The Rock Star Dream

It's a cold day in NYC. The worst part is not being able to move around. Stuck in the sea of bodies outside of the Best Buy Theater. I've been here since eleven am this morning after my two hour train ride from long island and of course I have to live out east. A gust of wind has me shivering. I feel like someone stabbed my face with a bunch of tiny needles. I'm so cold. At least I'm dressed a little warmer than some of the people here. I'm in a pair of thick leggings a long tight dark purple shirt that's almost a dress black canvas boots and my leather jacket. I also have a pair of leather biking gloves on. The bouncer started asking for people with VIP tickets to step forward and form a second line. I stepped up and showed my ticket happy to finally move even though i didn't get to move very far. I'm so excited I'm bouncing in place. The bouncing helps with the blood flow so I continue even though everyone is looking at me like I'm weird. I printed out photos I had taken at previous concerts for the guys to sign so I can frame them over the weekend. Another gust of wind has me gritting my teeth. Hopefully it isn't too much longer because I don't think my small frame can handle much more of this. Of course right after I thought it the bouncer began to lead us through the doors. They scanned our tickets, checked bags and finally we were all inside. Once we stepped in their was an audible sigh from each person. We were lead into a room with a long table and... There. They. Were. Sitting there at the table was the band. OMG! I'm silently screaming in my head while the other fans freak out I look completely calm and collected. Maybe even a little indifferent.

The line moved so slow I felt like I was dying. Being the last person in line was like torture. It was worse because I got to see the reactions. Andy seemed super annoyed with just being here. I don't even know what to think right now but I think the first girl is telling him some sob story about how he saved her with his music and he just basically shrugged her off. Poor thing is probably devastated but it's kind of her own fault. Aren't you supposed to ask the band questions at a meet and greet? Who wants to hear some little girl whine about her problems? Whatever it's just my opinion. Once it's down to five people in front of me I can kind of read their lips better. The guys look like they're trying to stay calm and not be like Andy who is now starting to get angry with the sob stories and fan-girling super fans. I can only imagine how they feel but I would probably feel the same way. Except my temper gets the best of me most of the time.

Finally my turn. CC is the first I hand him the picture I took of him and started asking trivial questions about his life and how he started drumming. Things that super fans know. Then Jake, I hand him his photo and as he signs it I said, "You know one day I played a game with you on X-box live. You are probably the most down to earth person I've ever met." It got him talking about games for a long few minutes. He was super cool. I was literally dying inside. Jinxx smiled at me and thanked me for not completely freaking out. I just shrugged and handed him the picture I took of him. He looked up from the photo and asked " I've never seen these before did you happen to take them yourself?" "Yeah I did actually. The ones I'm having you guys sign are from warped tour this past summer. I didn't have one of those cool passes so I had to squeeze to the front which was super painful but so worth it. These came out amazing." I rambled excited that he asked me about my work. The bouncer gave me a look so we both shut up and he handed me back my picture while I moved down. ASHLEY!! OMG DYING! I LOVE HIM! "Hey." he said. "Hey." I didn't know what to say to him after that. I was about to freak out it I opened my mouth. I didn't want to be one of the fan girls that annoyed them. He mad idle chit chat about nothing in particular and all too soon I was moving in front of Andy. I gave him the picture to sign and the first thing out of his mouth pissed me off. I was about to punch him. He said, "Aren't you gonna cry and tell me some sob story about how I saved you from comitting suicide?" I knew the question was rehtorical and very sarcastic but I couldn't help what I said next. "Excuse you. First of all, I didn't come here to tell you my life story. Second, you don't even know me so dont' think it's okay for you to group me in with the rest of your fans. And third, I came here for good music and booze. Fuck you."
He and the rest looked stunned. Andy apologised to me and I just rolled my eyes at him. His assumption really pissed me off. Ashley was laughing now which was making me red with anger. "You know, Andy. She's alot like you. Could even be your little sister." Ash stated mid laugh. Andy grumbled something to him and then CC walked over and threw me over his shoulder. "Come on girl! you're coming backstage with us. Andy will make it up to you after the show when he and the rest of us take you for drinks." I just kept quiet and crossed my arms.

The concert wasn't as fun backstage. I kind of missed the being thrown around and crowd surfing but I was looking forward to hanging out afterwards so I enjoyed the music and drank a beer while I waited for the after party.

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