Feather of Hope
A song not complete
Hey guys I decided to post a filler in celebration of getting an 10.0 rating! Thank you for reading, commenting, rating, and following me on Instagram. It has been a pleasure writing so far and can not wait for the future!
Previously on FOH:
Draven POV
Once the show was over we immediately started walking to the busses since NG did not have show. When we passed the BFT tent I heard my name being called and so did everyone else we all stopped. That when I saw.................... BLAKE!
He ran to me through the crowd with open arms and hugged me. I of course hugged back.
"I missed you so much !" we said at the same time still in embrace. It was really nice to see him again I still remember our last date before he left for Europe.........
~Flash Back~
Blake was holding my hand as we were going to his dads personal studio to mess around making songs and doing covers. It is always one of my favorite things to do with Blake. He had his hair the same way though it was a brownish-red color. I was the same though I was shorter by 4 inches. When we got there, I immediately let go of his hand and swung the guitar that was on my back around so that it was in the front.
" How about we do ........ Little things!" Blake suggested. Yes, One Direction is one of my guilty pleasures. I nodded in agreement. I started playing the guitar part and he started to sing. Omg he has an amazing voice Tyler is just as good. Then we just messed around making dub step which was hilarious. After that we sat down and talked maybe the third saddest convo in my life! First being told my mother was gone at the age of four (not three because dad thought we would not understand) and second is when my dad told Marina and I about his depression. Blake and I's talked went like this:
"You are really good at making dub step Draven,"he said as we sat in the sound booth.
"Thanks," smiled at him I wanted to ask him to be my boy friend that day.
"Did you watch any more adventure time on watchcartoon.com ?"he asked.
" Yes I am now on the episode when they have Fiona and Cake with Marshal!"I exclaimed.
" I love that episode!" He shouted. His happy face turned into almost a frown. He looked me in the eyes and said ", Draven I been meaning to tell you something though I should have said something sooner."
"Well what is it?"I asked slightly concerned.
"Let me sing you this, I changed some of the words to a certain tense for it to fit the situation," he said.
"Ok!" I said ready to hear.
Blake grabbed an acoustic guitar and started playing it to the tune of Mortician's Daughter.
He started to sing:
"I open my lungs dear.
I sing this song at funerals... no rush.
These lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush.
Baby boy you've held so tightly,
This pain it will visits almost nightly
Missing hotel beds, I'll feel your touch.
I will await dear, a patience of eternity, my crush.
A universal still.
No rust.
No dust will ever grow on this frame,
One million years, and I will say your name.
I love you more than I can ever scream.
I will book my flight so very soon
I will say , "I love you, " as I leave you.
Regrets will haunt my hollow head,
But I'll promise you I will see you again, again.
I sit here and smile dear.
I smile because I think of you and I blush.
These bleeding hollow dials... this fuss.
A fuss is made of miles and travels
When roadways are but stones and gravel. My bleeding heart will conquer every crush.
I will book my flight so very soon
You'll say you love me as you leave me.
Regrets will haunt your saddened heads,
But I promise you that I will see you, again........."
I was a little confused though a little sad at the same time. I asked in a quiet voice
", Blake are-are you ..... leaving?"
He put his head down and then looked up with a few tears", Yes , yes Draven I am. I am going to tour with BTF in Europe until warp tour! And I may not be able to go on warped tour with them," he explained. I could feel hot tears roll down my cheeks as he pulled me into his embrace. "Draven I-I hope I will be able to complete the song when I see you again because it will feel like home when I do see you again," He stated.
I let go of him and looked in to his watery eyes and said ",I like you a lot to and I hope you can sing the rest one day too because I fell not feel complete either until you do."
We hugged each other again and stayed like that for a while until we both stopped crying and calmed down a little. I knew it would only be a year with out him if he did not make the tour in the summer though it was hard to take in. He walked me home with his arm around my shoulder and when we got to the gate he let go and said ", this is it for now!"
I smiled with a few tears,"for now." He then waved and turned to walk back to his house.
That was my last memory of Blake until now.
