Love does not exist

I can't believe it, I can't believe that bitch kissed him it should have been me she was kissing not him not that asshole. I can't believe I love her, she's a backstabbing bitch she said she liked me and more then a friend yet she kissed him.

"CC, CC come back to earth" Andy said shaking his hand in my face
"What?"
"Look" he said then pointed to Ivy having a argument with my new girlfriend Amanda the most popular girl in school. Why was she even wasting her breath with that whore, infect why am I even thinking about that whore, she nothing to me, nothing but a piece of shit and I couldn't give a flying fuck about her. Amanda came over with sad look on her face.
"Baby what's wrong?"
"Her, CC she called my a slut a cheep slapper, can you do something about her?"
"Like what?"
"Beat her, beat her for me and I will do what ever you want" She said trying to sound sexy at the last part. She wants he to beat Ivy, yeah I can easily do that. I walked up to her and smashed her head on the lockers. Then pick her up by her shirt and slammed her against the locker, her eyes are mid way open and closed her shirt was a little lifted by her stomach and I saw a new scar. None the less I slammed her on the locker again then kicked her ribs when she fell on the floor then walked back to Amanda.

"My hero" She said rapping her arms around me then giving me a kiss. Amanda is a terrible kisser it's mainly to much teeth or to much tongue. I broke the kiss then looked at Andy he was staring at Ivy making sure she was ok I looked over she was standing up and getting the rest of her stuff then her mate Abi walked over to her and gasped when she saw her.
I got a good look at her and couldn't help feel bad I just did this to her I hurt her even more then I have but she deserves it, she deserved that after she broke my heart I'm just lucky Amanda was there to pick up the pieces and stitched them back together.

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School was over and I was walking home with Amanda I couldn't help but think of Ivy is she ok?, I did I hurt her to much?, will she cut when she gets home?, I really do hope that she doesn't cut I always hate it when I see her scares but even more then I know it was because of me. Wait what the hell am I doing?, I can't real sorry for her why would I?, she got what she deserved she deserves every beating she gets weather it's by me or someone else.

"Baby I just want to say thank you again for earlier that was amazing what you did" Amanda said taking me back to reality.
"No problem baby anything for you"
"I have a really good idea what I want to do when we get to yours as a little reword"
"Oh yeah and wants that?"
"You'll see" she said winking at me.

We got to mine and I opened the front door I shouted hello to see if anyone was home but I got no answer.
"Looks like it's just us" I said turning to face her
"Oh goody" she said taking my hand then leading me upstairs.
"Which one is your room?" She asked, Amanda's never been in my room only Ivy or the guys has but we mostly just chat played a few video games and had a laugh, I couldn't help but smile at that memory. Now me and Amanda are only fourteen so is Ivy and Andy, Ashley is fifteen also is Jake, Jinxx and Abi.
"Third door o the left". We walked in and my bedroom walls are covered in band posters, my carpet is navy blue my bed was just a simple single bed with a black duvet cover, I have a TV on the wall and just mainly things a bedroom should have. She led me to the bed we sat down then she kissed. Errrrr that kiss I always want to throw up, who in this world ever told her she was a good kisser where they retarded or something?

"Now CC are you a virgin?" she asked braking the kiss but I was court off guard with the question.
"Yes" I said slowly of course I'm a virgin, I'm only fourteen for fuck sake.
"Oh then don't worry I won't hurt you" she said then kissing me again, wait what she's not a virgin how many times has she has sex, why does she think I'm going to have sex now.
"Wait, wait, wait"
"What, what's wrong?"
"Amanda your not a virgin are you?"
"Of course I'm not"
"How many times have you done it?"
"I don't know I lost count after ten?".
"Wait what?" I got out of her grip and off the bed
"Amanda I'm not going to have sex with you now not at this age"
"You know what CC? I'm not braking up with you but call me when you become a real man and is ready to take what so many boys want and I'm not going to wait forever". She leaving my room and out of my house. What the hell just happed?

A few hours have passed since that weird moment and I will still home by my-self I was flipping through the pictures on my phone then one came up that I thought I deleted it was a picture of me kissing Ivy on the cheek I always loved that picture and for some reason I still do. I remember that day the guys dared me to do it and I was more then happy to do it too, I don't want to delete this picture I know I should but I can't, that was one of the best days of my life and I can't delete it besides who's going to brows on my phone anyway.

It's eight o'clock now my parents are home I've had dinner and just playing some video games when my mum came in.
"Christian I need to talk to you" I paused the game
"Why?, what did I do now?"
"Nothing but Andy called he wants to know why aren't you answering your phone?"
"The battery's dead and I can't find the charger" which is not a lie
"Are you ok?, you didn't say much at dinner"
"Yes mum I'm fine" Ok that was a lie
"Ok just making sure good night honey"
"Night mum" Then she left I couldn't be bothered to play the rest of the game so I just my xbox off and looked to see what was on TV. I switched on film 4 and Sweeny Todd on 'sweeaat'.

But then the memory of me and Ivy watching this film crossed my mind, when the movie was on the part when mrs Lovett showed mr Todd his silver raisers and he sings that song, me and Ivy also sang it our voices sounded great toge and Ivy is a really good singer unlike Amanda she thinks she can sing but she can't, just like she think she can kiss but hell no she can't.

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