Ugh why is it so bright? I open my eyes and see my apartment flooded in sunlight. "Morning Tummy." CC says cheerfully.

I roll over to block out the brightness and my headset digs into my cheek. "Why are you up so early?" I groan.

"Tum it's like noon." Ronnie smiles.

"What?" I spring up. "Oh my God I'm late for class!" I start to run around looking for clothes and my music.

"I thought you didn't have class on Saturday." Andy says.

I stop dead. "It's Saturday?" They nod slowly. My body relaxes, "Oh thank God." I collapse back onto the couch.

"Geez I don't think I've ever seen you so tired." Ronnie remarks.

I rub my eyes. "I was beating Jake at CoD all night." I sigh.

"Oh we know." Andy nods. "When I saw the score this morning I couldn't believe my eyes."

"What was it? a thousand to three hundred ninety eight?" Ronnie asks.

"Yeah something like that." Andy nods.

"Hey I'd appreciate it if you didn't talk about me when I'm not there." Jake groans. Wait, Jake? I look around to find him, but I can't. I see my microphone. Oh, I must have forgotten to take off my headset.

"Dude you owe me so many pizzas." I laugh.

"Who are you talking too?" Ronnie asks.

"Yeah yeah yeah..." Jake sighs. "I fell asleep playing you."

"It's Jake."

"From State Farm?" CC asks.

I roll my eyes. "Really? I couldn't tell." I tease.

"Oh shut up Tum!"

"Wait is Jake on your headset?" Andy asks. I nod. He motions me to give him the headset, and I do. "Dude you got your ass kicked!" I roll my eyes and pour myself a cup of coffee. My eye catches my piano. I know you want me, you know I want ya! I hear Pittbull's voice in my head. I roll my eyes. I must be going insane.

"I'm going to shower." I tell them.

"Jake says bye." Andy says. I nod. "She just nodded, Laci don't even care." He smiles. I roll my eyes and walk into my bedroom.

I turn up my stereo and start singing with Chris Motionless. God I want that! He is so hot! I climb into the shower and let the hot water wash over my body. 'When you can't sleep at night' comes on and I start to cry. I think about changing it, but I need to let these tears out. I haven't cried since the guys got here. Not because I'm happy, well I'm happy that they are here, but I'm not happy that they wil be leaving again, or that I'm having nightmares, and not sleeping.

I sink to the floor, and bring my knees to my chest. My body shakes, and a sob escapes my lips. Thank God the music is loud. My mind flicks to the nightmares of Ashley. That makes it worse. Whenever I think of him a huge hole forms in my chest, and my throat closes up. Ugh why can't he be mine?!?!

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