~reallity~
We let go of his embraced. I was too overwhelmed I ran through the crowd as fast as I could to get advice from the second best - Jayy Von Monroe.
Previously on FOH:
Draven POV
Once the show was over we immediately started walking to the busses since NG did not have show. When we passed the BFT tent I heard my name being called and so did everyone else we all stopped. That when I saw.................... BLAKE!
He ran to me through the crowd with open arms and hugged me. I of course hugged back.
"I missed you so much !" we said at the same time still in embrace. It was really nice to see him again I still remember our last date before he left for Europe.........
~Flash Back~
Blake was holding my hand as we were going to his dads personal studio to mess around making songs and doing covers. It is always one of my favorite things to do with Blake. He had his hair the same way though it was a brownish-red color. I was the same though I was shorter by 4 inches. When we got there, I immediately let go of his hand and swung the guitar that was on my back around so that it was in the front.
" How about we do ........ Little things!" Blake suggested. Yes, One Direction is one of my guilty pleasures. I nodded in agreement. I started playing the guitar part and he started to sing. Omg he has an amazing voice Tyler is just as good. Then we just messed around making dub step which was hilarious. After that we sat down and talked maybe the third saddest convo in my life! First being told my mother was gone at the age of four (not three because dad thought we would not understand) and second is when my dad told Marina and I about his depression. Blake and I's talked went like this:
"You are really good at making dub step Draven,"he said as we sat in the sound booth.
"Thanks," smiled at him I wanted to ask him to be my boy friend that day.
"Did you watch any more adventure time on watchcartoon.com ?"he asked.
" Yes I am now on the episode when they have Fiona and Cake with Marshal!"I exclaimed.
" I love that episode!" He shouted. His happy face turned into almost a frown. He looked me in the eyes and said ", Draven I been meaning to tell you something though I should have said something sooner."
"Well what is it?"I asked slightly concerned.
"Let me sing you this, I changed some of the words to a certain tense for it to fit the situation," he said.
"Ok!" I said ready to hear.
Blake grabbed an acoustic guitar and started playing it to the tune of Mortician's Daughter.
He started to sing:
"I open my lungs dear.
I sing this song at funerals... no rush.
These lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush.
Baby boy you've held so tightly,
This pain it will visits almost nightly
Missing hotel beds, I'll feel your touch.
I will await dear, a patience of eternity, my crush.
A universal still.
No rust.
No dust will ever grow on this frame,
One million years, and I will say your name.
I love you more than I can ever scream.
I will book my flight so very soon
I will say , "I love you, " as I leave you.
Regrets will haunt my hollow head,
But I'll promise you I will see you again, again.
I sit here and smile dear.
I smile because I think of you and I blush.
These bleeding hollow dials... this fuss.
A fuss is made of miles and travels
When roadways are but stones and gravel. My bleeding heart will conquer every crush.
I will book my flight so very soon
You'll say you love me as you leave me.
Regrets will haunt your saddened heads,
But I promise you that I will see you, again........."
I was a little confused though a little sad at the same time. I asked in a quiet voice
", Blake are-are you ..... leaving?"
He put his head down and then looked up with a few tears", Yes , yes Draven I am. I am going to tour with BTF in Europe until warp tour! And I may not be able to go on warped tour with them," he explained. I could feel hot tears roll down my cheeks as he pulled me into his embrace. "Draven I-I hope I will be able to complete the song when I see you again because it will feel like home when I do see you again," He stated.
I let go of him and looked in to his watery eyes and said ",I like you a lot to and I hope you can sing the rest one day too because I fell not feel complete either until you do."
We hugged each other again and stayed like that for a while until we both stopped crying and calmed down a little. I knew it would only be a year with out him if he did not make the tour in the summer though it was hard to take in. He walked me home with his arm around my shoulder and when we got to the gate he let go and said ", this is it for now!"
I smiled with a few tears,"for now." He then waved and turned to walk back to his house.
That was my last memory of Blake until now.
~reallity~
We let go of his embraced. I was too overwhelmed I ran through the crowd as fast as I could to get advice from the second best - Jayy Von Monroe.
Notes
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5/27/13