together we will be unbroken

The show went well as usual. We didn't stay in a hotel tonight be cause it's to far of a drive from Boise,Idaho to Salt Lake City. So we figured out who was going to part with who. I wasn't really feeling the whole party thing tonight. There is just some nagging feeling in the back of my mind....

I'm sitting in the back room talking to Vanessa. "What?!?! You're kiding!" I exclaim.

"No I'm serious, Nicki totally forgot to put on a cami under the sheer top she was wearing." Vanessa is filling me in on the latest news in her high school.

"Wait what color was the shirt and what color was her bra?"

"The shirt was like a really bright yellow and the bra was purple or something."

"Oh my god that's horrible!" I laugh.

"When Mrs. LaClaire told her, her face was soo red." I can hear the smike in her voice. It's a beautiful sound.

"Oh I can imagine." I laugh.

"Vanessa, it's tea time!" I hear Gram yell.

"I have to go..." She sighs.

"Say hi to Gram for me."

"I will. Love you."

"I love you too Nessie." I hang up the phone and smile. It's so nice to know that she is happy again. My phone buzzes. There is no number on the screen. Should I answer it? The ringing stops, but starts back up again. I decide to answer it. "Hello?"

"Hello Laci. Are you having fun on tour?" Aiden's voice mocks. I'm frozen in fear, tears start falling down my face. "I'll take your silence as a yes. So... slept with anyone? It wouldn't surprise me if you did you've always been a whore." I want o say something but I can't form words. "They probably weren't nearly as good as me. Tell me Lace, do you miss me? Do you miss everything I did for you?" I begin to hyperventalate. He chuckles. "I can't wait for Cinncinatti, until then." He hangs up the phone. A panic attack hits me full force. I start shaking and crying. I can't breath. Don't scream, you'll only make everyone worry. Why does he have to come? Why couldn't he just leave me alone?!

"Laci? Lace are you okay?" Andy asks through the door. I try to tel him that I'm fine but I can't form words. "I'm comimg in okay." And before I can protest the door is opened. "Whoa hey calm down. It's okay." He drops to the floor next to me. "What's wrong." I slice the air near my throat. "You can't talk?" I nod. "Come here." He pulls me into his arms amd rocks me back and forth. I'm so pathetic. Why am I so weak? I hate myself. I cry harder. "Shh... it's okay.." Andy says gently. "Do you want me to get Ronnie?" I shake my head no. I don't need to bother anyone else with my problems. I stop crying and my breathing slows, but I'm still shaking really hard.

"Thanks." My voice comes out really raw.

"No problem. Wanna tell me what happened?" I tell him the whole Aiden story. He looks shocked and angry. " How could someone do that do anyone? Especially someone as kind as you. And you were so young too.. That's not right in anyway. Laci, I promise that we will have eyes on you at all times in Cinci okay?"

"Thanks but I don't want to put you to to much trouble.."

"Lace, it's no trouble. I'd rather be put at an extremely minor inconveiniance than see you get hurt. You do so much for everyone and ask for nothing in return. You are selfless and kind, and I know you don't think that but it's true." The whole time he is saying this he is tracing the concealed scars on my forearm. How did he know those were there? "I'll always be here for you if you ever need someone to talk to okay? Promise me that you will come to me when something is wrong."

"I promise." What else could I say? He smiles.

"Do you want to go out there with everyone or do you want to stay in here?"

"Um.. actually I was going to turn in, I'm kinda worn out."

"I understand." He helps me up and follows me to my bunk. "Good night Tum."

"Good night Andy." I crawl into my bunk and close the curtain.

Notes

Okay so the website won't let me update from the computer so i have to do it feom my tablet. I know it turns into a big long paragraph and there are a lot of typos so I'll edit it tomorrow at some point. Thatnks for reading:)