My Saving Grace

I sit up in the hospital room gasping, just to find its all white again. The only thing that is not so blindingly white is the bed I'm sitting in.
"No! You said I can go back!" I scream looking around. I hear a light laugh, and the girl appears in front of me again. She's back in the torn nightgown, her hair tangled and deep gashes all over her arms, blood streaming down her hands and dripping off of her fingertips.
"But you don't want to really go back, do you?" She asks in a cold voice.
"What?" I ask, confused.
"The reason you're not gone yet is because your mind isn't cleared, you don't want to go back."
"But I do." I say getting out of the bed.
"No....You don't. You're slowly killing yourself, and if you go back, you'll just be labeled as crazy, they think you jumped."
"How do you know all f this?" I ask taking a step closer to her.
"Because.....I'm you. I'm what you really look like on the inside. You fake a smile everyday, so no one has to deal with you. And then you sit silently in your room and cut away, thinking it makes everything better but all your doing is killing yourself. Your not happy and you never will be. It'll only kill you eventually."

"Then what do I do?" I ask, realizing everything she said was true.
"You have to end your misery. Its the only thing that will make you happy." Does she mean I have to kill myself?
"I've already tried, it didn't work." I say and she smiles.
"I know, but even if you would have accomplished your jump, you wouldn't have died."
"Then what do I do?"
"Cut......Its the only thing that your good at anyways. To scar your skin with the pain you feel inside. You just got to cut deeper." She whispers the last part.
"Will it hurt?" I ask. She shakes her head.
"No, You wont feel the pain knowing you'll finally be happy after years. Do you really like suffering and acting like everything is fine? Don't you want it to end?" She asks and I nod.
"Then do it....You have to." I nod.
"Okay, I'll do it. I just want to see Brandon one more time." The cuts on her arms slowly start to fade.
"Ok the decision has been made." She starts to fade.
"Thank you...." After she disappears completely blackness fills The room and a loud beeping fills my ears.

"Jessica.....Jessica please wake up...." I can hear Brandon's voice.
I push my eyelids open, feeling and automatic pain in my head and somethings in my mouth. I cough chocking on the plastic tube stuck in my throat. I hear Brandon's voice say something and two nurses rush in, taking the tube out. I look up to see Brandon and a tall guy. He has dark hair and stunning blue eyes. Who is he? What happened? Why am I in a hospital.
"What Happened?" I ask, my voice horse.

Notes

I'm sorry it took so long to update, I know its short its just a filler. Ive been really stressed out, and feeling really down. I just see only the bad things in anything anymore but I'll try to update as soon as possible.
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