Love does not exist

"WAKE THE FUCK UP BITCH" my brother Ryan shouted at me the dragged me out of bed then punching me in the face so hard I fell to the floor.
"What do you what asshole?" I said holding me cheek to ease the pain a little
'"Don't talk to me like that bitch"
"And why not dickhead?, when you call me every name under the fucking sun"
"Because your nothing but a descrase to this family, no one will ever like or love you because you don't deserve to have it. You are a freak, a bitch, a useless asshole cutter and you know it!!!"
Why?, why God did you have to bring me to this family?, I wish I was back at the insane asylum why did I ever leave if this family cared about me, if they did care then they wouldn't have put me there the every first time I cut they would have listen and tell me everything was going to be ok but no. I know they don't care about me then why did they take me out to scare me even more...?
"Now get your fat ass ready for school" and off he stormed out. I hate him, I hate this family I wish I could kill them I want to kill every single one of them but do it slowly and painfully listening to there screams would be music to my ears. Just watching the colour fade from their skin, there eyes full of life slowly turning to death I wish.
I got ready I put on my ripped jeans my three days grace t-shirt, doc martins and my black hoodie, bust my teeth and brown hair I wish was purple grabbed my phone keys, backpack and left I can't deal with anymore shite back there I've had enough of living my life this is it. I'm tried of bullies my family, random people for giving me shite, Coma and Burns and her slag friends I've had enough of all of it I just want to die and I will I soon will.

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I got to school to find Oli talking to Coma, why the fuck is he talking to him? Then Coma stormed off I can't be assed to find out what it was about so I just walked inside the school maybe to day wouldn't be such a bad day but who am I kidding of course it was going to be.

I walked in form to see Abi and Alex talking to the new boy Shaun I think his name is Abi turned round ran up to me and huge me so tight I could hardly breath she eventually let go and lead me to the table she was sitting on.
"Shaun this is Ivy, the girl I was telling you about" she said winking at him what the hell Abi
"Yeah, Hi it's nice to meet you" he said looking at me but I didn't say anything I don't like to meeting new people and I don't want to make anymore friend or what Abi wants I don't want a boyfriend even thinking about that word I want to through up. She nudge me fine I'll hi but that's it.
"Hi"
"Don't mind her she's just a little shy" Alex said when he saw the confused look on Jake's face. He nodded and I sat down next to Abi.
"So what's this school like?" He asked looking at me I just shrugged
"Ivy"
"What?"
"Why don't you talk to him you might have something in common"
"Because I don't want to have anymore friends or what you want"
"Ivy there no need to race your voice at her"
"Oh shut up Alex no one asked you"
"Ivy what's wrong with you why are you.....wait what's your fringe hiding?" Oh shit my hair moved SHIT, BASTERD, FUCK!!!!!
"nothing"
"Ivy why do you have a black eye?, who did this to you?, was it Coma?"
"No he didn't do it it's non of your business who did and it's non of you fucking business why I have one". I shouted grabbed my bag and storm out the classroom. I can't believe I just did that Abi is my best friend and in my opinion my only friend another piece of my just died like I will soon enough.

"Ivy what's wrong?"
"Fuck off Oli"
"No Ivy what's wrong"
"FUCK OFF!!!"
"No Ivy please tell me"
"I don't think Abi's my friend anymore"
"What?, why not?"
"Long story but I just don't want to be her anymore"
"What do you mean when you say that?" I just looked down I don't want there to be more drama, he sighed after.
"At least come to my party tonight I promise I won't try anything, I just want to see you happy"
"I don't know you know parties aren't my thing....."
"Please Ivy I'll let you bring your Slipknot album"
"Fine" I said after a sigh maybe this party could help take my mind of things and I don't have to be near Satan and her minion (Amanda and CC).

Notes

I knew this chapter is a little short but in the next two chapters they will be long and a little surprising.

Also what will Ivy do when she finds out CC and Amanda are at they party?