On stage
relationship problems
Andy looked at me, and suddenly, his eyes weren’t ice blue, and filled with lust, they turned black, he lept on top of me,then started ripping me apart, limb from limb, I screamed, and screamed, but everyone just sat there, like it was just another day, no one even looked at me, but Andy, his now black eyes stared at me, he stepped back, and stared at me, his eyes flashed blue and black, till they just stayed blue, he looked down at my torn body, smirked and walked away, even though he just ripped my limbs off, I pleaded for him to come back, as soon as the thought of his lips on mine passed thru my mind, he was back, staring into my soul, like he was looking past my eyes, he leaned in, I thought he was going to kiss me, but he bit my lip off, then walked away again
“emmaliee, emmaliee, calm down baby, it was just a bad dream” Andy said, as I sat up, I looked over, and the bunk curtain was open, and there stood ash, Jake, cc, and jinx, while Andy sat next to me, they all laughed and started mocking me, saying I was screaming Andy’s name, I just flipped them off, then went back to sleep, I think Andy got up though.
Andy’s POV:
It was 8:30, so me and the guys decided to get up, and make some coffee,I walked to the bunks, to take a cup to em, she rolled over and looked at me and said, “I hate you” as she giggled and took the coffee, she put it up to her mouth to take a drink, thenslung it at me, almost spilling it as she ran to the bathroom, I just froze, all I could think was ‘oh no’
I snap out of my thoughts, and put the coffee down and run to the bathroom, I hold her hair and rub her back, she finishes and gets in the shower, I go get her some water, then join her, we showered, and I said, “babe, your pregnant again aren’t you?”
“I don’t know, but I’ve only ever thrown up at the smell of coffee for nine months, nine consecutive months, three years ago, I don’t want another kid Andy, I love Naomi, she’s great, but I don’t want another one” she said, tears slowly emerging from her eyes, I said, “no matter what, it’s going to be fine, either way, I’ll still love you” I laughed a little, and so did she, then I leaned down and kissed her, “I love you baby” she whispered, “I love you too” we got dressed and ready, and told all the guys, we went to sound check, then me and em went to Walgreens, she bought four boxes, same as last time, and we left as secretly as possible, we got back on the bus, em ran straight to the bathroom, I was so nervous, even more than the first time, because last time I knew I wanted a kid, but another one? I’m not so sure…
Emmaliee’s POV:
I wait 20 min, and decide not to even look at the tests, I pick them all up with one hand, avoiding eye contact, and walk out and say,
“I haven’t looked yet, I’m scared” Andy kisses my forehead, and takes the handful of tests out of my hand, we sit across from each other, and Andy looks at them, one by one, smiling more and more with each one, I don’t know what to think, what if he wants another kid, I don’t want to be pregnant again, not yet.
I must have been thinking for longer than a few seconds, because I snap out of it, and look up and see Andy holding a test up, “they all say the same thing babe, congratulations, you’re not pregnant”
I sigh in relief, and jump up and hug him, he laughs and we all get ready for the first show.
We walk to the venue, cc is hyped on monster, Ashley is doing his weird thing, jinx is listening to some kind of classical music, and Jake is just standing there, me and Andy kiss, and cc walks on stage, followed by Jake and jinx, then ash, then me and Andy walk out hand in hand, everyone goes wild, me and Andy smile at each other, and start singing ‘done for you’ we always sing that song first, then we go back and forth, we finish singing, and Andy starts talking,
“you motherfuckers look amazing tonight.” He screams into the mic,
“you know what I see right now Andy?” I ask
“what’s that princess?” he says back
“this fucking place is full of amazing ass people, I see my dreams coming true, it’s so amazing how, in such a short fucking amount of time, these fucking people gave me, what it takes most people years to get, and you have no idea how much I fucking love every one of you.” Everyone cheered
“Andy?”
“what baby”
“I think these mother fuckers deserve some hugs, don’t you?”
“as long as they are gentle, you still have some healing to do” he said, obviously not wanting me to jump into the crowd
“alright, Andy is going to sing a song, and I’m going to get off of this fucking stage and hug some bitches” they all cheer
“but I’m not fully healed, so no pushing, fighting or anything like that, if I didn’t get to you, I promise I will hug you at the meet and greet” I say, they cheer again, and I crawl off the stage after kissing Andy, a security guard walks behind me, and I start hugging and high 5ing people, no one grabs me or anything, Andy finishes singing.
