My Saving Grace

"I'm sorry Andy, I just can't remember...." I whisper with tears in my eyes. I want to remember so badly. He let's go and pulls away from me.
"It's okay. I'll just leave, and you can forget about me. You don't need me in your life right now." He starts to walk away. For some reason it feels like I need him, I don't want him to leave me.
"No, wait. Stay." He stops, but doesn't turn around.
"Why?" He asks confusion laces in his voice.
"Because, I-I may sound crazy, but I feel like I need you." I say feeling silly. What am I saying? What if he laughs at me? He turns around and looks at me for a long time in silence, and my cheeks turn red.
"What?" I ask finally.
"You don't even remember me, I'm just a stranger to you."

"I know, but I feel like I know you in a way, or I'm comfortable around you. Maybe.....maybe we can make new memories. Anyways you said that we only knew each other for four days. So why can't we make up for those four days?"
"Because, it was the way we met....I'd like to say that we saved each other. I was only supposed to catch you, but then....Do you believe in love at first sight?" He asks. I think for a second and shake my head.
"No, I don't." He laughs to himself.
"Oh, yeah I forgot. You don't believe in love at all." He says. How did he know that?
"How did you know that?" I ask. I've never told anyone, and I never would.
"Because, you told me. You told me about your dad, and how you wasn't able to love. I told you that I could change your mind. You said that you didn't think I could, but I was determined. I took you up on a hill, there were candles, and we was looking at the stars. And then you asked me to sing, and I did. I sang you a song called Saviour and then you fell asleep. The next day is the day you jumped. I thought you seemed happy. You hugged me and told me that you would call me. I don't know what went wrong." He says sadness in his voice. He turns back around to leave.

"So, that's it. You're just going to give up? Leave and disappear." He nods, still facing away from me.
"Why?" I ask.
"Because, I'm pretty sure I'm the one that made you jump the second time. I'm not good for you, you don't need me in your life. And besides, you don't believe in love."
"So? You said it yourself that you was determined that you could change my mind."
"Yeah, but I can't." He says.
"How do you know?" I ask.
"Because, you already love someone else."
"Who?" How does he know who I love?
"You love Zeke. You may not see it yet, but you do." How does he know about Zeke? Anyways, me and Zeke could never be a thing, even if I liked him like that. Andy starts to walk towards the door.
"Andy..." He ignores me. "Andy wait!" I don't want him to leave, I want him to stay. He still ignores me, slowly walking away. I panic and rip the IV out of my arm, making it sting and the heart monitor that's on my finger, making the machine flat line and a loud beeping erupts from it.

Andy keeps walking away.
"Andy, don't leave!" I shout running towards him. I feel a little dizzy and my head is starting to hurt. Three nurses start running towards my room. I get out into the hallway and the nurses surround me. One of the nurses grab on to me.
"Let me go! Andy!" He's all the way down the hall, about to go into the elevator. He turns around and looks at me. I struggle against the nurse's hold. I want to run to him.
"Goodbye Jessica....I love you." His deep voice echos down the long hallway. Without another word he steps in the elevator and the doors close.
"No! Come back!" I scream and flail, a single tear falls from my eye. The nurses grip gets harder and another nurse comes running down the hall. He's holding a.....needle? I scream as I feel a tiny pinch in my arm, yep it was a needle. I struggle against my weakness but finally give up and let the blackness pull me under.

Brandon's POV:

I wake up to Jessica screaming. I jump up and look around, she's not in the hospital bed. I run out into the hallway. Two nurses are holding an unconscious Jessica.
"What happened?" I ask angrily. Where's Andy?
"She started freaking out and we had to put her to sleep." A male nurse explains holding up a needle. I move out of the way as they carry her back into the room. They lay her back on the bed and hook her up to the IV and heart monitor.
"So, she just decided to start rip out her IV and go crazy? For no reason?" I ask. A brown haired nurse shakes her head.
"No, she was running after a tall boy with dark hair. She kept calling his name, Andy I think it was..."
"Yeah, his name's Andy." The nurses check her vitals and then leave. What happened while I was asleep? Did Andy do something to her, I don't know, but I'll find out when she wakes up.

After four hours of silence, except her calling Andy's name a couple of times, her eyes open. She sits up quickly, looking around.
"Andy?" She calls out.
"He's not here." I tell her. She sighs loudly, pulls her knees up to her chest and puts her face in them.
"What happened?" I ask her.
"He left Brandon....he left me."
"What do you mean?" I ask. I have to admit, that I hated Andy at first. But that's because I hate any guy that hangs around Jessica, I'm just very protective over her. But Andy not leaving the hospital once while she was out proved to be true love, at least in my eyes. He earned my trust. "He left me. Because I can't remember he left. He said he wasn't good for me. He told me to just forget about him. He said I don't love him, I love somebody else but I think I do love him. Brandon I just want to remember." What she's saying is barely audible because she's crying.

I was relieved when I heard that Jessica lost her memory, because she couldn't remember what me and Callie did. But now I feel bad, I don't like seeing her like this.
"No, he wouldn't do that. He loves you." I say to her, he loves her I know that much.
"He left Brandon. He's gone."

Jessica's POV:

"I can make your pain go away..." I look around to find the source of the voice. It can't be Brandon's, it was a girls.
"How?" I whisper.
"Do it..."
"Do what?" I whisper again, wiping my eyes.
"Kill yourself, your pain will go away, I promise..." It's the girl, me. And then I remember why I even came back. I wanted to see Brandon one more time. And now that I have, it is my time to go. Anyways, I don't think I can live with this Lost feeling I have inside of me.

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