Bullied

"Felix..." I sighed as I carefully held his wrist "Who did this to you?"
"It was me..." he lied
"I know it wasn't you. Tell me who's the reason of your bruises"
Felix took a deep breath to tell me in an aggressive way "It was me who did this!"
"No! Don't lie to me!" I took a deep breath to not become upset and keep talking in a gentle voice "I'm not speaking about your cuts. I mean your bruises"
He had an confused, shocked, but also in a strange way empty look at me. It was totally quiet
"There's no way you did this to your own. Just look at you. You haven't got a strong, big physique. You're more like small and slight. ... Please be honest" I tried to get eye contact, but he avoided it... as always
Felix just pulled his sleeve down again and pushed my hand away. His hair over his face again, but as far as I was supposed to notice he cried. I don't love men, but that really made me melt.

Felix was just so.. cute. It's really strange to say that as a man who loves women, but there wasn't another way to describe his appearance.
It made me really sad to see him that weak and broken. His arms full of cuts and scars made it worse.
I just wonder how much pain and sadness has to be in a person to take a blade across the skin. It already looks that painful on the outside. It has to be horrible on the inside.
But pain can get from the inside out.
And Felix wasn't even strong enough to look into other people's eyes. I could imagine how broken he was.

"Please..." I kept being stubborn "I only want to take care of you. It's goi-"
"The others said that, too" he finally whispered something
But it was so softly, I didn't hear him "Sorry?"
Felix pushed his hair completely off his face for the first time and saw directly into my eyes. I just realzed the color of his eyes was green. A very aggressive green. It was really scary.
"The others said that, too" he spoke clearer "They told me to talk about my problems. They swore they'd keep them. And now look at me. What's left? All I do is trying to survive day by day. It really sucks when all your secrets get published. When everyone makes fun of your problems. And you don't have any idea what it feels like.. "

I stared at him. That came unexpected...
I felt so angry. Doing stuff like that is inhuman. How can somebody break someone's trust that easily? Don't they have any feelings?... Didn't they feel guilty in any way?

I shook my head "No, I don't have an idea. But I also don't know how somebody can do this. I feel really sorry for you"
Felix didn't expect that answer. He was just more confused and saw out of the window again.

I had somehow the feeling that this talk made him feel better.

Notes

I'm really sorry for that long break! I'm trying to update as much as before again :)
See you next chapter ❤
And I just realized that it's still the first school day! FOR ABOUT 4 CHAPTERS!!