My Reality

It's Friday and so far everything's gone along okay. I haven't seen Sam, thank god. James and I have gotten to know each other even better, found out he loves Of Mice & Men as much as me. And Andy and me have a date tonight. I go through my collection of dark casual clothing and search deep inside the pile of it. I find my favourite sundress with flowers all over it. I put that on along with fishnet leggings and my black leather boots. I straighten my hair and do simple eyeliner. I feel pretty for once.

James and I walk together to school and he drops me off at the music room. I pick up my guitar and practice Carolyn over and over again. Jake/Mr Pitts walks into the room and searches through his desk drawers. He takes out a few papers with a piece of music and places it on my stand.

"Carolyn is the last song I want you to master in this class. Take a go at The Mortician's Daughter." He says with a big grin on his face. I start playing.

"So did your fiancé tell you?" I ask and he smirks.

"Yeah and she told me how you calmed her down at the grocery store. Thank you." He says.

"So how do you feel about a baby on the way?"

"A little scared, but amazed because of what humanity, us as people, can create. We bring life into the world, and it's awesome to be able to do that."

The bell rings and class begins. After music, math comes along. We have a test today so it shouldn't be that difficult. Fuck! It has integers, I'm really bad with integers. I finish the test and he marks it in front of me. After Mr Ferguson/Jinxx's finished grading, he hands me back my test. 68%, oh boy.

Well at least it's lunch now. I watch as grade tens put up posters for a bake sale to raise money for Spring Formal. The student government is still discussing the theme but has narrowed it down to three. Mascaraed Ball, old time Hollywood, and the sixties. I don't really care much for dances, but seeing as I haven't gone to one yet, it wouldn't be bad to go to this one. The posters say that the bake sale is next week on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday at lunch. I buy a caf cookie and go looking for Andy. I take a peek through every door window and find him in the chemistry room with Mr Purdy/Ashley and Mr Ferguson/Jinxx. I listen at the door and make sure they can't see me.

"I'm going to break up with her today." I hear Andy say.

"I thought you said you loved her." Ash says

"I do still love her, I'm just in love with someone else." Andy says.

"Who are you in love with?" Jinxx asks.

"If I tell you, do you both promise to keep it to yourselves?" Andy asks.

I knock on the door and walk in. "Hi, Mr Biersack you're needed in guidance." I say and he nods following me. I have him walk out of the school with me and cross my arms when we get to a quiet place.

"I'm guessing you were listening to that conversation." He starts.

"I just can't believe you were going to tell them, they can get you fired." I state.

"But they won't, me and them are like brothers, they'd never betray me."

"Never is such a big word, how do you know they're completely loyal? You won't know till there's no going back." He pushes me up against the brick wall and kisses me.

"You're right." He says as we release.

"I love you." I tell him.

"I love you too."

"To the end of the world and back?"

"To the end of the world and back." I give him one peck before we walk back into the school.

"So are you going to the spring formal?" He asks.

"Yeah, I just need to find a dress. I think I might ask my bio dad to pay for it." I say and Andy turns to me. "It's one little favour, stop looking at me like that."

"No it's just the way the light's hitting your hair right now, you just look so beautiful and innocent, I wanna wreck you."

"Okay..."

"I mean that in the best way possible."

"You just said you wanted to wreck me." I state.

"Well yeah, if you want I can show you what I mean after school." He suggests.

"Whatever, I just wanna spend time with you." The back of our hands lightly and gently hit each other as we walk.

"Look I have to go mark some papers, I'll see you in fourth." I nod as he walks to his classroom.

I walk down to the drama room and peek in. No one's here, I actually wanted to talk to CC/Mr Coma. I'm lightly tapped on the shoulder. I turn around to see Mr Ferguson/Jinxx.

"Scarlet I've noticed your math marks are slipping." He tells me.

"I've just been distracted a lot lately." I say.

"Well I always have time at lunch to give you help if you need it."

"Wait, how bad is my mark?"

"It's in the sixties range, but come in at lunch on Monday and I'll help you understand."

"Thanks Jinxx." He tilts his head to the side. I slipped up, fuck.

"Did you just call me Jinxx?" He asks. I nod, unable to force words out of my mouth. "Strange, that use to be my nickname. How did you?" I walk away before I get caught in this web I put myself in.

I'm pulled aside by Alexis. "Oh hey." I say.

"Uh can I get your advice on something?" She asks. Why is she asking me instead of Katie or Taylor or anyone else in the matter.

"Sure." She pulls me out of the school.

"Okay, promise you won't tell a soul." I nod. "So yesterday after school, I was help Mr Purdy clean up the chem lab. We crossed paths and he wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me into a kiss." I look at her stunned. But I'm not that surprised, it's Ashley.

"Wow." I say.

"But it doesn't stop there. He fucked me on his desk."

"But why are you telling me this?"

"Well your boyfriend volunteers at the school so obviously you can't be making out and crap. And-"

"Are you talking about James?" I ask.

"Yeah, he's your boyfriend right?" She asks.

"No we're just really good friends. My boyfriend is actually older than James."

"Sorry it's just that you two are so close. But anyways, he wants to take me out tonight and I'm not sure what to do."

"Well Mr Purdy is one of our most sluttiest teachers, but if you like him then go for him."

"I will, thanks. We should hangout next week after school." She actually wants to be my friend. I nod and she walks back into the school.

Maybe I can tell Alexis, she's doing the same thing I am except I haven't fucked my teacher just yet. I eat my caf cookie before entering the school once again and head to my drama class.

Finally English arrives and I'm the first student in the room. Andy smiles when he sees me and gives me a wink making me blush. The rest of the class walks in and takes their seats.

"Alright, I have a quick announcement. Miss Taylor Matthews will be joining our class for the rest of the semester." He says making me pout and slouch in my seat. Taylor walks into the room.
"You can sit right next to Scarlet." Oh here we go.
"This is just another period to read Romeo & Juliet. So take out your books and begin."

Andy grabs a copy of the book from his desk and gives it to Taylor. He returns to his desk and plays on his phone. Something hits my foot. I look down and pick up the crumpled paper. It reads;

*Get ready for hell bitch*

I look over at Taylor, she smirks at me. I get up and throw the paper in the recycling. I roll my eyes at her as I sit down. I take out my notebook and start sketching Austin Carlile. Taylor hits my elbow a few times, making me mess up big time. I try to ignore it, but then she pulls my notebook and it falls to the ground.

"Leave me alone." I say in a hush tone. She shakes her head.

"Quiet down Miss Kanes." Andy says, his eyes still on his phone screen.

I put my head on my desk, waiting for this period to be over. She pulls my hair. At first I wait a few moments, but then she kicks me in the shins. I get up and punch her in the face. She falls to the ground grabbing everyone's attention. I hold my hand, it really hurts like a bitch. Andy stands up jaw dropped.

"Miss Kanes go to the Principal's office now!" He yells. I pick up my bag.

"Gladly." I say walking out of the classroom.

Ha, he thinks I'm gonna go to the Principal's office, no way in hell. I go to my locker and put all my stuff in there except my notebook. I walk into an empty stairwell, sit in a corner, and start drawing Taylor being slit in half.

Notes

Q: What would you do if someone you aren't attracted to is sending you sexual shit?

a) Tell them to go away.
b) Go along with it.
c) Tease them and leave them.
d) Ignore it.
e) Block the bitch.

Your input would really help me. A guy won't stop texting me and I'm getting really high anxiety. I like him as a friend and all, but don't want to take it farther.


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