“alright babe, come back, I miss you” everyone laughs, and I make my way back to the stage, I sit on a stool, because I’m physically exhausted at this point, and sing one of my songs, and picks me up, and sits on the stool, and puts me on his lap, I laugh, and keep singing, he sings with me on the scream parts, we finish the concert, and make our way to the meet and greet, we sit for 10 min. and fans start flooding in, I hug as many as I can, and then sit down, because I’mtired again, I was humming ‘therapy’ by all time low, and Andy started singing, I started singing with him, we finished the meet and greet and went back to the bus, I was tired, but I wanted Andy, I begged him, but he told me I needed to rest, this greatly irritated me, is this what it was going to be like from now on?
**time skip**
I guess I was right, I feel s ugly, Andy doesn’t want me anymore, every time ii ask, he just says I need rest, and if we do anything, it’s not fun like it used to be, I just want him back, I want to have sex like we used to when we were mad at each other, it’s been three months, I’m fully healed, I’m not fragile anymore, why doesn’t he want me?
We finished the concert and Andy is in the shower, we don’t shower together anymore either, ash came up to me
“what’s up buttercup?”
“not much, just thinking” I say with a sigh
“what about?”
“Andy”
“oh, what about him, you can tell me anything” he says
“things just aren’t the same with us” I say, not wanting to go too into detail
“what do you mean?” he asks with a confused face, but it soon changes when he realizes
“Hun, it’s not you, has just scared, after what happened, he just doesn’t want to hurt you, you should talk to him, tell him how you feel.”
“tell who how you feel about what?” I heard Andy say from behind me,
“I guess that’s my que to leave” ash says, then makes his way to the back of the bus with the other guys,
“babe? What’s going on?”
“Andy, I just feel like things have been different between us since the ‘accident’ “
“what are you talking about, nothings different”
“Andy, you barleyhave sex with me anymore, and when you do, it’s boring, I feel ugly, like you don’t want me anymore” I say, fighting tears
“baby, you are far from ugly, you are beautiful, and sexy, you have a killer body, and a face like an angel, I do want you, I promise” he says, with a little feeling, but very bluntly
“DAMN IT ANDREW, IM NOT A FUCKING KID ANYMORE, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE US, BUTI LOVE THE WAY WE USED TO BE!” I screamed, I didn’t mean to, but itjust came out
“WHAT THE FUCK DO U MEAN THE WAY WE “USED” TO BE” he screamed back, I’ve never had this feeling towards him before, but I felt angry, and before I knew it, I was trying to punch him, Ashley was holding me back, so I continued to scream at him,
“I JUST FUCKING WISH YOU STILL LOVED ME ANDREW, I USED TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND AND YOUR LOVER, BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE NEITHER ONE, YOU USED TO BE BY MY SIDE NO MATTER WHAT WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER, AND WHEN WE FUCKED, IT WAS FUN, WE BOTH FUCKING ENJOYED IT, BUT NOW, YOU ALWAYS LEAVE ME ALONE, AND YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE FUN ANYMORE!” I screamed, still kicking, and flailing trying to get out of Ashley’s arms, then any walked up to me, Jake grabbed my arms, but I was still trying to kick him, then he said something, that broke me,
“is that all you wanted from me, sex? Did you ever love me? Why is this so fucking important to you, all I’m trying to do is protect you” he said, I immediately stopped flailing, all I could do was cry, he stormed off to the back lounge and ash let go of me, I ran to the bathroom, and locked myself in, I was far past sobbing, I could barely breathe I was crying so hard, I started having an asthma attack, and fumbled to the door trying to unlock it, but I just couldn’t, I started beating on it as hard as I could, until it flung open, someone picked me up, and carried me off the bus into the fresh air, the guys didn’t know what was going on, they tried getting me water, I motioned my hand for them to get me a pen, jinx ran onto the bus and grabbed the pen and notepad that was on the fridge, I wrote ‘inhaler’ the best I could, and prayed that they could read it, and before I knew it someone was shoving the familiar plastic tube in my mouth, it was barley working, then an ambulance showed up and gave me oxygen till I could breathe on my own again, I started feeling better and sat up, I looked around, and saw everyone, except Andy, oh god, what have I done.
