Bullied

I hang up...
What did I just do? Was that right? Were I supposed to call her and tell her the whole story?
My brain couldn't stop throwing questions at me.

*knock knock*
I straightened "Yeah?"
The heavy, old door slowly opened. It was my mother
"Hello, dear" she said in a lovely way with a tray in her hands.
Mom really took my lunch upstiars! Just for me! So sweet!
She sat down next of me and laid the food on my beside table
"..It's really cute that you took the tray upstairs, but... I'm not hungry.." I told her
She nodded "I know...I just wanted to ask you what's wrong."

I stared on the floor. How was that possible to explain? If I told her I'd break her heart.
My mother always thought I was a perfect little son.. well, she said that a thousand times. And I think she believed it.
It wasn't my intention to break her heart, but saying something like that? Telling her that her son isn't what she always thought?

I sighed
"Ok.. It's alright if you don't want to tell me. You are old enough to have your privacy. But please do me a favor and eat something" she laid her arm around my back
"Ok. Don't worry, mom. It was just a bad day."
She shortly smiled at me, gave me kiss on my cheek and left.
My mother was a real sweetheart

For a few minutes I just stared at my lunch and realized that there wasn't any appetite inside of me.
But I promised to eat something. And so did I.

Usually, the meals my mom cooked were delicious as fuck.
This time, it wasn't that tasteful... Was that me or the food?
After I ate everything, I felt weird... a bit in a sick way... More tired than usual.

As I was about to take the tray downstairs, a little piece of paper on it got my attention.
"I don't care if something changes - I'll always love you anyway♥"
It was my mom's handwriting. A little smile appeard on my face - that was very cute.
I put it into my purse to not loose it.

But that weird feeling in my stomach stayed the whole time

Notes

btw - if you don't like chapters about feelings and stuff like that you shouldn't read this fanfic.
The following parts are going to show how it feels to get bullied, the consequences, the stress for the whole family and how helpless the people in those situations feel. (+ some other stuff)
You're going to discover chapter by chapter a new little message/important detail/thoughts & feelings in a situation like that - so it won't be as exciting as shootings all the time.
But it's pretty interesting if you like to think about mental illnesses and other psycholigic stuff.
Or if you like love and so on
Later it will be exciting - when bullying takes over the life of Andy..
But you'll see

Just wanted to let you know.