You Again

I return to Jinxx's apartment and start packing my stuff. He's probably out with CC and won't be back for at least an hour. Before I go, I grab a pen and a slip of paper.



Dear Jeremy,

I know how much you hate being called this, but that's good, I want you to hate me. I need to get out of Los Angeles, and maybe never come back. You did nothing wrong, you were an amazing boyfriend and I know someday you'll make some special girl very happy. But I'm not that girl, I don't deserve you. I'm sorry this was so abrupt, but I just wanted to tell you to have a great life. Fall in love, get married, have kids, just live a happy and full life. The only explanation I can give you for leaving is that I don't love you like I did yesterday. I wish I could, but I can't control my heart. So this is farewell Jeremy.

-Isabelle



I place the letter on his bed and grab my stuff. I put my bags in a taxi and ride to Sakura's apartment. I pound on the door till she answers.


"Last night I made a big mistake, I want to move with you to New York." I say as tears start to run down my cheeks.

"Uh yeah, the flight isn't until five so come in." She says embracing me in a hug.

"I'm not even exactly sure of what happened. First I wanted to go home. Then I drank some beer and woke up naked to find out I slept with Andy." I say placing my bags in her living room.

"You can't remember what happened?"

"No, it's all a blur. I must have went up to him or something. I'm not really sure."

"And how much did you drink?"

"Just one cup." I say popping the p.

"I think you were drugged." What if she's right? What if I was drugged? Did Juliet drug me? Or was it someone else? They always say not to leave your drink unattended. "Belle are you okay?"

"No not really. I mean I packed up my stuff and left Jinxx a letter on his pillow."

"Oh honey, I know you really liked him."

"Exactly, I only ever really liked him. I love Andy for some reason which is all thanks to the shitty guy upstairs."

"If there's even a God."

"I fucked up Sakura, I fucked up real bad this time. I just need to get out."

"And I'm here for you."

"I need to end my lease for my apartment, and uh say goodbye to everyone."

"Okay I'll go take care of your lease, you just figure out how you're gonna say goodbye."

"Thank you Sakura." She gives me a kind smile before leaving the apartment.
I take out my phone and text Juliet.



Belle: I fucked Jules, and this time I can't take it back. I might visit LA, but not for a very long time. I hope to see you again someday, but I have to move on from this city. I'm sorry but this is my goodbye.



I send it and look through my contacts. I want to say goodbye to CC, Ash, and Jake, but I'm not really sure how. I just send them all a happy face and move on. I see Andy's number. There's a thousand things I could say to this man.



Belle: I forgive you for the article thing. Hell I would have broken up with me. I was an angry bitch who wanted revenge. And I guess I got it at a cost. I lost you and I'm sorry. But I'm not sorry for what I'm about to do. I'm leaving Andrew, and I'm not coming back. I love you, but you're my poison. I need to be free of this city, free of you. You know I'm still in love with you, so let me try to fallout. Please just move on and forget about me. Don't look for me. Goodbye my love.



I bring my phone to the kitchen. I grab the meat tenderizer and destroy my cell. I put the pieces in the garbage and wait for Sakura to get back.




5pm.

Sakura and I sit down in our seats and she stares at me. I try to ignore it, but I meet her gaze.


"What?" I ask.

"Belle are you sure you want to run away?" She asks.

"Yes, if it fixes my mistakes, yes."

"You know it's only gonna get worse."

"Have a little faith." I turn my attention to the wind as we begin to take off.


Goodbye to the city of angels, hello to the big apple.

Notes

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