Ahh Everything is so beautiful! The lights, the music, the dresses, everything is perfect! "I"ll love you even after time stops." Ashley whispers into my ear.

"Oh Ashley you're so corny." I giggle.

"I'm that, and another word that rhymes with corny." He chuckles.

"You can't just say that at a gala!" I laugh.

"Annalyse darling!" I look to my right and see my mother and father, hand in hand, on the dansefloor.

"Ma!" I grab Ashley's hand and run over to my parents.

"Oh Annalyse you look simply dazzling." My mother beams. I look down at my emerald dress in embarrassment.

"You're so cute when you're embarrassed." Ashley grabs my chin, and gently pushes it up.

"I am not cute! I am a raging jabberwockey and I will bite your head off" I snap.

Ashley looks down at his crotch them back up to me. "But then what would we do for fun?" I cover my mouth to hide the smile and look at my parents.

"Now I see why she married you." My dad chuckles. "No that's not the reason." He twirls his finger and points at Ashley's downtown area. "I'd never thought I'd see the day that my little Tummy would settle down." He wipes a fake tear from his face.

"And for so long too." My mother smiles.

"I can't wait to meet little Margret-Rose."

I protectively place my hand over my stomach. "Dad I am not naming her Margret-Rose!"

"Oh pooh!" He pouts. "You know Ashley. Having a daughter is a big responsibility."

Ashley looks down at me. "I think I'm ready for it." He places his forehead to mine and I smile.

"Oh look at them." My mother gasps.

Ashley bows and offers me his hand. "May I have this dance?"

"It would be my pleasure." I take his hand.

"I assure you the pleasure is all mine." He brings his lips softly to mine. I've never been this happy in my life...

I gasp and sit straight up in my bed. I'm sweating and breathing really heavily. It was just a dream?!?! I plop back on my bed, and touch my stomach. Ugh I can't even have kids! Tears spill out of my eyes. I see Andy and CC sleeping on the floor. I grab my guitar and quietly exit the apartment.

The cold air hits me and I pull Ashley's sweatshirt tighter around my body. I walk over to the ledge, and sit down, letting my legs drape over the side. I always come out to the roof after I have a bad dream. That really wasn't a bad dream though. I start strumming a melody I've never heard of, and I sing lyrics that I've never sang before.

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though she's right beside you?
When she says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day I told you I was leaving
I remember the make-up running down my face
And the dreams I left behind I didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day I told you I was leaving
I remember the make-up running down my face
And the dreams I left behind I didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day I told you I was leaving
I remember the make-up running down my face
And the dreams I left behind I didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

"That was beautiful." I turn around and see Andy standing in the doorway.

"Thanks." I say softly.

"I din't know you still write songs." He sits down by me.

"I need to get things out I guess." I shrug.

"Sounds like you've got a lot of things to get out." He says gently. "Wanna talk?"

"I've done enough talking for one night."

"I understand." He nods. "Now come on it's cold out here." I grab his hand and follow him inside.

Notes

Song credit to 5 seconds of summer