I feel like such a bitch, we have never fought before, I hope I can fix this, I lovev him more than anything.
“emmaliee, emmaliee, calm down baby, it was just a bad dream” Andy said, as I sat up, I looked over, and the bunk curtain was open, and there stood ash, Jake, cc, and jinx, while Andy sat next to me, they all laughed and started mocking me, saying I was screaming Andy’s name, I just flipped them off, then went back to sleep, I think Andy got up though.
Andy’s POV:
It was 8:30, so me and the guys decided to get up, and make some coffee,I walked to the bunks, to take a cup to em, she rolled over and looked at me and said, “I hate you” as she giggled and took the coffee, she put it up to her mouth to take a drink, thenslung it at me, almost spilling it as she ran to the bathroom, I just froze, all I could think was ‘oh no’
I snap out of my thoughts, and put the coffee down and run to the bathroom, I hold her hair and rub her back, she finishes and gets in the shower, I go get her some water, then join her, we showered, and I said, “babe, your pregnant again aren’t you?”
“I don’t know, but I’ve only ever thrown up at the smell of coffee for nine months, nine consecutive months, three years ago, I don’t want another kid Andy, I love Naomi, she’s great, but I don’t want another one” she said, tears slowly emerging from her eyes, I said, “no matter what, it’s going to be fine, either way, I’ll still love you” I laughed a little, and so did she, then I leaned down and kissed her, “I love you baby” she whispered, “I love you too” we got dressed and ready, and told all the guys, we went to sound check, then me and em went to Walgreens, she bought four boxes, same as last time, and we left as secretly as possible, we got back on the bus, em ran straight to the bathroom, I was so nervous, even more than the first time, because last time I knew I wanted a kid, but another one? I’m not so sure…
Emmaliee’s POV:
I wait 20 min, and decide not to even look at the tests, I pick them all up with one hand, avoiding eye contact, and walk out and say,
“I haven’t looked yet, I’m scared” Andy kisses my forehead, and takes the handful of tests out of my hand, we sit across from each other, and Andy looks at them, one by one, smiling more and more with each one, I don’t know what to think, what if he wants another kid, I don’t want to be pregnant again, not yet.
I must have been thinking for longer than a few seconds, because I snap out of it, and look up and see Andy holding a test up, “they all say the same thing babe, congratulations, you’re not pregnant”
I sigh in relief, and jump up and hug him, he laughs and we all get ready for the first show.
We walk to the venue, cc is hyped on monster, Ashley is doing his weird thing, jinx is listening to some kind of classical music, and Jake is just standing there, me and Andy kiss, and cc walks on stage, followed by Jake and jinx, then ash, then me and Andy walk out hand in hand, everyone goes wild, me and Andy smile at each other, and start singing ‘done for you’ we always sing that song first, then we go back and forth, we finish singing, and Andy starts talking,
“you motherfuckers look amazing tonight.” He screams into the mic,
“you know what I see right now Andy?” I ask
“what’s that princess?” he says back
“this fucking place is full of amazing ass people, I see my dreams coming true, it’s so amazing how, in such a short fucking amount of time, these fucking people gave me, what it takes most people years to get, and you have no idea how much I fucking love every one of you.” Everyone cheered
“Andy?”
“what baby”
“I think these mother fuckers deserve some hugs, don’t you?”
“as long as they are gentle, you still have some healing to do” he said, obviously not wanting me to jump into the crowd
“alright, Andy is going to sing a song, and I’m going to get off of this fucking stage and hug some bitches” they all cheer
“but I’m not fully healed, so no pushing, fighting or anything like that, if I didn’t get to you, I promise I will hug you at the meet and greet” I say, they cheer again, and I crawl off the stage after kissing Andy, a security guard walks behind me, and I start hugging and high 5ing people, no one grabs me or anything, Andy finishes singing.
