Perfect Weapon

I was confused. Andy Sixx actually kissed me. What does this mean? My lip is still really sore, but the kiss felt too good to pull away from. We stood there, in the middle of the football field kissing. Neither of us showed any sign of moving. Our lips are moving in sync. What does this mean? Does Andy actually like me? I keep asking me so many questions. The unanswered questions are driving me insane. What am I going to do? I know we have been here for at least ten minutes just kissing. I smiled against his lips. A weak smile because of the cut on my lower lip. Andy pulled away and I whined wanting more.

"Are you okay?" He asked me, our foreheads still resting together.

I smiled, "yeah, I am now." I said bluntly and he smirked.

"Here's your camera. I have to go." Vic said and Andy and I smiled at him, bidding him goodbye. I looked back at Andy.

"I'm sorry." He said.

"Why?"

"I shouldn't have kissed you. You probably hate me now, right?" He asked his eyes teary.

"No. I don't hate you." I said giving him a reassuring smile.

"Yeah but people are going to say things...it doesn't feel good either." He said muffled as his face was buried in my hair and neck. I rubbed his back.

"No. I don't care what they say."

"That's why it took so long." He said and I gave him a confused look.

"What?"

"I have liked you from the day I met you. I saw you in art class at the beginning of last year." He said and I motioned for him to continue.

"I had to switch schools because I came out gay. I wasn't dating anyone at the time but it still hurt. First I told my friends. I trusted them so much. The next day I heard some other people that I didn't even know talking about it. None of my 'friends' claimed it so I dropped out. Six months later, my mom made me move to a new school and I did. I came here. I saw you walk into the art room and I knew from that moment I needed to live." He said out of breath when he finished.

"What do you mean, "needed to live"?" I asked afraid that I might already know the answer.

He didn't say anything just pulled up his sleeves, showing me horrific scars.

"I am so sorry." I said and kissed his temple. "I would never do that to you, that's a promise." I said and his head snapped up. "I won't hurt you and don't have any intention to do it either. But I want you to promise me something." I said and he nodded.

"Please..." I took a deep breath trying to contain the tears that were ready to pour. "Stop cutting." I said after a long pause. He nodded and kissed me slowly and passionately. The kiss is full of lust. When we pulled away, he smiled.

"I promise. Thank you." He said and I nodded. "Let me tell you the whole story though. I really need to get this off my chest.

*Flashback 3rd person*
Andy walked down the hall of his school. He was searching for his friends. Austin, Beck, Blaine, Brandon, Cooper, and Asher. He found them at their regular breakfast table. He ran to them and smiled widely.

"Andy why are you so happy?" Asher asked. Asher has black, curly hair that barely passed his eyes and swept to the left on his forehead. His eyes are a dark shade of brown.

"I have big news." Andy said looking from Asher, to Blaine, to Brandon, to Austin, to Cooper. They all exchanged questioning looks then turned their attention back to Andy.

"I'm gay." Andy said and all of their jaws dropped. They all got up.

"We're gonna be late." Cooper said looking at Asher and Blaine who had the same class.

"Yeah me too." Said Brandon and Austin. After that they all ran off.

The next day, Andy woke up feeling good. He did his normal morning routine then walked out the door to school. He noticed some people giving him looks but he brushed it off, not caring.

"Faggot" someone pretended to cough as he walked passed them.

"Find a new boyfriend yet, manwhore." A girl laughed at him and made him feel worse.

He walked to his first class and everyone laughed at him. He ran out and back home. He looked for his razor and took it apart getting one of the blades. He ran the cold, silver blade across his fragile skin. He did this until his arm was completely numb. He was crying, sitting on the floor. His tear stained cheeks burn from being so...hurt. So betrayed. He couldn't stop his loud sobs. At that moment, he went on facebook and shut his account down. He did the same thing with his twitter, snapchat, instagram and vine. He wrapped his arm and went to his bed. He turned on his radio.

"The next song is by an amazing band, Black Overdose! (made up) " The announcer said. Andy listened to the lyrics closely and realized they are amazing. They are speaking for him.

I turned my world into something new,
Just to throw it all away,
I kissed it all goodbye,
I shoved it down the drain,

I can't take it anymore,
As I start crying on the floor,
Begging for a new life,
Begging for them to understand.

Why is it so difficult?
Why is it so hard?
I went to my only solution and slid the blade across my skin!

I look around and find you,
But I am still lost,
I can't seem to get you,
This time I know,
This time I know,
This time I know...
The pain.

I tried to stay calm,
I tried to remember,
The paths I tried to take,
Took me to a dead end,
I was lost in my own life,
Not knowing where to go,

I slowly took out the knife,
I rake it 'cross my skin,
Leaving yet another mark,
And another sin,

I don't care anymore,
I still can't find you!

I look around and find you,
But I am still lost,
I can't seem to get you,
This time I know,
This time I know,
This time I know...
The pain.

I tried to stay calm,
I tried to remember,
The paths I tried to take,
Took me to a dead end,
I was lost in my own life,
Not knowing where to go,

This is the path I have to take,
This is the past I have to keep,
For the memories of finding you,
For the memories of never losing you,
I know you are here to stay,
I remember looking in your eyes.

Oh how I wish you could be here,
And help me through this tragedy.

I look around and find you,
But I am still lost,
I can't seem to get you,
This time I know,
This time I know,
This time I know...
The pain.

*End flashback* (Kellin's pov)

I looked Andy in the eyes. He told me his story. I remember him saying he doesn't ever tell people that story.

Notes

So a few songs I listened to. Some are from other bands but trust me, they are amazing and work out.

1) Everything I Didn't Say 5 seconds of summer
2) Ready To Run One Direction
3) All My Heart Sleeping With Sirens
4) Wild Card, You Think You Know Somebody, and Tattoo (2 different songs) Hunter Hayes.
5) Thnks Fr The Mmrs Fall Out Boy

The song at the end of the story, I wrote the lyrics myself, I literally just thought of things that could be good and threw them in. I really hope you liked it. This chapter was EXTRA long. I just felt like it. Anyway, I dedicated this chapter to,

@hannah...
@JuliaAndAndy4ever
@Andysgirl_forever

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