*Listen to this while reading chapter*

Nikki's POV:

"How much do you love me?" I breathed, our lips almost touching.

In the few weeks that Andy and I had been going out, I can safely say that my entire life has been flipped upside down, but in a good way. Thanks to Amy, I now had an brand new wardrobe, and new makeup as well, although I rarely used the cosmetics. something about how Andy had said I didn't need it. I also was a bit more confident, and smiled and talked more at school. I often hung out with andy and his friends, which quickly became my friends as well. Amy, a pretty girl named Sylvia, and Lisa, Alex's girlfriend, were probably the closest to me out of all of them, but everyone was actually quite nice underneath the dark exterior.

All except Oli, who continued to be a obnoxious bastard whenever i was around. But he kept his snide remarks to himself, thankfully, but i knew he couldn't keep the facade up much longer, and would eventually crack. That didn't matter though, because I loved Andy, and he loved me, and that's all that really mattered to us.

A small smile reached Andy's lips as his hot breath fanned across my cheeks, "what's the biggest number you can think of?"

"Um," i paused for a moment, racking my brain, "infinity."

He grinned even bigger, finally capturing my lips with his, "more than that."

I regretfully, had to pull away eventually, my lungs burning, and I laid back against his chest. Andy made an adorable whining noise, and tried to pull me back, but settled for running his fingers through my hair when i wouldn't budge. We were currently snuggled up on his bed, with his parents out, we had no one to stop us, no reason to stop us from progressing our relationship to the next, more intimate step.

But that wasn't really on either of our minds.

"what do you want to do now?" He asked, breaking the silence.

I shrugged, sitting up and crawling into his lap. My legs straddled his, and I ran my fingers up and down his chest, watching his sharp intake of breath at my actions. He grasped my small hands in his, a silent message for me to stop. I pouted, and flipped my air over my shoulder, trying to look desirable. From Andy's reaction, I think i was pretty successful.

"Not any of that," he warned, "you really are questioning my self-control today, aren't you?"

I pouted some more and hid my face behind a veil of dark hair, staying silent.

Andy rolled his eyes at my childishness, and flipped us over, so he hovered above me. He grinned wickedly, and began tickling me, his eyes lighting up when I squirmed and giggled.

"Andy! Stop! You're being mean!" I whined as I attempted to free myself. It didn't work, it never worked.

The playful air between us intensified as we seemed to realize our rather intimate position. We hadn't slept together yet, both of us agreeing that it would be a bad idea this soon, but that didn't mean that he didn't want it. I'd also be lying to say I didn't want it. But Andy had been firm on his decision, saying I was 'too young' and that he wanted me to be really sure before we did anything like that. While I admired and was grateful for him saying that, urges were well, urges. i'm a teenager, sue me.

I became very conscious of my lack of clothing, and the fact that Andy was shirtless as he pressed our lips together. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me, his hands grasping my hips as my legs wrapped around his bare waist. I moaned lightly as he tugged gently on my bottom lip, and my tongue brushed against the silver of his lip ring.

Andy let out a low growl and ran his fingers up and down my sides, running along my body, enjoying the feel of my bare legs and shoulders. I ran my fingers through his long, dark hair, tugging on the ends, making him groan in response. I suddenly arched up and grabbed at the hem of my tank top, wanting to rid myself of the offensive garment. I harshly ripped it over my head and tossed it somewhere in Andy's already messy room, before returning my attention to my stunning boyfriend.

His eyes ran over my newly exposed skin, and I felt myself blush at the intensity of his gaze. There was definitely longing and desire in his baby blue gaze, but there was something else too. He suddenly pulled away, ripping his eyes from my partially exposed chest. I felt a surge of hurt catch at my veins, and I tried not to feel to embarrassed.

i scooted closer to him, placing a hand on his shoulder, "Andy? Is everything okay?"I asked softly, unsure if really wanted to hear his answer.

He laughed, to my astonishment, Andy lightly pecked my lips, still smiling and shaking his head slightly. "Nikki, I want to, i really want to. But you're what? Fifteen? In grade ten, i'm a senior, and I can't just take your virginity like that."

His words, despite there seemingly sweet tone, slap me in the face. Heat rushes to my face and I scamper out of his bed, tugging on my removed clothing. I blink back tears as his supposed harmless words repeat in my head again and again.

You're fifteen. Just fifteen, a kid compared to him. He wouldn't want your virginity, because compared to him, you are nothing.

I grab my purse and rush down the stairs as Andy watches me, dumbfounded. He is quick to follow when I rush out of his house, though he still remains shirtless.

I pace his driveway, unsure what to do. i need to think, but Andy drove me here, and I don't have any tokens for the bus. I might have change, but what if I don't? I just know that I can't be with Andy right now, I know he doesn't think of me as a kid, (well, he could) but it never really dawned on me until now. He could have anyone he wants, and yet, this still doesn't feel real to me. Nothing feels real.

Which scares me the most.

"Nikki? What's wrong? Talk to me baby, please." He practically begs, trying to fold me into his arms, but I am quick to jerk away. His touch only numbs more of my nerves.

"I-I can't, not now. I'll see you on Monday Andy." I call as I walk away from him, wanting nothing more than distance between us. Funny out a few moments ago, that was the thing I didn't want between us.

Andy, of course, runs after me, with his long legs, he catches me easily. "I;m not going anywhere, and neither are you," he practically growls, "until you tell me what's wrong."

I don't look him in the eyes, and shake his grip off, pushing him away from me, stalking towards the bus stop. Luckily, I can see a bus in the distance, quickly approaching us. I dig through my bag to search for change, but find nothing, panic briefly suffocates me, but I manage to free myself from its grips. i keep a straight face as Andy tries to talk to me, until the bus pulls up at the corner, and I step on, not looking back.

The driver, sensing my discomfort with Andy, closes the doors before sending Andy an apologetic glance. As the bus pulls away, I ask the nice female driver if she can just drive one block, and then let me out, seeing as I have no money. I'm surprised that she agrees, and sooner than I would like, she lets me off at my designated spot. That's when i begin walking home, even though i haver no idea how to reach home from here.

Notes

please note that i was listening to the remake of Crazy in Love by Beyonce (for the movie 50 shades of grey) when writing this chapter. I actually love this song, haven't seen the movie but yeah. Listen to the song! This chapter was inspired by that song actually

well, things escalated quite quickly, but really, Nikki is right to want to consider her fast-moving relationship with Andy. after all, he's a senior, and he treated her so poorly in the beginning. Poor girl, she's up for a tough couple days. Quick warning, Nikki is in for a lot of shit in the next few chapters, as is Andy

hope you had a nice weekend and liked the chapter!

comment if you listened to the song while reading the chapter, and if you liked how they fit together!