Save Me From Myself
Unconscious
Similar nightmares flooded through my head.
Nightmares of my father finding me and dragging me back home.
My mother, hunting me down and beating me senseless.
My father, forcing me to do his horrifying deeds.
It seemed that every time I pulled myself out of one dream, I was sucked into an even worse one.
This went on for what seemed like forever.
Just when I was about to give up hope I'd ever escape from my mind, the disturbing images became fainter and fainter. Though I was still unconscious, I could start to hear muffled voices. It wasn't long until I could make out who was speaking, and I caught part of their conversation.
"...hospital already!" It was Jake. "She's been out for what? Almost 2 hours? Andy, I know you don't want to, but she could be seriously hurt after the spill she took!"
"No!" Now it was Andy who was speaking. "I don't care how many times you say it. If we go to a hospital, they'll call her parents and they'll find out where she is. Emily wouldn't want that. She'll work through it, she's tough."
I didn't notice it before, but now that I did, I started to get worried.
Although I could hear their voices, I couldn't feel my body. When I tried to move my arms, nothing happened. I tried small movements like wiggling my fingers. Nothing. I started to freak out in my head.
What if I never got out of this coma-like faint? What if that fall that I thought would have been harmless, caused a lot more damage then I thought? If I could feel anything, I'd be shaking.
"Look." It was Andy again. "Everyone's upset and freaking out. Just... go home and I'll call when she wakes up."
"Hey!" Paige, slight irritation in her voice, said. "You may be her boyfriend and all, but I'm her best friend. I'm not going anywhere."
"Ya man." Now I heard Jinxx's voice speak up. "Emily's our friend. We're not just gonna leave her in this condition. I'm not gonna go anywhere until I know she's alright."
Murmurs of agreement spread throughout the group. And I felt a warmness in my chest.
They were all staying for me... to make sure I was okay. I was grateful... grateful to be loved and cared for. Wait-...
Warmness. I felt warmness in my chest! I could feel my chest again!
A heavy wave of relief spread over me as I could start to feel my stomach again. Though I still wasn't able to move yet, I could slowly feel my body again.
It took a while, I patiently waited until I felt feeling back in the end of my fingertips. I knew I had control now. I had a body... I guess... now.
Suddenly I heard footsteps approach, and a voice lowly spoke.
"Andy..." it was Jake again. "You haven't left her side in 8 hours. You need sleep!"
Woah, woah, woah, wait. 8 hours?! How have I been out for 8 hours? It's only felt like an hour since I woke up. There's no way that much time passed. Holy shit...
Jake continued to speak in a hushed whisper. "We're all worried about her. We're all staying over here for the night to keep close tabs on her. But, it's 2 am... you have to go to sleep."
I heard Andy's deep sigh, and I felt his hands enclose mine.
"I told you," he sternly said, "I'm not sleeping, or moving until she wakes up. Even if it takes days! I won't leave her side."
"I know man..." Jake's voice got even softer. "But..." he groaned. "Fine. But... sleep beside her. You can be with her without becoming an insomniac."
My closed eyes became wet with tears. I couldn't move. I couldn't speak. Yet they still stayed by my side. Andy's been with me non-stop for over 8 hours. He did that... for me. The warmness in my chest grew stronger.
Andy huffed another breath, and I heard him get to his feet.
"Fine. I guess you're right..."
I felt his hands slide under my back and my legs, and I felt as he heaved me into his arms, and hugged me close to his chest.
“Goodnight,” I heard Jake say, then his footsteps started to fade.
“Wait!” Andy called out to him. “Jake… if she’s not awake by tomorrow,” he paused, “I guess we should take her to a hospital.”
There was silence for a minute, then Jake spoke softly.
“Are you sure, Andy?” he asked. "I've been thinking about that. About what I said, I mean." He started stumbling with his words. "Are you sure that's a smart idea. Is it the right one?"
"Smart?" Andy said. "No. Probably not. But it is the right one. Her safety is all that matters." He trailed off as I felt him cradle me tightly.
"You really love her, dont you?" Jake murmured.
Andy's fingers lightly caressed my cheek, and I felt him lean in so close I felt his breath on my face.
"So much..." he whispered. "I've only known her for, what, two months? And... I just can't imagine my life without her now. I've never felt this way about anyone. Not Scout. Not Juliet. Only her." His lips lightly kissed mine, then he pulled away.
Never in my life have I wanted to talk more than right now.
Strength surged through me, and with all the effort that I had, I pushed and forced my eyelids open.
Suddenly, the weight from my eyelids lifted, and it was then that I realized I was holding my breath.
Yes! I yelled in my head. I'm awake!
I harshly breathed out, and slowly, my eyes opened.
Everything was blurry, and I gasped to return my breathing to normal. My vision slowly gathered to my surroundings.
I said the only word thing that was on my mind.
"Andy..." My voice came out croaky and weak.
Andy, who's head was turned towards Jake, snapped back towards me. His eyes widened as his jaw dropped.
"Emily!" Andy yelled as a smile that stretched from ear to ear appeared. "Oh my god. Emily, you're finally awake!"
He showered me with kisses as I breathlessly laughed.
