The Puppet Master
Entry 2- Emilie's diary
November 15th
I had another dream about Jenny last night.
And..... I learned something about our dreams..... they're not normal.... Yeah, it's odd that we have the exact same dreams, but it's more than that - I have more control over things there and it feels so much more real. These dreams are harder to wake up from too. I think you either need to be woken up by some external factor or... you have to die in the dream.
I know I can wake up from them by dying, I fathomed that out last night. I don't think I'll tell Jenny what I had to do to wake up. The sacrifices I make are not her concern and what she doesn't know won't hurt her. I don't want anyone to worry. Nobody deserves to be burdened with me, Doctor West is my exception to the rule. I let myself let him care because it's his job.
My family care too much, they smother me and then wonder why I push them away. It's like a murderer asking his victims why they're scared.
They want to kill me with kindness now that I'm not offering to do it myself - now that I want to live.
I can't share any of this with West now, of course, he will read the parts about Jenny and think I am going insane or hallucinating - or worse, he will tell me that Jenny is a liar and that it's not possible. I love West, and I trust him, but at the same time, I can't ever trust a psychiatrist after what the last ones did.
Notes
- TheBunnyRegimeQueen
Da hell dude. You can't leave it like that!
6/12/16