“alright babe, come back, I miss you” everyone laughs, and I make my way back to the stage, I sit on a stool, because I’m physically exhausted at this point, and sing one of my songs, and picks me up, and sits on the stool, and puts me on his lap, I laugh, and keep singing, he sings with me on the scream parts, we finish the concert, and make our way to the meet and greet, we sit for 10 min. and fans start flooding in, I hug as many as I can, and then sit down, because I’mtired again, I was humming ‘therapy’ by all time low, and Andy started singing, I started singing with him, we finished the meet and greet and went back to the bus, I was tired, but I wanted Andy, I begged him, but he told me I needed to rest, this greatly irritated me, is this what it was going to be like from now on?
**time skip**
I guess I was right, I feel s ugly, Andy doesn’t want me anymore, every time ii ask, he just says I need rest, and if we do anything, it’s not fun like it used to be, I just want him back, I want to have sex like we used to when we were mad at each other, it’s been three months, I’m fully healed, I’m not fragile anymore, why doesn’t he want me?
We finished the concert and Andy is in the shower, we don’t shower together anymore either, ash came up to me
“what’s up buttercup?”
“not much, just thinking” I say with a sigh
“what about?”
“Andy”
“oh, what about him, you can tell me anything” he says
“things just aren’t the same with us” I say, not wanting to go too into detail
“what do you mean?” he asks with a confused face, but it soon changes when he realizes
“Hun, it’s not you, has just scared, after what happened, he just doesn’t want to hurt you, you should talk to him, tell him how you feel.”
“tell who how you feel about what?” I heard Andy say from behind me,
“I guess that’s my que to leave” ash says, then makes his way to the back of the bus with the other guys,
“babe? What’s going on?”
“Andy, I just feel like things have been different between us since the ‘accident’ “
“what are you talking about, nothings different”
“Andy, you barleyhave sex with me anymore, and when you do, it’s boring, I feel ugly, like you don’t want me anymore” I say, fighting tears
“baby, you are far from ugly, you are beautiful, and sexy, you have a killer body, and a face like an angel, I do want you, I promise” he says, with a little feeling, but very bluntly
“DAMN IT ANDREW, IM NOT A FUCKING KID ANYMORE, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE US, BUTI LOVE THE WAY WE USED TO BE!” I screamed, I didn’t mean to, but itjust came out
“WHAT THE FUCK DO U MEAN THE WAY WE “USED” TO BE” he screamed back, I’ve never had this feeling towards him before, but I felt angry, and before I knew it, I was trying to punch him, Ashley was holding me back, so I continued to scream at him,
“I JUST FUCKING WISH YOU STILL LOVED ME ANDREW, I USED TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND AND YOUR LOVER, BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE NEITHER ONE, YOU USED TO BE BY MY SIDE NO MATTER WHAT WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER, AND WHEN WE FUCKED, IT WAS FUN, WE BOTH FUCKING ENJOYED IT, BUT NOW, YOU ALWAYS LEAVE ME ALONE, AND YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE FUN ANYMORE!” I screamed, still kicking, and flailing trying to get out of Ashley’s arms, then any walked up to me, Jake grabbed my arms, but I was still trying to kick him, then he said something, that broke me,
“is that all you wanted from me, sex? Did you ever love me? Why is this so fucking important to you, all I’m trying to do is protect you” he said, I immediately stopped flailing, all I could do was cry, he stormed off to the back lounge and ash let go of me, I ran to the bathroom, and locked myself in, I was far past sobbing, I could barely breathe I was crying so hard, I started having an asthma attack, and fumbled to the door trying to unlock it, but I just couldn’t, I started beating on it as hard as I could, until it flung open, someone picked me up, and carried me off the bus into the fresh air, the guys didn’t know what was going on, they tried getting me water, I motioned my hand for them to get me a pen, jinx ran onto the bus and grabbed the pen and notepad that was on the fridge, I wrote ‘inhaler’ the best I could, and prayed that they could read it, and before I knew it someone was shoving the familiar plastic tube in my mouth, it was barley working, then an ambulance showed up and gave me oxygen till I could breathe on my own again, I started feeling better and sat up, I looked around, and saw everyone, except Andy, oh god, what have I done.
I feel like such a bitch, we have never fought before, I hope I can fix this, I lovev him more than anything.
Notes
okay, dramatic chapter, whats gonna happen next? who knows... oh yea, I do. *evil laugh*
hope you guys like it, love yall im gonna try to update again tonight.
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