"Jake, get the others!" Andy waved his hand at the lead guitarist, who looked so shocked and happy that he was frozen. But Andy's command seemed to break him free, because just moments later he sprinted upstairs, screaming out everyone's names.
"Emily. Oh my god Emily." Andy continued to say through kisses. "My princess. My everything. I love you so much. I'm so glad you're okay. You scared me so much. I'll never let this happen again. Please know that you're safe here. I love you. We all love you. We wont let anything happen to you..."
He continued to ramble on, giving me never ending kisses.
I was filled with so much emotion that my eyes started watering.
"Andy, I love you too. I'm so sorry! I'm so weak for what I did. I put you through this and-"
I was cut off as Andy's lips crashed into mine.
His kiss was full of passion and love, and I felt a pang of sadness when he pulled away.
"Emily, that wasn't your fault. It wasn't the fall that did this. It was when you hit your head that you... passed out. I think you have a concussion. I should've been there to catch you. I should've been right by your side ready to comfort you. I'm the one who should be sorry."
Andy raised his hand, and rested it on the side of my head. He slowly rubbed my temple with his thumb.
I winced as a sharp pain shot through my head.
Andy, who looked surprised and scared, quickly tried to pull his hand away. But before he could, I grabbed his wrist, and gave him a weak smile. I didn't care if it hurt. I missed his touch...
I slowly placed his hand back onto the side of my head, and sighed softly. I looked up at him, and stared into his blue-gray eyes. It then hit me how much I missed his face too... I pulled him in, and lightly kissed his soft lips. He eagerly kissed me back.
"Emily?!" Paige's yell made me jump, and I yanked myself away from andy. But his hand stayed on my cheek.
Seconds later, I heard footsteps thundering above me.
"Better do this while I have you to myself," Andy said, a slight smile on his face.
Andy was now sitting up, and he pulled me into his lap.
Immediately, my whole head started to pound, and a wave of dizziness came over me. I started to fall backwards, but felt his hands grab onto my back, and hold me up.
"Oh god..." Andy's eyebrows furrowed together, and pain plastered his face. "I'm hurting you."
Carefully, he laid me down again until my back hit the couch cushion.
I felt sad and shook my head. "No. I don't care. I don't care if it hurts." I tried to lift up my hand, and rest it on the back of his neck.
Before I could get my hand near him, he pushed it away, and put my arm back by my side.
"I care," he sternly said. His lips drew into a straight line.
I was about to try again when I heard everyone run down the stairs. In seconds, I was being surrounded by everyone.
"Emily! I'm so glad you're awake!" Jinxx hugged me tightly. My head continued to pound.
"Ya, babygirl! We love you!" CC took my hands and swung our arms.
Paige stood there, hands over her heart, and waited until everyone finally gave me a break to breathe.
She walked over to me, and locked me in a tight hug.
Andy had now stood up, and he paced around the corner of the living room.
I wanted him by my side. I wanted him to hold me.
"I'm so glad you're awake. I love you so much. It's so great to see your eyes again." Paige kissed my cheek and smiled. Just then, a yawn shook her whole body. I smiled slightly.
"Paige, you look awfuly tired. You should sleep. I'll still be here in the morning."
She giggled. "Ya. I probably should sleep. I hate to leave you alone... but you have Andy! So you'll be in good hands."
I looked back over to Andy, who kept the pained expression on his face.
Paige turned away, and grabbed Ashley's hand.
Ashley turned over his shoulder. "Good seeing you up and awake, Emmi!" With that, they were gone.
"Alright," Jake said. "Guess that's our cue. It's after 2 am. We'll see you tomorrow, hun!" Jake was gone almost moments after.
I heard CC laugh as he walked to Jinxx. He had 2 monsters and a pizza in his hands. "Fuck that. We're gonna watch movies and do crazy shit all night!"
Jinxx jumped. "Hell ya, man! Goodnight, guys!" They ran up the stairs, cackling and disscusing what they were gonna do for the night.
Andy and I were all alone.
He stared at me from across the room, and I tried to sit up.
"No." Andy ran over to me, and kneeled down over me. He pushed me down, and I frowned.
"Here..." Andy huffed. As carefully as he could, he picked me up. His hand slid under my head, supporting it.
He sat down with me in his lap, and turned. He laid down on his back, and flipped me over. My chest now pressed against his, and I smiled as I felt his warmth.
"Andy..." I sighed out his name. "I don't want to keep you from preparing for your shows, or your friends..."
"You're not. Emily, all I care about is you. I'm gonna be by your side until you're 100% better." His hand started to stroke my hair.
Everytime his fingers touched my head, pain shot through me. It wasn't that bad... but it still hurt. But his touch made it feel good at the same time.
"Am I hurting you?" he asked.
"No," I lied. If he knew it hurt, he would stop, and I didn't want that.
"Try to get some sleep, sweetheart. I want you well and ready as soon as possible."
"I love you, Andy," I mummbled. I felt drained.
"I love you too, Angel." I felt his breathing slow, and my eyelids grow heavy.
All the pain from my head faded, and I fell into a light sleep, my last thought I remembered was me praying I didn't feel worse in the morning.
you should totally continue, this story is amazing! its one of my favorites!
4/21/15