, unable to control myself.
This is what I craved.
"Well, does that mean they're back together?"
"It means something. Come on, let's change."
I heard the guys shuffle back into the dressing room, and I pulled away from Ashley with a gasp, my hand buried in his hair.
"I --- I ---."
"Don't," he murmured, kissing my cheek. "Don't make an excuse for it."
I stayed silent, then pulled his lips back to mine, feeling the wall press against my back.
I needed this so badly, no matter how I felt about him.
I might hate him, but god did I want him.

Notes

DANGIT! I was so excited because I was gonna upload an intense chapter, only to realize the story wasn't as far progressed as I thought it was D:
But this one is good too!
I think.
well, that really is up to you guys whether you think its good or not. I'm kind of biased.
ANYWAY.
Would you guys like me to upload the next chapter?
It's kinda really long and kinda maybe most definitely smutty.