The year everything changed (An Andy Biersack love story).

Amie's point of view

I came to my room to do something, anything, I wish Alex was here or even Mollie, but their at school and then there going out by Alex's latest tweet "Party, after school with The Assholes @mollie123 @SamPtv @jackSWS @nicole1quinn @dane_20" I sighed I felt so bored everyone is out my mom and dad are down stairs doing God knows what, sometimes I wish I had a brother or sister or even cousins like my dad had but obviously grandma Amy and Grandad Chris only had my dad, yes my uncle from my mom's side has a daughter but we don't get on for some reason, I felt lonely sometime, you'd think I would be fun having a rockstar mom and dad but it's just a normal chilled life, no red carpets for me or bowling alleys inside my house not that I'd want that I love the house the way it is but really I just wish I had another little biersack but I know that will never happen, sometimes it feels like am the only person on earth, And when tours over I don't really see my uncle's for a couple of months because they try and get settled down back into their normal lives Jake's got Ella, Jinxx has got Alice, CC has Liz and she hates me and Ashley has every girl he wants, and of course my mom and dad have each other something I wonder if I want her would they always be frustrated with one another or is that just sexual frustration because they can't do it when am home even though am a deep sleeper and they know it, am thinking I hate thinking. I actually wish I never laid a finger on that slut jade, I wish I was a dork person that didn't know how to stand up for herself, I hate being so angry all the time, I feel like punching a brick wall sometimes but that will only make me more angry, I feel a tear at the corner of my eye, but I just don't have the energy to cry, I ran to my jewelry box and pulled out my silver blade, I made sore my bedroom door was shut properly but before I would take my first cut my dad called me from downstairs, I placed my blade in this rightful place and ran downstairs "Hey, princess are you okay?" My dad asked standing at the bottom of the stairs
"Perfect" I said which was a lie, whenever am about to tell someone about how I feel it comes out a lie.
"Are you sure?" He asked and I just nodded "we come on dinners ready" my dad said taking my hand in his.
"Dad?" I said before entering the kitchen dining area
"Yeah baby?"
"Can I go stay with grandma and grandpa in Ohio for a while?" I asked
"No, Amie I want to spend some time with you before I have to go away again" he said still holding my hand I wasn't going to argue with him I just simply wasn't in the mood for it "Besides, you don't have to go to Ohio" my dad said as we walked into the kitchen and I saw my grandma and grandpa I ran up and hugged them both "Aww, Angel you've gotten so tall, your definitely going to be like your dad" my grandma said as I hugged her and grandpa tightly
"I wish," I said
"Look at you your already taller than your mom" my grandad said
"Your beautiful too" my grandma said
"Just like you all then" I said we all let go of each other and then I noticed my favorite dinner was made "Who made dinner?" I asked and my dad told me it was him, we all sat down, I sat next to my dad, my mom sat across from me and my grandma and Grandad sat on the tops on the table, the dinner was chicken pasta, with salad and a nice cheese sauce and it tasted divine the first dinner I've eat all up even though I was last but I've always been a slow eater, I took all the dishes up to the sink "Thanks for dinner, daddy" I said as I started to fill sink with water to was them "Amie I will do that" my dad said
"No am fine, I wanna do then" I told him,
"Hunni, I can do it"
"No, dad I will do it, it's the least can do" I said continuing to wash, my mom dad and grandparents continued to the living room but my dad came back "Amie, Re you ok you looked sad earlier"
" it's just hard" I said as he started to dry the dishes
"What is?" He asked
"Not cutting" I whispered and I felt his hand rub my back, I passed me a knife and held out his arm
"Go cut" he said dead serious "WhWhat?" I looked up in shock
"Go, cut me" he said
"Dad, can'tt "
"Why not?"
"Because your my dad and I love you and I could never hurt you ever"
"Well why hurt yourself when it's hurts me, you are hurting me by doing this to yourself, so go cut me I promise I won't flinch or hate you" he explained but I put the knife back in the tray
"No" I said hugging him "dad, am sorry"
"Don't apologize your my princess" he said pecking my chee

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