My Reality

He lays me on the bed and...






lays down next to me. "Do you really think that low of me?" He asks, I just keep quiet. "I actually love you Scar, I wouldn't do that to you. Night." He kisses my cheek and falls asleep.

Sometimes I ask myself why I dated him, this is one of those times. Well at least he didn't do what I thought he was. I slowly move off the bed and go check on my cheek in the bathroom. It's bright red and I can feel a bruise forming. I grab an ice pack from the fridge and hold it up to my cheek. It stings like a motherfucker, but whatever. I grab a few pillows and a blanket, and fall asleep on the floor.

The next morning I wake up to Sam puking his guts out in the toilet. I slowly chuckle as I check the time, 4:39am. I get up and move to the bed to sleep for two more hours. My phone's alarm goes off at 6:30am and I rise with a jump in my step. Sam's past out on the bathroom floor and I drag him out to the hall. I take a quick shower and decide on what to wear. I put on my My Chemical Romance tanktop, my deep blue skinny jeans, my black vans, and my black leather jacket. I look at my face in the mirror. My cheek is purple. I put on cover up, but even then it doesn't help. I just wipe off the cover up and do cat eyes. I straighten my hair and put on my heart necklace.

I walk out to the kitchen and grab a pop tart. Sam walks in and I don't move. He walks over to the fridge grabbing a bottle of water. He slaps my ass.

"Good morning beautiful, how does your cheek feel?" He asks and I glare at him. "That's a big bruise, that'll teach you to lie to me. So I'll see you this afternoon at 3pm exactly, if not I will find you and punish you. Love you." He smacks my ass again and walks into the bedroom, shutting the door behind himself.

I feel weak, but I've felt weaker.
I feel sad, but I've felt depressed.
I feel stupid, but I've been stupider.
I feel nothing, which is sometimes worse than pain.

I walk to school and get through my first two classes. My teachers ask about the bruise, I tell them I was playing basketball and was hit with the ball really hard. I know they don't believe me, but they don't bother arguing either. When the lunch bell rings, I rush to my locker. I switch over my books and almost walk into Katie.

"Where the fuck do you think you're going bitch?" She asks. She thinks she's the queen of sass, but she hasn't even heard of the king, Gerard Way.

"Going to guidance, maybe they'll help you with your anger problems." I say, I'm not in the mood to be taking anyone's shit today.

"Coming from a whore who probably got beaten by her pimp last night." She says and even I laugh.

"Really, that's the best you've got? Katie just get the fuck out of my way right now." She pulls me back by the arm and I slap her.

"Girls my office now!" Mr Purdy yells at us. I keep my head down as I walk beside this annoying little Barbie doll. He has us sit down in chairs in front of his desk. "You wanna tell me what was happening out there just a second ago?"

"I was walking to my locker and this lunatic came up and slapped me." Katie says. I let out a frustrated sigh.

"Is that true Miss Kanes?" Mr Purdy asks.

"Which answer will get me out of this office sooner?" I ask.

"Katie you're excused." He says and closes the door behind her. "What really happened?"

"She came up to me trying to bitch me out, she grabbed my arm and I slapped her. I should have slapped her harder though." I say

"Why'd you slap her?" He asks.

"Because her and other students bully me everyday, I'm just sick and tired of it. I just don't want to be treated like a doormat anymore." He nods in understanding.

"What happened to your cheek?"

"Does it matter?"

"Yes."

"I was hit, enough said. Am I excused yet?" He nods and I leave the room.

I rush down to guidance, making sure Andy doesn't see me. James runs up to me and tilts up my head, looking at the bruise on me. "You need to talk?" He asks, I nod. He takes me into a room and I tell him what Sam did. I swear I've never seen James more angry than now. "How dare he lay a hand on a woman! On you! I'm going to murder that son of a bitch the next time I see his face!" I giggle at him, he's kinda hot when he's angry. No you love Andy, focus on Andy. I get up and hug James.

"Thanks for being there for me." I say.

"I will always be there for you. You helped me with my drug problem, so I'll help you with your Sam problem." I smile at my friend, then the bell goes off. "I can't get you out of your next classes, so good luck." He kisses my forehead and I walk to the drama room.

After drama I head to English. He's going to want me to stay after class, something I can't do with Sam's eyes on me. I don't want to be punished, whatever punished means in his dictionary. I sigh as I step into the room. The bell rings for class to begin and Andy steps into the classroom, I keep my head down, avoiding his attention.

"Good afternoon class, today is another day given towards reading Romeo & Juliet, but ten minutes before the final bell I will stop you and you'll have to write down what you read so far. Okay, get to work." He says and goes onto his laptop.

I write a quick summary of the first quarter of the book, and sit there listening to music and sketching. One of my earbuds are pulled out, I look up to see a worried and angry Andy.

"Miss Kanes, would you mind joining me in the hallway for a moment?" He asks softly.

I get up and follow him out to the hall, but he doesn't stop. We walk to the back of the school and I lean against the dark old brick wall.

"Who the fuck did that to you?" He asks. Andy's perfect in so many ways but he hasn't mastered the art of holding back on feelings.

"Shhhh, calm your tits. It's being taken care of, just chill out." I say softly, doesn't seem to help.

"How am I supposed to be calm when the woman I love was put into danger and I did nothing about it?" He asks making me smile.

"Because the woman you love that loves you back even more, asks you to." I hug and kiss him. "Let's go back inside." He nods and we walk back into the building together.

Notes

Q: What do you want to happen to Sam?


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